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yay! second day, also, last day :(

2nd September 2011, Friday!! its Friday!!

i woke up with the most beautiful face on earth, my BaBY May!!!! :D

its been a dream waking up with her in my arms, seeing the face of an angel, a juicy lips awaiting me to receive her morning kiss. ILY MCMS

wake up, hang around the house, then i decided to have a walk with her. she got hungry, so i bought her bread. then went beside lake to see fish, bought a loaf of bread and feed it to the fishes. and we saw a HUGGEEEE keli, got 2 tortoise! and a koi :D

too bad couldn't find the photos. its with May i think but i couldn't find it lol.

but at least i got this :P

ops.... alah never mind my personal blog ma... :)
luv you baby!! muacks!!! =*



after that. back house, have pasta as breakfast!! woohoo i love pasta :P

credit to haylie ben!

then we lie on my bed , i show her some funny videos in my phone, and i fell asleep with the phone in my hand == sleepy huh ? ==

after that, 11.30am start packing. then we off to check out. woo woo T.T
i wish i could stay longer ......


then i accompany May to The Mines for her dad to pick her up. then i follow wan xuan car back setapak. go to wangsa walk, have movie, The Smurf, with Ai hui, Teck Yu, Sim Lui, Wei Jie, Phee Yee, CK, and me.
i slept 80% through the movie. cause no interest at all. i accompany them watch cause wan xuan fetch me back so i mai accompany lo...

i should've watch it man. but too sleepy. never mind lo...



then had A&W as our lunch before movie.

after all finished, we go back to our own house.



bila ku sangka hari panas sampai malam, tak dijangka hujan di waktu petang. sigh

she said i sweet talk too much to her. well i suppose, its not a good thing also. people will get bored easily. so i shall change. and i did. i know, eric leong. you being too fast. too serious. you bring thing too fast. and now its hurting you.

me: yea, when she said so, i cried.

me2: what?

me: yea. i cried.

me2: the hell?

me: i know right.... im a sensitive bastard.

me2: you know it, why not, try bring things slow down? you know, with your condition, you are scaring the hell out of her you know...

me: i know. i ain't have guts to tell her. knowing she might feel pressure. i don't want to lose her. she is the world to me now. i wish, i could slow down. but i couldn't.

me2: not you can't dude. you choose not to. love is blind. you can't see. you can't feel.

me: i feeling... no security.... afraid she will leave me.

me2: i know you love her too much. that is why you feeling like this man. i know. i know how you feel man. but she see you like this, i bet, she'll freak out. she would wondering, the hell you thinking?

chill la bro. just, give both of you guys time. TIME ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
it just the beginning of the relationship. anything you having now is challenge. if you fail, you failed. if you succeed, that's true love.

and stop, asking yourself, who love who more. who sacrifice more. love never is equal bro.
and i think you should tell her how you feel. no point you depress and emo here alone. she is your gf. i know she love you. she called you baby, muacks you. just, treasure her, let he do what she want. if you trust her, if she love you, nothing shall stand between you both.

me: ...

me2: i don't know how to tell you anymore. well, TIME bro... TIME~~ just chill la.

me: i can't concentrate. yesterday, 7 September Wednesday, once i reach my room in tbr, i straight emo. depress. i tell you. that 15 minutes is hell for me. i feel like, want to end my life. want to withdraw. i know. people tell me, don't think so much. i still got my family with me, friends. its not the end of the world. now its not like you both are breaking up. why you depress like kena dump??? LOL

me2: LOL funny la you. you talked too much to her jor la. now if you tell again, she will think you fan lo... but you got no choice. she is your gf. she love you. she has the right to know how you feel. Eric leong, if you can't take care yourself, you being so emotional, over sensitive, so fragile. how you gonna give her security? how to give her trust? do you love her?

me: yes. i love her. i love Michelle.

me2: then that's all what matter. don't make it complicated la dude. seriously. chill. enjoy your relationship. its new! and you got Michelle! what a sweet girl!! you should be grateful man. she love you! she choose to be with you!! despite her parents unhappy, she still stay with you! she give up her past and be with you! you are more important to her!!!

me: i know. i ain't feeling i'm important as last time. i felt, we are getting further away. i know a movie with a guy is nothing. but, sorry. i can't accept that.

me2: if you can't accept that, tell her how you feel. so that she can understand you. she apologies right? and promised you she won't do that again right? then ok jor la. chill la. and you know what, she still small. she is, real baby XD
maybe she not ready for serious relationship. what she want is just a normal relationship. not a serious one. so you calm down. play it slow. ok?

me: she said, last time, her ex didn't sms her after school hour. like part time bf. i'm not.
but she is being like him now......

me2: wait! stop comparing man. stop it. what her ex your ex. stop it man. stop it. its YOU and HER that matter now.

me: thanks man. thanks.

me2: you're welcome. i'm, yourself, i am you. and i am talking to myself now. LOL you owed me dude. XD
chill la bro. go to gym la...

me: ok. lets go man.

me2: leave your phone at home. concentrate :)

me: seriously? ok.

me2: trust her k? trust her.

me: i love Michelle Chui!!!! here is a photo of us, last Sunday after taekwondo training, i went home, and she dated me :)

me2: ish. kau tak habis habis post kissing photo ==

me: LOL i only have these photo at my phone ma. the rest with her :P

me2: lets go bro.

me: lets go. before i sign off, i would like to tell myself, i want to stay strong!! stay strong for Michelle!! for her!! i want to be happy with her. sweet sweet memories with her.

I LOVE YOU MCHS <3




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