hmm where should i start. i dont know. or follow ms tiong's advice, i am the manager of ..... of the product .... and i am suppose to draft an advertising plan for 6 months...
sien... its saturday. supposingly got replacement class but i didnt go. reason, yesterday watch kung fu hustle til 3am ++ and had my chips. then class at 9am, 8.30am and 8.50am i can hear its raining heavily. so..... skip looo.... hahahhaha. but today skip tkd class also. lost rm20 income. sigh. nvm la... rest lo. exam coming jor.... only yiruma's song accompany me writing. more feel. hahahaha.....
hmm. too much thing to write. feeling fade away how to write!!! hopefully i can update my blog more frequent provided i have a secured line. free from lightning strike. LOL. where should i start? seriously ....
lets start day from day. hmm,
monday 25 July 2011, dont remember. only know class ended at 12pm and lecturer allowed us to keep our seniors' assignments. first he said borrow until we hand in assignment. then hand in liao he said let us keep. no place to keep wor. like that our assignment mai let people keep next time? suan ler.......... after class at 12pm, follow hazel's dad go eat at wangsa maju then go jusco then go immigration there make her temporary IC. i follow cause want get experience how things is done. sun bian get my passport photos cause i left one nia. in my life is short and got many things to learn. better than someone who always dont want learn just rely on others. when others failed, one shall failed too. after kao tim, we go to Jabatan Pendaftaran Negara for her licence. LOL. i suppose to go back cause very sleepy but it finished quite fast.
After that back college. went to football field for macky wacky by hotel management advanced diploma second year. got smelly tofu there not bad. i bought pearl milk tea and some fried potatoes i think. taste like chips.then go back sleep. at night go play COD. looks like i addicted to it. knife, sniper. lol.
actually i stress also not because of assignments. its because the person behind assignments. there are numerous times i said i am here, and i learn my thing. i can work to my limit but not over limit. and i cant get A though you forced me too. sorry but thats just me. if you unhappy, you can do whatever you want to me. its just, its my privacy here, my blog. i troll anything i want. i dont like keeping the feeling inside me. i'll do when i feel like doing it. its a waste of time when i go for discussion, everyone working on laptop, i have no laptop, seriously i wasting my time there. rather come back face my own computer.
tuesday, 26 July 2011, 12pm psychology class canceled.replaced on friday and i didnt go also. sien with psycho class jor though its coming to the end of semester. after finish blogging gonna go back my mom there. yeah!! finish class at 10am. go da bao, online, eat. COD. forgot what happen next.
wednesday, 27 July 2011. nothing excite me besides tkd. waiting to shout my lungs out. its not i dont care about assignment shits. its, my only days in a week, to release my stress. fully free from all the worries and tension. if i were to forced to bring stress to tkd, im gonna be real pissed. im not gonna sit on front computer assignment all day. it just not my style. i want my tkd life no matter what happen. though im old, but i aint giving it up yet. no im not.
thats why i love spending time with them. wash all the mats, badminton session etc etc. i just found my friends back. not gonna let it go easily. night COD lagi..... right shin swollen because master kick it ==
thursday, 28 July 2011, nothing special besides i went to football field, not for macky wacky anymore cause it ended on tuesday. its DPR2 B5 if i not mistaken, their event. i think most of the groups did fund raising for charity. it could be a record in tarc in one year, so many charity done. LOL this is my happiest day man.... first, enter only get free gift. DARLIE All Shiny White 40g. then get another Wrigley's Extra Mints 20g. then answer simple question and got another 2 DARLIE All Shiny White 40g lol. i so happy dont know why. had ice cream honeydew flavor. then popiah also. then fried chicken. then pearl milt tea peppermint flavor. i just cant stop eating. lol so many....
then go class, advanced diploma in hotel management second year students, that have same lecture as us, sell plush toys. woohoo. i bought angry bird and the pig (its enemy) woo hoo so happy. rm 12.50 gone jor. not to mention the food i bought earlier. memang pokai but i simply love it. guess money really can buy my happiness. it apply to me though.
free gift : DARLIE All Shiny White 40g X 3
Wrigley's Extra Mints 20g
bought : ice cream honeydew flavor (RM4.50)
pearl milk tea peppermint flavor (RM3)
fried chicken (RM6)
Angry Bird (red) + Enemy Pig (RM12.50)
Angry Bird yellow (RM3.50)
then at night wanna go night market. WITHOUT RESEARCH. reached there only realize night market got tutup by DBKL. seriously. dont fool me man. first tbr. now 2am want find mamak is impossible in tbr. then now sri rampai night market. i never been there man. 4 years in tarc never been to sri rampai night market. sien. people there complaint noisy and dirty. seriously. dont bullshit me la. both tbr and night market have been there for years before my arrival. not you complaint this that. stfu la seriously. saja buat muka. guess its election coming so... yea they play some stick or two.
then walk to sri rampai business park makan. round whole round dont know what to eat. then dont know where to eat. finally end up in old town. though i hate it, but i dont care cause damn hungry. met ginger and ooi there. also covey. got to watch malaysia vs singapore. match tied at 1-1 but singapore win through aggregate 6-4. sien.
in the beginning i order plain water 4 glasses. chill la. water only ma. whats your problem. make a fuss. stfu laa.... i eat what i want to eat. im tired of you controlling my food. then you eat as you want. then i order mee siam singapore to eat. quite nice but not enough. then order another curry mee. i was between curry mee or dried hor fun. hazel mentioned curry mee. so do i. just feel like eating something like that. then my gf start to tell me how bad it is for my health. the fat will clot in my blood then this and that will happen. then demonstrate to me if i eat curry mee that has alot of santan in it and drink ice water, what will happen. seriously. my whole wonderful day got ruined by you bitch. stfu. i eat whatever shit i want. i dont mean to downgrade you but women, sometimes you need to know when to shut up and open mouth.
if you dont know how to open mouth might as well shut it up. not that i dont sayang my gf its like... you know what i meant. first, as i am god know whats inside de curry mee. so if you dont know, dont come and tell me how harmful it is when i ordered already. i know you care me but the way you speak like cursing me to death. EAT MORE LA EAT CURRY MEE WITH ICE WATER. FATS OIL ALL CLOT IN YOUR BLOOD. you dont effing eat anything then. everything got oils and fats. just drink water la ban!
seriously, im a person that wont regret over my own decision. if its my own decision, i wont blame anyone nor myself. just bear the consequences. easy. whats the fuss?
sometimes, its not that im a a bf dont care you. but you ruined my days enough. just, grown up seriously. the whole world might disagree that you want to chase your hobby as your career, which is art and craft. seriously, i dont see that as a problem. as a human being, chasing you own life, own interest, i dont see it as a problem. people sure will said why i supprted my gf to give up or withdraw at this moment, after getting good grades in diploma in Pr, and now in advanced PR, second year. another semester will successfully graduate with flying colors. yes. if you decided to quit now, the whole world may hate you or said you stupid but i WILL NOT. to me, whats the point living in one's shadow? just because your friend study PR and you dont know what to study, parents pressure, you choose PR. something you dislike. and you fake your voice during presentation. seriously. you want to live in that shadow forever?
the reason i withdraw from my old course is, i know where i want to be. and i DONT WANT TO REGRET FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. you are living in shadow do you know that? when you enter working environment, you will be extremely stress with your life. and may cause your marriage, with whoever it is. this is because of your choice. still, i will support your decision of going for art and craft. DESPITE the world against your decision. DESPITE i do not appreciate art. i still support your decision solely because i believe in chasing one's dream is the goal of life.
whats the point you live for others? whats the point you live but had your goal disallowed? whats the point you live but couldn't reach your goal?
i can only tell you, the reason i supported you not for fun or childish. i just believe in achieving one's goal and, its better to change now than regret for the rest of your life. whats the point living then?
its better to waste 4 years of your life then your WHOLE LIFE. if only you get it. i guess you have no guts to achieve your own goal. never mind. you just want to live other people's life. never mind. really. the reason i withdraw 4 years ago, same. its ok to waste your 6 months life then all your life. and, not that i did not earn anything at all. i do learn something. screw my life.
almost forgot, we walked all the way back to tbr from sri rampai.
friday, 29 July 2011. yesterday night already said want go out dating today. and you wear econnect shirt. woke up late. rushing. is that my problem? you said want go out . then never said want go where. you come to me and ask same shit question for whole year. my answer: my house. i know i acted quite badly. and i dont know why i act like that. guess i seriously pissed. waited you for 40 minutes and you tell me i can go back my mom's place if i want. i can join badminton session if i want. wtf. seriously. i hate this attitude from the beginning. you want go where, just say it. i go where also can but your problem? no money. then its not my problem. or maybe it is my problem for being poor. im sorry then. you can choose someone else richer. you have been living in poor with me. im sorry. go and find someone richer now. i had no money. and you went all the way back hostel to change. and tell me you dont know where to go. fine la. my house then. i just go sleep. dont fan me.
sien. why you always like that one.thats the problem with you. grown up for heaven fcuking sake!! dont tell me how much responsibilities you bear for your family etc etc. its all bullshit if you cant even decide simple thing. you want i go out with you, you say where to go. no money? sleep at home. at least i help you save money. you might be crying that i treated you like this. im sorry. but i had no choice. i may choose to go wangsa walk cause my tkd kaki were there. but you probably wont be happy and walk away like you always do. i said go wangsa walk, you said why go there. then you decide la. dont be a bitch can or not. you think this is hk drama meh.
then go sleep. wake up, straight bising mau makan. seriously. dont disturb my sleep. and, dont be like a bitchy princess order food to arrive at your mouth once you wake up. go change and go out eat la. sigh. dont know why recently you become like this. and you said its me. i know i got my fault. and im not gonna said anything anymore. cause i had done talking.
saturday, 30 July 2011, i skipped replacement class. skipped lunch. breakfast. tkd class. im heading to the end of my blog. its time to pack and go back my mom there. i screw up my assignments. i screw up my life. i screw up my relationship.
i love you baby. no lie. day by day. despite all the flaws, i still love you. because you are my baby. my dear. my love. one and only.
~ Light Up The Darkness ~
