September 8, 2011.
That was my last post. LOL 2 months. should i say its a new life? a fcuked life? or i just moved on? or now only i got the guts to continue writing my blogs?
trust me. i don't meant to neglect my blog. it just that, its really funny, the previous post i was with Mic, and after that, we broke up. LOL yea we broke up. she back to her ex, and i moved on like a emo hai. just that i hold until now, 2 months later, only write this, reason? i don't know. probably it is just because i don't want it looks so fast breaking up with her? i don't know man.
well that's it. the fact we broke up and it do takes me some times before i recover and moved on.
good things i was hell busy with taekwondo. in the beginning there is martial art night. needa think of demo item without master acknowledges. of course, as usual, we trained without proper guides and without professional advice which lead me to injured and injuries. sien. til today my injuries didn't really recover. but the demo on martial art night went well without saying.
and one after another, 4th tarc championship. another headache. need to train huey miin and xin lei for poomsae. at least, huey miin got 4th place. LOL
and i ter-pull my ligament again during one of the practice. FML. and i can't even kick high with my left leg. hopefully it is ok by the time i write this.
now that demos all gone. success. and times flies like effing fast. its week 9 now and i need to hand in my thesis and assignment but FML i never touch any.
FFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
i don't give a shit on my thesis and assignment. sigh.... and event come at just the right time.
i don't know waht to do now. procrastinating all my jobs while feeling like playing pokemon. i've been skipping classes like no body business and of course i still alive.
just that i failed sohai corp comm and psychology. God knows how the heck i failed corp comm. FML i wrote so much and confident only to realized Mr Fazham said i never show my work to anyone so all this while only me that thinks my answers was correct. FML. he's probably right.
assignment due thursday. tomorrow hand in to kel sern. but havent read a shit. thesis? im so fcuked. and i felt like playing pokemon after all.
and, since martial art night, i came to knew this girl, susan. and falls deeply into her the moment i knew her. she was't the type that sweet girl. or polite. she's pretty rough type of girl.
so i had no idea why i like her on my first sight. and still, i was single now. hahahaha.
i think im getting sleepy and gives no shit. do tomorrow la.
recently went out alot with tkd gang. movies, steamboats, etc etc.....
Eric Leong signing off.
~ Light Up The Darkness ~
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Thursday, September 8, 2011
continue from previous entry
yay! second day, also, last day :(
2nd September 2011, Friday!! its Friday!!
i woke up with the most beautiful face on earth, my BaBY May!!!! :D
its been a dream waking up with her in my arms, seeing the face of an angel, a juicy lips awaiting me to receive her morning kiss. ILY MCMS
wake up, hang around the house, then i decided to have a walk with her. she got hungry, so i bought her bread. then went beside lake to see fish, bought a loaf of bread and feed it to the fishes. and we saw a HUGGEEEE keli, got 2 tortoise! and a koi :D
too bad couldn't find the photos. its with May i think but i couldn't find it lol.
but at least i got this :P
ops.... alah never mind my personal blog ma... :)
luv you baby!! muacks!!! =*
after that. back house, have pasta as breakfast!! woohoo i love pasta :P
credit to haylie ben!
then we lie on my bed , i show her some funny videos in my phone, and i fell asleep with the phone in my hand == sleepy huh ? ==
after that, 11.30am start packing. then we off to check out. woo woo T.T
i wish i could stay longer ......
then i accompany May to The Mines for her dad to pick her up. then i follow wan xuan car back setapak. go to wangsa walk, have movie, The Smurf, with Ai hui, Teck Yu, Sim Lui, Wei Jie, Phee Yee, CK, and me.
i slept 80% through the movie. cause no interest at all. i accompany them watch cause wan xuan fetch me back so i mai accompany lo...
i should've watch it man. but too sleepy. never mind lo...
then had A&W as our lunch before movie.
after all finished, we go back to our own house.
bila ku sangka hari panas sampai malam, tak dijangka hujan di waktu petang. sigh
she said i sweet talk too much to her. well i suppose, its not a good thing also. people will get bored easily. so i shall change. and i did. i know, eric leong. you being too fast. too serious. you bring thing too fast. and now its hurting you.
me: yea, when she said so, i cried.
me2: what?
me: yea. i cried.
me2: the hell?
me: i know right.... im a sensitive bastard.
me2: you know it, why not, try bring things slow down? you know, with your condition, you are scaring the hell out of her you know...
me: i know. i ain't have guts to tell her. knowing she might feel pressure. i don't want to lose her. she is the world to me now. i wish, i could slow down. but i couldn't.
me2: not you can't dude. you choose not to. love is blind. you can't see. you can't feel.
me: i feeling... no security.... afraid she will leave me.
me2: i know you love her too much. that is why you feeling like this man. i know. i know how you feel man. but she see you like this, i bet, she'll freak out. she would wondering, the hell you thinking?
chill la bro. just, give both of you guys time. TIME ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
it just the beginning of the relationship. anything you having now is challenge. if you fail, you failed. if you succeed, that's true love.
and stop, asking yourself, who love who more. who sacrifice more. love never is equal bro.
and i think you should tell her how you feel. no point you depress and emo here alone. she is your gf. i know she love you. she called you baby, muacks you. just, treasure her, let he do what she want. if you trust her, if she love you, nothing shall stand between you both.
me: ...
me2: i don't know how to tell you anymore. well, TIME bro... TIME~~ just chill la.
me: i can't concentrate. yesterday, 7 September Wednesday, once i reach my room in tbr, i straight emo. depress. i tell you. that 15 minutes is hell for me. i feel like, want to end my life. want to withdraw. i know. people tell me, don't think so much. i still got my family with me, friends. its not the end of the world. now its not like you both are breaking up. why you depress like kena dump??? LOL
me2: LOL funny la you. you talked too much to her jor la. now if you tell again, she will think you fan lo... but you got no choice. she is your gf. she love you. she has the right to know how you feel. Eric leong, if you can't take care yourself, you being so emotional, over sensitive, so fragile. how you gonna give her security? how to give her trust? do you love her?
me: yes. i love her. i love Michelle.
me2: then that's all what matter. don't make it complicated la dude. seriously. chill. enjoy your relationship. its new! and you got Michelle! what a sweet girl!! you should be grateful man. she love you! she choose to be with you!! despite her parents unhappy, she still stay with you! she give up her past and be with you! you are more important to her!!!
me: i know. i ain't feeling i'm important as last time. i felt, we are getting further away. i know a movie with a guy is nothing. but, sorry. i can't accept that.
me2: if you can't accept that, tell her how you feel. so that she can understand you. she apologies right? and promised you she won't do that again right? then ok jor la. chill la. and you know what, she still small. she is, real baby XD
maybe she not ready for serious relationship. what she want is just a normal relationship. not a serious one. so you calm down. play it slow. ok?
me: she said, last time, her ex didn't sms her after school hour. like part time bf. i'm not.
but she is being like him now......
me2: wait! stop comparing man. stop it. what her ex your ex. stop it man. stop it. its YOU and HER that matter now.
me: thanks man. thanks.
me2: you're welcome. i'm, yourself, i am you. and i am talking to myself now. LOL you owed me dude. XD
chill la bro. go to gym la...
me: ok. lets go man.
me2: leave your phone at home. concentrate :)
me: seriously? ok.
me2: trust her k? trust her.
me: i love Michelle Chui!!!! here is a photo of us, last Sunday after taekwondo training, i went home, and she dated me :)
me2: ish. kau tak habis habis post kissing photo ==
me: LOL i only have these photo at my phone ma. the rest with her :P
me2: lets go bro.
me: lets go. before i sign off, i would like to tell myself, i want to stay strong!! stay strong for Michelle!! for her!! i want to be happy with her. sweet sweet memories with her.
I LOVE YOU MCHS <3
~ Light Up The Darkness ~
2nd September 2011, Friday!! its Friday!!
i woke up with the most beautiful face on earth, my BaBY May!!!! :D
its been a dream waking up with her in my arms, seeing the face of an angel, a juicy lips awaiting me to receive her morning kiss. ILY MCMS
wake up, hang around the house, then i decided to have a walk with her. she got hungry, so i bought her bread. then went beside lake to see fish, bought a loaf of bread and feed it to the fishes. and we saw a HUGGEEEE keli, got 2 tortoise! and a koi :D
too bad couldn't find the photos. its with May i think but i couldn't find it lol.
but at least i got this :P
ops.... alah never mind my personal blog ma... :)
luv you baby!! muacks!!! =*
after that. back house, have pasta as breakfast!! woohoo i love pasta :P
credit to haylie ben!
then we lie on my bed , i show her some funny videos in my phone, and i fell asleep with the phone in my hand == sleepy huh ? ==
after that, 11.30am start packing. then we off to check out. woo woo T.T
i wish i could stay longer ......
then i accompany May to The Mines for her dad to pick her up. then i follow wan xuan car back setapak. go to wangsa walk, have movie, The Smurf, with Ai hui, Teck Yu, Sim Lui, Wei Jie, Phee Yee, CK, and me.
i slept 80% through the movie. cause no interest at all. i accompany them watch cause wan xuan fetch me back so i mai accompany lo...
i should've watch it man. but too sleepy. never mind lo...
then had A&W as our lunch before movie.
after all finished, we go back to our own house.
bila ku sangka hari panas sampai malam, tak dijangka hujan di waktu petang. sigh
she said i sweet talk too much to her. well i suppose, its not a good thing also. people will get bored easily. so i shall change. and i did. i know, eric leong. you being too fast. too serious. you bring thing too fast. and now its hurting you.
me: yea, when she said so, i cried.
me2: what?
me: yea. i cried.
me2: the hell?
me: i know right.... im a sensitive bastard.
me2: you know it, why not, try bring things slow down? you know, with your condition, you are scaring the hell out of her you know...
me: i know. i ain't have guts to tell her. knowing she might feel pressure. i don't want to lose her. she is the world to me now. i wish, i could slow down. but i couldn't.
me2: not you can't dude. you choose not to. love is blind. you can't see. you can't feel.
me: i feeling... no security.... afraid she will leave me.
me2: i know you love her too much. that is why you feeling like this man. i know. i know how you feel man. but she see you like this, i bet, she'll freak out. she would wondering, the hell you thinking?
chill la bro. just, give both of you guys time. TIME ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
it just the beginning of the relationship. anything you having now is challenge. if you fail, you failed. if you succeed, that's true love.
and stop, asking yourself, who love who more. who sacrifice more. love never is equal bro.
and i think you should tell her how you feel. no point you depress and emo here alone. she is your gf. i know she love you. she called you baby, muacks you. just, treasure her, let he do what she want. if you trust her, if she love you, nothing shall stand between you both.
me: ...
me2: i don't know how to tell you anymore. well, TIME bro... TIME~~ just chill la.
me: i can't concentrate. yesterday, 7 September Wednesday, once i reach my room in tbr, i straight emo. depress. i tell you. that 15 minutes is hell for me. i feel like, want to end my life. want to withdraw. i know. people tell me, don't think so much. i still got my family with me, friends. its not the end of the world. now its not like you both are breaking up. why you depress like kena dump??? LOL
me2: LOL funny la you. you talked too much to her jor la. now if you tell again, she will think you fan lo... but you got no choice. she is your gf. she love you. she has the right to know how you feel. Eric leong, if you can't take care yourself, you being so emotional, over sensitive, so fragile. how you gonna give her security? how to give her trust? do you love her?
me: yes. i love her. i love Michelle.
me2: then that's all what matter. don't make it complicated la dude. seriously. chill. enjoy your relationship. its new! and you got Michelle! what a sweet girl!! you should be grateful man. she love you! she choose to be with you!! despite her parents unhappy, she still stay with you! she give up her past and be with you! you are more important to her!!!
me: i know. i ain't feeling i'm important as last time. i felt, we are getting further away. i know a movie with a guy is nothing. but, sorry. i can't accept that.
me2: if you can't accept that, tell her how you feel. so that she can understand you. she apologies right? and promised you she won't do that again right? then ok jor la. chill la. and you know what, she still small. she is, real baby XD
maybe she not ready for serious relationship. what she want is just a normal relationship. not a serious one. so you calm down. play it slow. ok?
me: she said, last time, her ex didn't sms her after school hour. like part time bf. i'm not.
but she is being like him now......
me2: wait! stop comparing man. stop it. what her ex your ex. stop it man. stop it. its YOU and HER that matter now.
me: thanks man. thanks.
me2: you're welcome. i'm, yourself, i am you. and i am talking to myself now. LOL you owed me dude. XD
chill la bro. go to gym la...
me: ok. lets go man.
me2: leave your phone at home. concentrate :)
me: seriously? ok.
me2: trust her k? trust her.
me: i love Michelle Chui!!!! here is a photo of us, last Sunday after taekwondo training, i went home, and she dated me :)
me2: ish. kau tak habis habis post kissing photo ==
me: LOL i only have these photo at my phone ma. the rest with her :P
me2: lets go bro.
me: lets go. before i sign off, i would like to tell myself, i want to stay strong!! stay strong for Michelle!! for her!! i want to be happy with her. sweet sweet memories with her.
I LOVE YOU MCHS <3
~ Light Up The Darkness ~
A Fun and Memorable Trip to The Mines!!!
On 1 September and 2 September 2011, Thursday and Friday.
20 monkeys from TARC TAEKWONDO went to the Mines Water Sports Village for our semester break trip!!
Supposedly the trip venue is in Puchong. Well i don't know the real reason behind it. i was just informed that its the same management and they replace the venue to the Mines and there we go. i guess its nearer compare to Puchong. but i shall prefer Puchong despite the distance. but after all, the Mines is not bad except we got ambush by cockroaches 3 times LOL ==
OK. first day, 2pm date with May at The Mines. i was kinda late few minutes. cause her dad early fetch her there jor. ok. the day before, tkd gang went to Jalan Genting Klang to have a badminton session. that is when after the badminton session, we went to Carrefour to buy steamboat, pasta and BBQ ingredient, cause NSK no open ==
after Carrefour, we went to Ai Hui's house to put the food into fridge. then only continue to Jusco cause some items not available at Carrefour
OK that was Wednesday, 31 August 2011.
on 30 August 2011 i went to Jusco to buy the flowers for May. i guessed, Daisy? not sure though LOL
then on Wednesday go collect lo. then back tbr room, bath and rush back to mom's house cause its getting late liao.
OK, continue first day, then i reached the mines, but the other end. dad fetch. but May was at the other end. well guess her dad don't let her go down alone. want to see her enter the group of friends, baru leave. so i called her to meet up, and her dad directed me to his car, meet liao, only go the mines main entrance together.
then after get down the car, we walked into the mines, and i gave her the flower.
me: Baby, can you be my girlfriend?
May: of course la!
:D
and we walk in the mines..... suppose i want to go find them geh... but May said don't want so early la. want dating first wor XD so sweet :P
but chewling called and said she reached there liao want to bring us go to the Heritage Village. so boh bian, mai keep find the way out from the mines and meet chew ling. seriously. i kept lost in the mines == the hell.....
the reached there, yam cha at the kopitiam there. around 3.15pm we checked in to the suite. 2 big rooms and 1 small room. 3 toilets.
not bad. quite luxurious. with nintendo wii some more LOL
then quickly put our stuff and off to WATER SPORTS!!! XD
nice man. we played banana boat, then got one power jet ski drag a buoy that can sit by 2 and 3 people. depend whether you will fall or not but banana boat definitely will fall XD
ride 2 times the buoy and banana boat too. nais man....
nothing nicer when you have your gf to join you :D
May look so beautiful tim :P
then the last water activity we had is a ride on boat :D no falling into water but just take a ride around the water, and we saw SWAN!!!! serious!! i never see one and it was sooo pretty!!!!
the boat driver said it cost RM10,000 for one. they have one pair there. really cool man they seems like fake cause didn't move a lot. but as we move nearer, they start swimming. but we cant get too close cause may scare them. nice man....
then finish all the activities, we go back to room. some go to swim, but i didn't so the rest went to bath.
then off to BBQ!!!
i cooked one chicken wing for baby, and got fishballs, sweet potatoes, hotdog, crab meat, sotong ball, and others.
baby so sweet, keep wipe my sweat away. and keep many food and wait me to eat.
finished, i walked her to suite first since i saw the sign she is sleepy. then with Julius, we walk to convenient shop to buy water. on the way, picked up rm10 for the first time in my life. so i donated it to the club. LOL by purchasing 1.5L coke, 100+ and mineral water XD
this kind of money, don't keep for long la...
do charity better than keep it yourself.
then went home, bath, and we had a long chat beside the window, facing the swimming pool.
and we kissed..... ILY
then we go out to celebrate Julius and Caesar (1Sept), Teck Yu (30 Aug), Wei Jie (10 Sept)'s birthday.
tadaaahh their birthday cake :D
see, they so happy ^^
ops. forgot, our SUITE!!!! :D
not to forget, me and baby May :D
the result of sweating my hair sucks ==
and May always that pretty :D
and there goes our lake......
apa Ai Hui smiling ni == and yea it was me behind there. didn't realize i kena captured photo zzzzzzzz
INILAH BARU TASIK!!! :D
LOL
and my baby May!!! isn't she SWEEEET??? :D
:P
and BBQ time!!!
ps: i always aware of camera XD
:P LOLOLOL
after that, we tried to go play snooker, but to no avail. because can't find any management people. so didn't get to play zzzzzzzzzz
tapi, thanks to Koh Sim Lui. kita ada gambar gambar ni :P
naaaahhh pool table :)
ps: i don't know whose hand is that
naaahhh as a credit to you, Koh Sim Lui
the 'BaBi mulut' XD
LOLOLOL ambik kau hayllie ben XD
my buddy, go through emo with me. tapi tak pernah selamat saya dari keemoan ==
the luizzzz
from left: phee yee, huey miin, hui xin, ai hui
and the 'oldest' couple and surprise package. we surprise they wanted to join us despite their pack didn't join XD
and the 'muka bangga' XD
too bad we couldn't captured much photos during the water sports activities >< else, lagi shok la :P after didn't get to play pool, we get back to room. then accompany May talked awhile, as she get sleepy, i accompany her sleep. suppose girls and guys sleep separate room. but i want to accompany her sleep, cause i know i only have that chance. so i just sleep beside her and wait her fall asleep, before i get crazy with the rest of the group XD i thought of asking her to get back to her room after we finished everything. but it happens that Ben Ben and Caesar sleep in the guy room. so i also hug May to sleep lo... what happened in the master room, the card game, cannot be reveal due to the rule of "what happened in the room, remains in the room" no camera or video is allow but only memories :D but i would say, i had my best laugh there XDXDXD lots of laugh and noise. poor baby got woke up in the middle of the night due to our noises ><
though in between, got some people that less open critic us. lets forget what is the content and remain only happiness.
after finished card game, some of us continue play Chor Dai Di until 4am, baby May message me asked if i still haven't sleep. then i finished my last game, went to bath and brush my teeth before off to bed with her in my arms. that's all for the first day . second day shall continue in second post.
hard to have the mood to write this long blog. no one gonna read it, after all ==
wasted efforts again sigh....
~ Light Up The Darkness ~
20 monkeys from TARC TAEKWONDO went to the Mines Water Sports Village for our semester break trip!!
Supposedly the trip venue is in Puchong. Well i don't know the real reason behind it. i was just informed that its the same management and they replace the venue to the Mines and there we go. i guess its nearer compare to Puchong. but i shall prefer Puchong despite the distance. but after all, the Mines is not bad except we got ambush by cockroaches 3 times LOL ==
OK. first day, 2pm date with May at The Mines. i was kinda late few minutes. cause her dad early fetch her there jor. ok. the day before, tkd gang went to Jalan Genting Klang to have a badminton session. that is when after the badminton session, we went to Carrefour to buy steamboat, pasta and BBQ ingredient, cause NSK no open ==
after Carrefour, we went to Ai Hui's house to put the food into fridge. then only continue to Jusco cause some items not available at Carrefour
OK that was Wednesday, 31 August 2011.
on 30 August 2011 i went to Jusco to buy the flowers for May. i guessed, Daisy? not sure though LOL
then on Wednesday go collect lo. then back tbr room, bath and rush back to mom's house cause its getting late liao.
OK, continue first day, then i reached the mines, but the other end. dad fetch. but May was at the other end. well guess her dad don't let her go down alone. want to see her enter the group of friends, baru leave. so i called her to meet up, and her dad directed me to his car, meet liao, only go the mines main entrance together.
then after get down the car, we walked into the mines, and i gave her the flower.
me: Baby, can you be my girlfriend?
May: of course la!
:D
and we walk in the mines..... suppose i want to go find them geh... but May said don't want so early la. want dating first wor XD so sweet :P
but chewling called and said she reached there liao want to bring us go to the Heritage Village. so boh bian, mai keep find the way out from the mines and meet chew ling. seriously. i kept lost in the mines == the hell.....
the reached there, yam cha at the kopitiam there. around 3.15pm we checked in to the suite. 2 big rooms and 1 small room. 3 toilets.
not bad. quite luxurious. with nintendo wii some more LOL
then quickly put our stuff and off to WATER SPORTS!!! XD
nice man. we played banana boat, then got one power jet ski drag a buoy that can sit by 2 and 3 people. depend whether you will fall or not but banana boat definitely will fall XD
ride 2 times the buoy and banana boat too. nais man....
nothing nicer when you have your gf to join you :D
May look so beautiful tim :P
then the last water activity we had is a ride on boat :D no falling into water but just take a ride around the water, and we saw SWAN!!!! serious!! i never see one and it was sooo pretty!!!!
the boat driver said it cost RM10,000 for one. they have one pair there. really cool man they seems like fake cause didn't move a lot. but as we move nearer, they start swimming. but we cant get too close cause may scare them. nice man....
then finish all the activities, we go back to room. some go to swim, but i didn't so the rest went to bath.
then off to BBQ!!!
i cooked one chicken wing for baby, and got fishballs, sweet potatoes, hotdog, crab meat, sotong ball, and others.
baby so sweet, keep wipe my sweat away. and keep many food and wait me to eat.
finished, i walked her to suite first since i saw the sign she is sleepy. then with Julius, we walk to convenient shop to buy water. on the way, picked up rm10 for the first time in my life. so i donated it to the club. LOL by purchasing 1.5L coke, 100+ and mineral water XD
this kind of money, don't keep for long la...
do charity better than keep it yourself.
then went home, bath, and we had a long chat beside the window, facing the swimming pool.
and we kissed..... ILY
then we go out to celebrate Julius and Caesar (1Sept), Teck Yu (30 Aug), Wei Jie (10 Sept)'s birthday.
tadaaahh their birthday cake :D
see, they so happy ^^
ops. forgot, our SUITE!!!! :D
not to forget, me and baby May :D
the result of sweating my hair sucks ==
and May always that pretty :D
and there goes our lake......
apa Ai Hui smiling ni == and yea it was me behind there. didn't realize i kena captured photo zzzzzzzz
INILAH BARU TASIK!!! :D
LOL
and my baby May!!! isn't she SWEEEET??? :D
:P
and BBQ time!!!
ps: i always aware of camera XD
:P LOLOLOL
after that, we tried to go play snooker, but to no avail. because can't find any management people. so didn't get to play zzzzzzzzzz
tapi, thanks to Koh Sim Lui. kita ada gambar gambar ni :P
naaaahhh pool table :)
ps: i don't know whose hand is that
naaahhh as a credit to you, Koh Sim Lui
the 'BaBi mulut' XD
LOLOLOL ambik kau hayllie ben XD
my buddy, go through emo with me. tapi tak pernah selamat saya dari keemoan ==
the luizzzz
from left: phee yee, huey miin, hui xin, ai hui
and the 'oldest' couple and surprise package. we surprise they wanted to join us despite their pack didn't join XD
and the 'muka bangga' XD
too bad we couldn't captured much photos during the water sports activities >< else, lagi shok la :P after didn't get to play pool, we get back to room. then accompany May talked awhile, as she get sleepy, i accompany her sleep. suppose girls and guys sleep separate room. but i want to accompany her sleep, cause i know i only have that chance. so i just sleep beside her and wait her fall asleep, before i get crazy with the rest of the group XD i thought of asking her to get back to her room after we finished everything. but it happens that Ben Ben and Caesar sleep in the guy room. so i also hug May to sleep lo... what happened in the master room, the card game, cannot be reveal due to the rule of "what happened in the room, remains in the room" no camera or video is allow but only memories :D but i would say, i had my best laugh there XDXDXD lots of laugh and noise. poor baby got woke up in the middle of the night due to our noises ><
though in between, got some people that less open critic us. lets forget what is the content and remain only happiness.
after finished card game, some of us continue play Chor Dai Di until 4am, baby May message me asked if i still haven't sleep. then i finished my last game, went to bath and brush my teeth before off to bed with her in my arms. that's all for the first day . second day shall continue in second post.
hard to have the mood to write this long blog. no one gonna read it, after all ==
wasted efforts again sigh....
~ Light Up The Darkness ~
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Last Paper of Second Year First Semester
tomorrow, last paper. AHMC 5434 CRISIS MANAGEMENT FOR PUBLIC RELATIONS.
i admit, i already feel like flying now. my juniors majority already finished exam today. and all flying now. and me, hanging in the middle. no mood study. but i still at the stage of controlling myself from flying. LOL.
today finish AHMC 5404 ADVANCED PUBLIC RELATIONS WRITING
what could i ask for? i was damn lucky to be able to answer the questions. God, thank You for Your guidance, helps, and wisdom you gave me.
i ask no more, but one more blessing from You my dear God. tomorrow is my last paper of this semester and despite i have not much mood to study, i knew i shouldn't give up and i will not give up. i already screwed up my statistic resit paper. not this time man. not this time.
the reason of me writing blog today despite tomorrow morning 9am paper, what else? there is only one reason.
i is so stupid. wtf am i thinking now. not official couple? not yet?? wtf????
seriously. we kissed, we hugged. he held hand. not couple? is what then??? why the hell i am so stupid??
why want to make things complicated?? just because i want to decide a good date to be so-called "officially" ???? how idiot am i!!! whats the point having a good date? go choose Christmas or New Year la!! or February 14!!!
seriously. why am i so childish. why am i such a dickhead. sigh.
if both people in love with each other? whats the matter of asking one another to be couple? whats the point to propose? is it necessary??
why am i so stupid to realize this. fml. FML
ok. i had enough. i so regret now. another few things i regretted in my life. definitely she is hurt. so do i. i promised her not to hurt her. and gonna held her hand through rain and sun. and what the hell i just did. i just.... couldn't forgive myself. i hate myself. i can't afford to hurt her anymore.
and, for her to hurt me, simple. stare at TB. post videos about les couple getting married. seriously. why. why i feel like that. she told me many times that she will not choose back the old road. and she will not make the same mistakes again. she assure me that she love me and serious with me.
and yet, why you always tell me how much you admire TB? or guys with muscular bodies. long hair.
i have no idea. im hurt everytime you tell me that. but i still love you and try to accept you for who you are.
i think my mood getting better. not as emo as earlier. gonna start study real soon.
and, i am so sorry May. sorry for my stupidness. idiotness. im such a fool. im sorry May.
and May, i promise you i will give you a surprise.
ILY.
~ Light up The Darkness ~
i admit, i already feel like flying now. my juniors majority already finished exam today. and all flying now. and me, hanging in the middle. no mood study. but i still at the stage of controlling myself from flying. LOL.
today finish AHMC 5404 ADVANCED PUBLIC RELATIONS WRITING
what could i ask for? i was damn lucky to be able to answer the questions. God, thank You for Your guidance, helps, and wisdom you gave me.
i ask no more, but one more blessing from You my dear God. tomorrow is my last paper of this semester and despite i have not much mood to study, i knew i shouldn't give up and i will not give up. i already screwed up my statistic resit paper. not this time man. not this time.
the reason of me writing blog today despite tomorrow morning 9am paper, what else? there is only one reason.
i is so stupid. wtf am i thinking now. not official couple? not yet?? wtf????
seriously. we kissed, we hugged. he held hand. not couple? is what then??? why the hell i am so stupid??
why want to make things complicated?? just because i want to decide a good date to be so-called "officially" ???? how idiot am i!!! whats the point having a good date? go choose Christmas or New Year la!! or February 14!!!
seriously. why am i so childish. why am i such a dickhead. sigh.
if both people in love with each other? whats the matter of asking one another to be couple? whats the point to propose? is it necessary??
why am i so stupid to realize this. fml. FML
ok. i had enough. i so regret now. another few things i regretted in my life. definitely she is hurt. so do i. i promised her not to hurt her. and gonna held her hand through rain and sun. and what the hell i just did. i just.... couldn't forgive myself. i hate myself. i can't afford to hurt her anymore.
and, for her to hurt me, simple. stare at TB. post videos about les couple getting married. seriously. why. why i feel like that. she told me many times that she will not choose back the old road. and she will not make the same mistakes again. she assure me that she love me and serious with me.
and yet, why you always tell me how much you admire TB? or guys with muscular bodies. long hair.
i have no idea. im hurt everytime you tell me that. but i still love you and try to accept you for who you are.
i think my mood getting better. not as emo as earlier. gonna start study real soon.
and, i am so sorry May. sorry for my stupidness. idiotness. im such a fool. im sorry May.
and May, i promise you i will give you a surprise.
ILY.
~ Light up The Darkness ~
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
True Love Kiss
woohoo.... today, 23 august 2011, tuesday. 2 days from now, gonna have another and last marathon of this semester. pr writing and crisis management. then off and here we come the-long-awaited-Puchong Trip!!! woohoo!! cant wait for that day!
finished my crazy marathon last sunday. well at least IMC didnt disappoint me. though i gave up stats. and ms fong was in the venue == when i hand in the paper, she look at me in disbelieve and with her eyes sounds like "what?? so early give up?? dont give up eric"
walao.... i have no choice but to give up it since i need to concentrate on imc and i definitely dont want to fail any of the main paper. 9am paper stats, 9.35 come out. pretty easy actually i think. hmm. after this, gonna resit sorang sorang la... sien zzzzzzzz
on sunday, 21 august 2011, Mic have exam at PA block. 2pm paper. but she can finish at 3.30pm. i was shocked. and was sleeping in library. set my alarm at 4pm. planned to go wash face and meet her at PA block. manatau she 3.30pm called me, i thought it was alarm. was in blur condition for the next 1 hour lol.
then rush go wash face, still with blur face, go out library meet her. then half way met her at behind library. it was baby rain that time. i run out and cover her head. that moment less people walk around library. so i give her instant warm hugs. then just stand there chit chat. i was still, very blur... i was so worried she give up or simply do just to come out early. shocked my ass out of me. then walk towards entrance of library but didn't enter library cause library so many people. so we just sit at the area facing M block and chat there. chat until 5pm.
what do we chat? normal one lo what so couple usually chat... and i confessed to her... how much i love her. how much she meant to me. how much i need her. how important she is to me that i cant afford to lose her. she is part of my life. and i need her badly.
as i spoke those words, i didn't know the tears were formed in my eyes. though i didn't let it to drop, still my voice cracked and my eyes filled with tears. she saw. she knew it. and, its been awhile. like, more than a year i didn't drop a tear for a girl. that means she is darn important to me and i darn love her like there is no tomorrow. perhaps, another kk case?
and slowly, she hold my hand, and put her head to my shoulder... hmm. i just love the feeling. how sweet is that. what else i could ask for.
despite her past, what she was before meeting me, i still choose to love her. i still let myself to get hurt, whether im gonna get hurt or not, its not a matter anymore. i fall for her, and i want her badly. perhaps love is blind? or like i said, "you are not blind. you choose not to see it with your eyes. in fact, you see it with your heart."
double meaning huh? i know right. i felt like at this moment, im the Bella. she is the Edward. or Jacob. i don't know. despite Edward hurt Bella before, she still go back to him knowing how much she suffered after he left him. and, how much Jacob hurt her during the period of time when he transforming into the real wolf, she still forgive him and be with him, until the resurrection of Edward Cullen. i. am. the. girl.
sad but, why i always appear to be the girl one? sigh.
knowing myself gonna fell into the valley, i let myself fall into it. is it because i don't trust her? is it because i got lack security from her? maybe... i just can't accept what she is yet. jealous surrounded me. hmm..
then today, Tuesday, 23 august 2011, morning she come to visit me. cause yesterday she said, she respected the public place, kiss consider as no good. oklo. no choice but to invite her to come my place in the morning. longest kiss? i didn't count the time but i know its darn long.
PROVEN. when i love someone truly, i wouldn't do bad to her. according to the email, i cheat girl. but now? i NEVER think of doing anything above the hugs and kiss level. ok i know its getting pretty obscene here but what im trying to say is. i did not cheat her. NOR i asked her to come my place just to 'eat' her. no i am not. i langsung don't have the intention. i just want to kiss her as much as possible because im crazy over her. and she didn't want to do it in college. i believe that, we are on clean state as couple life. i strongly believe that. and whats not, i didn't think sex is necessary anymore. and i didn't think that kissing 30 minutes is necessary neither. as long i could be with her all the time, hold her hand through the journey, im happy.
and after that, go to library, she go study, i go canteen makan. then back to library study. slept like crap == don't why so damn sleepy and can't stay fresh. damn.
then after she finish her Introduction of Accounting, i go meet her at college hall. walk her to canteen2 before she depart.
after we both home, she suddenly posted this on my wall.
thanks May. i know you use alot of guts to write this. cause i know you are the shy type and thus, i was shocked, surprise, yet im so proud of you. you have made a first step in maintaining this relationship :)
and my quick reply :P
LOL May your heart must be skip few beat when you post this :P
maybe you are right. you really serious with me. you are not play play with me. but, thanks May. i love you.
i still, wondering what your parents think about. i am confident meeting my gf's parents. just like previous experience. i better with elder people. but you just like to admire people with muscular body. 'fei lun hoi thau' and tb. tapi, i felt, no confidence and has nothing special for you to like. nothing for you to admire. confidence level = 0
but when it comes to meeting parents, i have more confident. or shall i say, over confident. sigh. don't know.... don't know...
i miss you baby ...
and.... i got a friend, course mate to be exact, that appear damn innocent and good girl but... she stalk my blog. LOL i was trolled by her because she read my blog and i thought she saw me kissing in library ??? WTH right??? LOL then only she admit she saw my post ==
scare my ass off.
that's all from me today. gonna start study :P
and yea the picture quality sucks i know... but no choice :P
and, i forgot, we are not official couple yet. i know. kiss hugs holding hands but not couple. i know right. but just, we are not couple. i admit, we are not. YET. when is? hahaha. i shall write about it later. real soon :)
~ Light Up The Darkness ~
finished my crazy marathon last sunday. well at least IMC didnt disappoint me. though i gave up stats. and ms fong was in the venue == when i hand in the paper, she look at me in disbelieve and with her eyes sounds like "what?? so early give up?? dont give up eric"
walao.... i have no choice but to give up it since i need to concentrate on imc and i definitely dont want to fail any of the main paper. 9am paper stats, 9.35 come out. pretty easy actually i think. hmm. after this, gonna resit sorang sorang la... sien zzzzzzzz
on sunday, 21 august 2011, Mic have exam at PA block. 2pm paper. but she can finish at 3.30pm. i was shocked. and was sleeping in library. set my alarm at 4pm. planned to go wash face and meet her at PA block. manatau she 3.30pm called me, i thought it was alarm. was in blur condition for the next 1 hour lol.
then rush go wash face, still with blur face, go out library meet her. then half way met her at behind library. it was baby rain that time. i run out and cover her head. that moment less people walk around library. so i give her instant warm hugs. then just stand there chit chat. i was still, very blur... i was so worried she give up or simply do just to come out early. shocked my ass out of me. then walk towards entrance of library but didn't enter library cause library so many people. so we just sit at the area facing M block and chat there. chat until 5pm.
what do we chat? normal one lo what so couple usually chat... and i confessed to her... how much i love her. how much she meant to me. how much i need her. how important she is to me that i cant afford to lose her. she is part of my life. and i need her badly.
as i spoke those words, i didn't know the tears were formed in my eyes. though i didn't let it to drop, still my voice cracked and my eyes filled with tears. she saw. she knew it. and, its been awhile. like, more than a year i didn't drop a tear for a girl. that means she is darn important to me and i darn love her like there is no tomorrow. perhaps, another kk case?
and slowly, she hold my hand, and put her head to my shoulder... hmm. i just love the feeling. how sweet is that. what else i could ask for.
despite her past, what she was before meeting me, i still choose to love her. i still let myself to get hurt, whether im gonna get hurt or not, its not a matter anymore. i fall for her, and i want her badly. perhaps love is blind? or like i said, "you are not blind. you choose not to see it with your eyes. in fact, you see it with your heart."
double meaning huh? i know right. i felt like at this moment, im the Bella. she is the Edward. or Jacob. i don't know. despite Edward hurt Bella before, she still go back to him knowing how much she suffered after he left him. and, how much Jacob hurt her during the period of time when he transforming into the real wolf, she still forgive him and be with him, until the resurrection of Edward Cullen. i. am. the. girl.
sad but, why i always appear to be the girl one? sigh.
knowing myself gonna fell into the valley, i let myself fall into it. is it because i don't trust her? is it because i got lack security from her? maybe... i just can't accept what she is yet. jealous surrounded me. hmm..
then today, Tuesday, 23 august 2011, morning she come to visit me. cause yesterday she said, she respected the public place, kiss consider as no good. oklo. no choice but to invite her to come my place in the morning. longest kiss? i didn't count the time but i know its darn long.
PROVEN. when i love someone truly, i wouldn't do bad to her. according to the email, i cheat girl. but now? i NEVER think of doing anything above the hugs and kiss level. ok i know its getting pretty obscene here but what im trying to say is. i did not cheat her. NOR i asked her to come my place just to 'eat' her. no i am not. i langsung don't have the intention. i just want to kiss her as much as possible because im crazy over her. and she didn't want to do it in college. i believe that, we are on clean state as couple life. i strongly believe that. and whats not, i didn't think sex is necessary anymore. and i didn't think that kissing 30 minutes is necessary neither. as long i could be with her all the time, hold her hand through the journey, im happy.
and after that, go to library, she go study, i go canteen makan. then back to library study. slept like crap == don't why so damn sleepy and can't stay fresh. damn.
then after she finish her Introduction of Accounting, i go meet her at college hall. walk her to canteen2 before she depart.
after we both home, she suddenly posted this on my wall.
thanks May. i know you use alot of guts to write this. cause i know you are the shy type and thus, i was shocked, surprise, yet im so proud of you. you have made a first step in maintaining this relationship :)
and my quick reply :P
LOL May your heart must be skip few beat when you post this :P
maybe you are right. you really serious with me. you are not play play with me. but, thanks May. i love you.
i still, wondering what your parents think about. i am confident meeting my gf's parents. just like previous experience. i better with elder people. but you just like to admire people with muscular body. 'fei lun hoi thau' and tb. tapi, i felt, no confidence and has nothing special for you to like. nothing for you to admire. confidence level = 0
but when it comes to meeting parents, i have more confident. or shall i say, over confident. sigh. don't know.... don't know...
i miss you baby ...
and.... i got a friend, course mate to be exact, that appear damn innocent and good girl but... she stalk my blog. LOL i was trolled by her because she read my blog and i thought she saw me kissing in library ??? WTH right??? LOL then only she admit she saw my post ==
scare my ass off.
that's all from me today. gonna start study :P
and yea the picture quality sucks i know... but no choice :P
and, i forgot, we are not official couple yet. i know. kiss hugs holding hands but not couple. i know right. but just, we are not couple. i admit, we are not. YET. when is? hahaha. i shall write about it later. real soon :)
~ Light Up The Darkness ~
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Examinations Marathon!!
Had AHMC 4104 PSYCHOLOGY FOR COMMUNICATION today. hopefully can passed. i wrote crapz. serious.
And thus, this should be a short updates due to my marathon. Yes. Exam marathon. damn.
Starting Friday, 19/8 - Sunday 21/8 gonna have 3 days straight exam. hope i didnt die. and also last 2 papers. 25 and 26 august. back to back. TWICE in a week. God have mercy on me please.
Gonna start corporate communication and IMC tomorrow.
Today after exam, went to find May. had lunch with her at canteen 1. the mixed rice there has better service than canteen 2 but they are so calculative that.... want count how many pieces to give me. like, take so long to count. suan.
Then go to library with her to study. On the way there, i dont know how, but somehow, she managed to take off my angry bird == i didnt even realized. then scare my ass off. i thought drop somewhere. then i went back to canteen 1 to look for it back. but stop at DK A cause i gave up. and she kept called me to rush me back to library.
end up it was her that steal it ==
i dont know why, but it happens that, my romance started in library == ok. only SECOND time....
Hi baby, we had our first kiss there. it happened so fast that, i felt the time has frozen. i hold up your chin, and you gave us our first kiss. and, nothing could describe my feeling. it just. wonderful.
Baby, you are beautiful. And i shall tell you everyday. Awaiting tomorrow ;)
~ Light Up The Darkness ~
And thus, this should be a short updates due to my marathon. Yes. Exam marathon. damn.
Starting Friday, 19/8 - Sunday 21/8 gonna have 3 days straight exam. hope i didnt die. and also last 2 papers. 25 and 26 august. back to back. TWICE in a week. God have mercy on me please.
Gonna start corporate communication and IMC tomorrow.
Today after exam, went to find May. had lunch with her at canteen 1. the mixed rice there has better service than canteen 2 but they are so calculative that.... want count how many pieces to give me. like, take so long to count. suan.
Then go to library with her to study. On the way there, i dont know how, but somehow, she managed to take off my angry bird == i didnt even realized. then scare my ass off. i thought drop somewhere. then i went back to canteen 1 to look for it back. but stop at DK A cause i gave up. and she kept called me to rush me back to library.
end up it was her that steal it ==
i dont know why, but it happens that, my romance started in library == ok. only SECOND time....
Hi baby, we had our first kiss there. it happened so fast that, i felt the time has frozen. i hold up your chin, and you gave us our first kiss. and, nothing could describe my feeling. it just. wonderful.
Baby, you are beautiful. And i shall tell you everyday. Awaiting tomorrow ;)
~ Light Up The Darkness ~
Thursday, August 11, 2011
For Every Ending there is A New Beginning
yay. finally free from all shits of assignments and thesis. well not really ==
thesis still disturb my mind. seriously, i dont give it a damn after all. not i disrespect its just that i really want to concentrate on my finals please. yes. get out of my life for this 3 weeks. and i have to come back during semester break to do it. sien.
anyway, busy until now only free. well not really free cause i keep procrastinating everything in me. sigh. the old and usual me. its week 14 and i only done chapter 1 of corporate communication. thats my own notes. not even studying. now want study but sleepy. and scared by ginger tan by her creepy photo ==
anyway, many things happen in the past one week. lets conclude it in a shorter version.
last friday, 5 august 2011, i joined the taekwondo gang to donate blood. me, julius, caesar, wan xuan, chew keen, khye siang, and ben ben. thats 450ml X 6 = 2700ml + wan xuan 400ml (cause this is her first time donating) = 3100ml of blood donated to national blood bank!!!! good job tkd gang!!!
waited this day for whole week XD luckily its morning else like last time, friday 4.30pm they close shop jor dont want more donater ==
before i forgot, on the way go meet them at college hall, got a pair of koreans come approach me talked about christinity. zzzzz. regreted greeted them with "anyeong hasheyeo"
made them feel i very friendly and end up i late to meet them. but julius lagi late == 11.30am only we enter college hall instead 11am as we agreed.
the korean pair tells me that, God does not exist as Man. and we do have Women as God. so we must trust that God are both male and female. and she ask me to go re-baptize so that i believe that the existence of God the Mother. or something like that. oh really?
well she has a point. according to bible, which i read, serious.
Genesis 1:26 [Then God said, "Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground".]
meaning, God are not only man. if God is man, He will say "Let ME make man in MY image...."
but God didnt say so right? well they actually have some sense in it. i dont know. im not very good in religion though im christian. sorry yea to strong-christian friends. and the pair said something like, mother give eternal life to all creatures in the world. mother give birth, food, shelter (womb), security, and earliest love. all all kinds of those la.
standing in the middle of sun and talk to me about this one. seriously ==
never mind. cut that out.
i've never been this happy with tkd ppl. real long since ah beh that group. i would say, i do feel happy with them but what i am positive is, the experience and memories i had now with tkd members are easily surpass my first year in TARC tkd. thats why i didnt accompany carmen go donate blood. cause tkd gang more important. why? they give me what i looking for. i feel myself. no need hide ^^
then we took a group photos... hehehehe
LOL happy crazy ppl XD
and another one :P
This one == everyone love it and so do i except only my face blur paling teruk == serious ==
but its ok! credit to Ng Chew Ling as the camera girl!!! hehehe pictures speaks a thousand words.
and this photo.... speechless. why do we look like couple?? OMG ben ben look gorgeous here!!! :D
except Teo Khye Siang at the back act as spoiler ==
LOL i felt sooo guilty to caesar >< sorry bro :) yupe. and i also asked her to come to college hall to take photo with me. who is her?
Michelle Chui!!! :D
well she was a very shy person, to new friends la (aka crazy tkd ppl XD) but can be very friendly also :)
i like her alot. small size, light weight (thats why she cant donate blood), cute, most importantly, what i like about her, her constant smile, and happy-go-lucky characteristics. i dont want wake up in the morning and the first person i saw, face black black to me >< but i feel bad cause she purposely come and take photos with me then go to her class >< didnt even intro her to the rest of the gang >< sorry may >< she shy until take photos also felt uncomfortable :P but i really glad that she came all the way here just to take pictures with me. thanks May :) next, Tan Wan Xuan!!! need more than 1 hour for her blood to fill the 350ml packet @.@ pity her. blood flow very slow.
This called, "Forced Smile"
cause she was soooo panic and scare. first time ma. but she was quite a brave girl as she can lie there let the nurse poke her hand XD supposingly i accompany her one but i kao dim jor and blood also dried jor so need to go out give space to other ppl. luckily i no wait. one hour inside cold place @.@ my blood will freeze :P
then this week, monday - wednesday (8-10 august 2011) i went GK to have dinner with tkd gang again! woohoo :P
monday 8 august 2011, went to library to study. mic accompany me. skipped her class cause she think the class is boring and not important. thanks may :) well i guess library is the place i commonly start a relationship? or a spark? XD
LOL apa ni XD
then night go GK eat. cause everytime eat at tbr eat dou sien jor luu. reached GK, i straight suggest eat pizza XD LOL long time no eat mai go eat lo. no people reject also :)
have fun, and crazy moment again ==
Ini memang case tak ada kerja. ataupun terlalu senang == i already 22 years old but still blend in. means, i love the gang ^^v
then tuesday, 9 august 2011, was rushing thesis, then ben ben posted on my wall if i want go GK eat tong sui with them. i replied, depend i can finish or not lo. then i tell them, 5pm only i go out instead of 4.30pm mentioned by ben ben. reason is i wait mic finish her class first. and since her 6.30pm class canceled jor, no need rush come back college lo. go to grandpa dessert located in plaza prima setapak. normal normal looo..... taken few photos there..
That time i was playing Powerball sponsor by Chew Ling XD
and want to show my "praying" technique when playing the powerball. LOL looks stupid >< from here can see she is, pretty quiet one. though i wish she can blend into the tkd gang. probably she didnt like tkd as much as i do but my little request, blend into my circle of friends. so that i can tag you along to every activities we do. hopefully you didnt mind >< she got a sharp face. and cute voice :) not those lala mui == really cute voice. and she sounded soooo funny when speak in english and cantonese XD which make me fall for her even more :) oh ya!! sorry may for causing you trouble on this date. you can comfortably go home and have dinner and rest yet i tag you along cause you to walk in heavy rain >< although got umbrella but the rain was too heavy >< we all also wet. sien. when i want go out only it rained cats and dogs ==
sorry May :(
fast forward to today, erm... 1.04am thursday 11 august 2011. on 12.54am, while was chatting with her, i told her "sarang hae yo"
well.... i dont know why so fast. i just did not know.
did she actually like me? i do not know. does she mind if i take this relationship to next level? i do not know. what does she thinks about me? especially when she got that email ==
seriously. why people still..... sigh. 2 years. i needa 2 years to regain some of my confidence. yet, it came back to haunt me. that day i found out some girl sent that email to her, i was sad. shame. angry. pissed. emo. mixed feeling. seriously. whey this time? why when we start to be on good terms, and this thing happen. why me?
Ms Tiong says, when you met someone you like, and something bad happen, its a test. whether you hold on to it or not, thats depend on your faithfullness.
well i was having REAL hard time that night. but was okay the day after. thanks May for trusting me. i do not know how much that email affected you. i do not know how you felt when you saw that email at first. it is a prank. hoax. to spoil my name and image. you dont me. you DONT believe it. but, i dont trust myself. whoever that just know me not long, they will definitely affected by the email. just the matter of how much that person is affected. seriously, if it was me whom received this, i also will be doubt. yea it might be hoax but when people do that to you, meaning something is wrong with you.
what else can i explain that that email was because people are not happy with my attitude, therefore spoil my image and reputation so that i will have less or no friends. sigh. why. this. shit. cant. go. away. from. me. forever. F.M.L
i really dont know how she felt about me. i want to know her more. i want to know everything i need to know about her. i dont want just blindly start a relationship without understanding each other. that, will not go far. as my experience. she is a nice and good girl. i may not know her past. i may not be able to accept her past. her history. but like the saying goes, why bother about the past while we are moving forward? why keep looking back while its forward what matter most?
i wish this saying really applicable to me. she is a good girl that i dont wish to lose. i shall treasure her and shower her with my love. and definitely, i dont want to hurt her. cause if she hurt again, God knows what will she do again. she promised me she wont go back to her past, i wish, she really wake up from her past. i can only say, i do like you alot. and i admire you alot. your smile. your laugh. your grin. your voice. your soft hand.
thats all for tonight people. as always, i've been labeled "long gas"
well through blog is where i express all shits of my feeling without filtering. cause facebook sudah kena filtered. kalau blog pun kena filter, i might as well dont write at all.
tomorrow gonna be the last day i enjoy with tkd gang before i really stop going out to concentate on studies. finals. stupid stats. in the middle of 2 killer papers. seriously. kill me ba ==
wish all my friends all the best!!!!
tomorrow sing k session with tkd gang featuring me, julius, caesar, chew ling, ben ben, wan xuan, ai hui, hui xin, and chew keen.
bye for now. gotta get sleep early. tomorrow need wake up early do printing stuff.
~ Light Up The Darkness ~
thesis still disturb my mind. seriously, i dont give it a damn after all. not i disrespect its just that i really want to concentrate on my finals please. yes. get out of my life for this 3 weeks. and i have to come back during semester break to do it. sien.
anyway, busy until now only free. well not really free cause i keep procrastinating everything in me. sigh. the old and usual me. its week 14 and i only done chapter 1 of corporate communication. thats my own notes. not even studying. now want study but sleepy. and scared by ginger tan by her creepy photo ==
anyway, many things happen in the past one week. lets conclude it in a shorter version.
last friday, 5 august 2011, i joined the taekwondo gang to donate blood. me, julius, caesar, wan xuan, chew keen, khye siang, and ben ben. thats 450ml X 6 = 2700ml + wan xuan 400ml (cause this is her first time donating) = 3100ml of blood donated to national blood bank!!!! good job tkd gang!!!
waited this day for whole week XD luckily its morning else like last time, friday 4.30pm they close shop jor dont want more donater ==
before i forgot, on the way go meet them at college hall, got a pair of koreans come approach me talked about christinity. zzzzz. regreted greeted them with "anyeong hasheyeo"
made them feel i very friendly and end up i late to meet them. but julius lagi late == 11.30am only we enter college hall instead 11am as we agreed.
the korean pair tells me that, God does not exist as Man. and we do have Women as God. so we must trust that God are both male and female. and she ask me to go re-baptize so that i believe that the existence of God the Mother. or something like that. oh really?
well she has a point. according to bible, which i read, serious.
Genesis 1:26 [Then God said, "Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground".]
meaning, God are not only man. if God is man, He will say "Let ME make man in MY image...."
but God didnt say so right? well they actually have some sense in it. i dont know. im not very good in religion though im christian. sorry yea to strong-christian friends. and the pair said something like, mother give eternal life to all creatures in the world. mother give birth, food, shelter (womb), security, and earliest love. all all kinds of those la.
standing in the middle of sun and talk to me about this one. seriously ==
never mind. cut that out.
i've never been this happy with tkd ppl. real long since ah beh that group. i would say, i do feel happy with them but what i am positive is, the experience and memories i had now with tkd members are easily surpass my first year in TARC tkd. thats why i didnt accompany carmen go donate blood. cause tkd gang more important. why? they give me what i looking for. i feel myself. no need hide ^^
then we took a group photos... hehehehe
LOL happy crazy ppl XD
and another one :P
This one == everyone love it and so do i except only my face blur paling teruk == serious ==
but its ok! credit to Ng Chew Ling as the camera girl!!! hehehe pictures speaks a thousand words.
and this photo.... speechless. why do we look like couple?? OMG ben ben look gorgeous here!!! :D
except Teo Khye Siang at the back act as spoiler ==
LOL i felt sooo guilty to caesar >< sorry bro :) yupe. and i also asked her to come to college hall to take photo with me. who is her?
Michelle Chui!!! :D
well she was a very shy person, to new friends la (aka crazy tkd ppl XD) but can be very friendly also :)
i like her alot. small size, light weight (thats why she cant donate blood), cute, most importantly, what i like about her, her constant smile, and happy-go-lucky characteristics. i dont want wake up in the morning and the first person i saw, face black black to me >< but i feel bad cause she purposely come and take photos with me then go to her class >< didnt even intro her to the rest of the gang >< sorry may >< she shy until take photos also felt uncomfortable :P but i really glad that she came all the way here just to take pictures with me. thanks May :) next, Tan Wan Xuan!!! need more than 1 hour for her blood to fill the 350ml packet @.@ pity her. blood flow very slow.
This called, "Forced Smile"
cause she was soooo panic and scare. first time ma. but she was quite a brave girl as she can lie there let the nurse poke her hand XD supposingly i accompany her one but i kao dim jor and blood also dried jor so need to go out give space to other ppl. luckily i no wait. one hour inside cold place @.@ my blood will freeze :P
then this week, monday - wednesday (8-10 august 2011) i went GK to have dinner with tkd gang again! woohoo :P
monday 8 august 2011, went to library to study. mic accompany me. skipped her class cause she think the class is boring and not important. thanks may :) well i guess library is the place i commonly start a relationship? or a spark? XD
LOL apa ni XD
then night go GK eat. cause everytime eat at tbr eat dou sien jor luu. reached GK, i straight suggest eat pizza XD LOL long time no eat mai go eat lo. no people reject also :)
have fun, and crazy moment again ==
Ini memang case tak ada kerja. ataupun terlalu senang == i already 22 years old but still blend in. means, i love the gang ^^v
then tuesday, 9 august 2011, was rushing thesis, then ben ben posted on my wall if i want go GK eat tong sui with them. i replied, depend i can finish or not lo. then i tell them, 5pm only i go out instead of 4.30pm mentioned by ben ben. reason is i wait mic finish her class first. and since her 6.30pm class canceled jor, no need rush come back college lo. go to grandpa dessert located in plaza prima setapak. normal normal looo..... taken few photos there..
That time i was playing Powerball sponsor by Chew Ling XD
and want to show my "praying" technique when playing the powerball. LOL looks stupid >< from here can see she is, pretty quiet one. though i wish she can blend into the tkd gang. probably she didnt like tkd as much as i do but my little request, blend into my circle of friends. so that i can tag you along to every activities we do. hopefully you didnt mind >< she got a sharp face. and cute voice :) not those lala mui == really cute voice. and she sounded soooo funny when speak in english and cantonese XD which make me fall for her even more :) oh ya!! sorry may for causing you trouble on this date. you can comfortably go home and have dinner and rest yet i tag you along cause you to walk in heavy rain >< although got umbrella but the rain was too heavy >< we all also wet. sien. when i want go out only it rained cats and dogs ==
sorry May :(
fast forward to today, erm... 1.04am thursday 11 august 2011. on 12.54am, while was chatting with her, i told her "sarang hae yo"
well.... i dont know why so fast. i just did not know.
did she actually like me? i do not know. does she mind if i take this relationship to next level? i do not know. what does she thinks about me? especially when she got that email ==
seriously. why people still..... sigh. 2 years. i needa 2 years to regain some of my confidence. yet, it came back to haunt me. that day i found out some girl sent that email to her, i was sad. shame. angry. pissed. emo. mixed feeling. seriously. whey this time? why when we start to be on good terms, and this thing happen. why me?
Ms Tiong says, when you met someone you like, and something bad happen, its a test. whether you hold on to it or not, thats depend on your faithfullness.
well i was having REAL hard time that night. but was okay the day after. thanks May for trusting me. i do not know how much that email affected you. i do not know how you felt when you saw that email at first. it is a prank. hoax. to spoil my name and image. you dont me. you DONT believe it. but, i dont trust myself. whoever that just know me not long, they will definitely affected by the email. just the matter of how much that person is affected. seriously, if it was me whom received this, i also will be doubt. yea it might be hoax but when people do that to you, meaning something is wrong with you.
what else can i explain that that email was because people are not happy with my attitude, therefore spoil my image and reputation so that i will have less or no friends. sigh. why. this. shit. cant. go. away. from. me. forever. F.M.L
i really dont know how she felt about me. i want to know her more. i want to know everything i need to know about her. i dont want just blindly start a relationship without understanding each other. that, will not go far. as my experience. she is a nice and good girl. i may not know her past. i may not be able to accept her past. her history. but like the saying goes, why bother about the past while we are moving forward? why keep looking back while its forward what matter most?
i wish this saying really applicable to me. she is a good girl that i dont wish to lose. i shall treasure her and shower her with my love. and definitely, i dont want to hurt her. cause if she hurt again, God knows what will she do again. she promised me she wont go back to her past, i wish, she really wake up from her past. i can only say, i do like you alot. and i admire you alot. your smile. your laugh. your grin. your voice. your soft hand.
thats all for tonight people. as always, i've been labeled "long gas"
well through blog is where i express all shits of my feeling without filtering. cause facebook sudah kena filtered. kalau blog pun kena filter, i might as well dont write at all.
tomorrow gonna be the last day i enjoy with tkd gang before i really stop going out to concentate on studies. finals. stupid stats. in the middle of 2 killer papers. seriously. kill me ba ==
wish all my friends all the best!!!!
tomorrow sing k session with tkd gang featuring me, julius, caesar, chew ling, ben ben, wan xuan, ai hui, hui xin, and chew keen.
bye for now. gotta get sleep early. tomorrow need wake up early do printing stuff.
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