dont ask what i can do for you. ask what you want actually

you know who im addressing this to. i knew you want it and asking for it. so now you got it. less do i need to say. there is no need for words now. this blog has it all and what is in my mind and what i want to say. im enough. ENOUGH. tired and sick of all this bullshits. fcuk off from my life. fcuk off.

why i said so? hugging other guy, in the mind thinking other guy. should i label you as playgirl? or just a piece of society shits? what you want. DONT TOUCH ME. you gave me enough shits so now get the hell outta my mind. when i just wanted to let you go, you pull me back. but its all confusing. sleeping together but denied we are couple. bullshits that is what i call it. so dont fcuking mess with me. i got more important things to deal with.

people who are uneducated, means stupid. idiot and have no meaning in life. confucius said, man need education, brahmin said only education can change your level in the society. dont believe me please and other people. but do believe in history because we came from there. and we will end there if we didnt believe in facts, history, lesson. why do ancient civilization extinct, its because they refuse to educate themselves. in other words, they destroy their own generation.

only educated people know what is their need. what is their goal in life. and what they have to do. for those dont want educate themselve, your life is nothing but a plain shits. you are just pushing yourself to dead. you know no limit and you are so damn childish.

you are childish. but i dont care. when you in the situation, you must live in that situation... what would your mom think and feel if she knew what you doing right now. bring guys go back room? play game all night? never concentrate in studies? ladies and gentlemen out there. please help me describe a person who didnt concern about its own studies, waste money studying and other thing. live a meaningless life, and CARE NOTHING ABOUT ITS OWN FINAL EXAM. please answer. thanks

you knew it gonna hurt people but you still do it. learn from your mistake. he told you if you do it he gonna left you. yet you do it. this is call dont appreciate people. and stupid enough to purposely spoil it. its all your own decision that cause this to happened. you knew it yet you still do it. people, tell me what is this. when you know the road gonna lead you to death, but you still want to go for it. suicide???

im enough. just get out from my life. i cant accept someone who cant think for itself. although i do have lil feeling, but its fading away. dont blame me. its you that make it fade away by time. look upon yourself.

light up the darkness.

Emo yet meaningful day

I was waken up by my sai sAi lap from several calls she made me. Today i broke de first plate in my career. It also broke my clean record. Which also broke my future in this long term career. Eventually, de day has come where i shall fall. As i stood there staring de broken plate, my heart goes broken too. Frustrated by my mistakes n overhaul by my past, who am i today? Y i cant get rid of de past?

Today, both of my frens came into my barrack. Thats wat i call my battle field. Both of them used to be my closest frens back then. But de moment they step into de shop, i become so numb. Feelingless. Neither i shall neo wat reaction i should giv. Its like de flashback of history back then. I should be happy as its like a reunion some sorta thing. But i aint feel so.
Eventually i found out I've been superior. I lost my own identity n i lost my self esteem de moment my base been intruded. I lost my very own battle without even walk a step further. I used to tell my frens not to giv up without a good fight. But today i brought lost to my army. I've lost de battle without even sending any soldier for it. Do i been overhaul by my past? Or it jus de hatred deep inside my heart that unforgiven? I really dono. Felt such a loser. Frustrated by myself.

TarCians, rmb today because today is de day v die in battlefield

Took this moment before last battle in second year second sem. MNG

Moment before final paper MNG

Took this in library... Too boring... Study too much. Brain cant enter information liao. Hope later can answer question >.<

H1N1 in TARC

It’s a total crap H1N1 in TARC. and everyone hope college to be close for a week at least due to moutain of mid term, assignments and presentation (not to mention 8am class, if late 15minutes no attendance will be taken, you know who am i talking about dude).
Everyone wants the college to be close due to H1N1 but anyone wants to be the victim of this vaccine-less disease??

NO.

So, stop dreaming and dont screw up your days in college life. However, from what i observe, there are disease which more contagious and harmful to us. This can be spread easily by airborn.

Bronchitis... fungus. Both diseases happened to my classmate which cost them dearly. One just entered hospital this afternoon.

What is H1N1? Both Bronchitis and fungus can be spread easily. If you think only H1N1 is contagious, think again. Still going for crowded place like pikom pc fair? Tarcians rushing to visit it or work for it. Think about it. You are just putting yourself into dead zone, perhaps.

H1N1 had the widest coverage in the nation. That doesnt mean other disease is less contagious or will not spread. Nor shall YOU take less safety precaution to your own health. Malaysians, kl especially, had so far not yet been infected seriously with H1N1.
While rural area already hit by this H1N1. Come to think about it. Thousands of people in a 10feet square land? Yet no one infected? Please. This is not left4dead or resident evil. We are HOPING the outcome of 28days/weeks later to happen to us where human nation had been push to the edge of extinction.

YOU waiting some kind of LEGEND like WILL SMITH to stand up front line to survive our human nation? Go watch I AM LEGEND 2007 movie then.
Last but not least, kl people especially, see fashion as their part of life. Perhaps, most important element in their life. They rather get infected and sleep whole month in hospital then wear masks. It looks weird and noob with the masks isn't?
Haha... good comment. Weather you want to take care you health or you find your life meaningless and want to create some ENTERTAINMENT outta your boredom of life, its all in your hand brothers and sisters.

If you think your handsome and pretty face (or cutie innocent look) will secure you from being infected, congratulation for being nominated as WORST CREATURE ON EARTH.

You can spend rm4.50 on a plate of nasi lemak at Steven corner. Or rm5 for 3hours cc at MU GOLD TBR. Or rm109 for a formal wear (for guys) from padini. And studying in TARC the most AFFORDABLE (not to mention CHEAP to jaga mr tan's face), yet can’t afford to buy a masks cost rm1????

What happened to us? What happened to the nation? Just because H1N1 get most coverage in the country, is that mean guys can screw the girls' hole without HELMET on?? And spread another disease that has NO vaccine since its appearance in the eye of the world in the eyar 1981?? Acquired immune deficiency syndrome.

People are like that. Rather choose to become a zombie than give up their good looking appearance. God has tried to help. But we refuse to believe in Him and think he does not exist. People, the difference between us and animals is that we have INTELLIGENT that determine our future, behaviour, attitude, black and white, good or bad, up or down.

Why we use it at a wrong place? What we have done? Look what we have done? People are dying and killing out there. You hear children crying. Trees being chop down innocently. Has our INTELLIGENT brought us to where we are today? Or this is what God asked Mr Einstein to teach us? Or actually our ATTITUDE brings us to what we are today.

If God had a chance to say to us, He may say this
"I gave you the Earth and you gave me shits. I'm so sick of this and enough seeing you mutha fcka wasting your INTELLIGENCE. Go fcuk yourself"

The next day you wake up, the only thing you see is the land is flat. Sun covered by dust. Sky no longer blue but reddish as blood filled the air. Plants died. Its not home alone. It’s the day God show us His MAJESTY

the reason i write this not to gain anything from you. but lets think of this. do we really want that to happen and cry regretful after that?
if we can prevent it from happening, why we rather asking for it?

Its different. So different.

Its so different. De one that i neo n de one that appear. All seems to be totally different. Y? I hardly kept my confidence. But this is wat i get? I neo one need to be protected. This is y i'm here. But i nvr expect this to happen. One had changed. Changed into some1 i really afraid. Very scare of. As if totally both different person. I'm very scare to lose one. I even scare de one become two. I very scare. Wat should i do? I don wan listen anything. I request nth than one. Only one. Not de two that i saw, that i afraid of. I still love one. But can i face two? I dono. I afraid to face two. It jus too scary. I felt that two is a person i've met last year that i so afraid of. Now again it appear in front. Y? I really love one. Pls, God. Giv me number one. I'm jus an ordinary guy who seek love from someone. I neo. I neo that one hardly trust guy due to past relations. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for wat they've done to me. Treat u right is wat i'll try my best. No promise i will make cos i don wan to break de promise n lose ur trust. Because that is de most important thing in relations. But pls, don put me as de same as other, or one past. I hate to be label de same as one past because i am who i am. I hope. Jus hope. U r de one i neo. I love one. ONE.

love assignent missing you duty LOST

girls. never start a relationship if you dont trust a guy. dont start a relationship if you dont think the guy dont suit. dont ever think to start a relationship if you think be friend if better

because if you think girls are the only one that will hurt from a relationship you are wrong. if you think girls are the only creature that will drop tears for their loves one you are so wrong. if you think breaking a relationship is nothing to a guy then you are most wrong.

dont just because we are guys, girls will do whatever you want and never think of our feeling. we have mother, father, sisters and brothers. but why you treat us like we are some kind of feelingless human? did we owe you? i'm sorry for those guys that play and cheated their girlfriends. i'm sorry for girls that cheated by their boyfriend. i'm would like to apologies for what your former boyfriend had done to you.
but please dont put their blame on me. please dont put me the same as them.
but i didnt blame you for what had happened. because i knew that its hardly to trust guy again after your past relationship. i do believe in this world there is no such stupid person that will trust their new partner after cheated and hurt a lot by their past, except me. i dont care how hurt i was last time yet i till put my trust in you. because i really love you. thats it. no question.

but today is the day i gonna lost you, like FOREVER. i had heard enough. i had hurt enough. i had enough tears. i'm enough. i'm so tired of all this. i miss my family.... i dont know why when i'm happy, never thionk of them. only when i sad and down, i will think of them at first place. pai ga zai?

enough is enough. thanks for all the time and love you gave me. our time is short, but its gave me lots of memories. i dont know why you had such impact in my life. i dont know why i had so much feeling to you.

how long would i wait? i do not know. i wasn't a patient person. and i know i will NEVER suitable so i choose to give up now. as i wont be able to give you any happiness. sorry. kind of boring. my life is just come and go. just like a hotel. boring. tired. i really tired. perhaps i should take a rest.

i'm a playboy that dont know how to take care myself from being hurt. i'm a playboy that always drop tears for loved one. and i'm a playboy that being tried.