exam. damn stats man. i got whole month to study yet i take it for granted. sigh... wasted.... end up realizing i cant study all and the more i study the more i will forget. so gave up whole chapter 7 Probability Distribution. it happens to be.. lots of marks burned. 25marks AT LEAST. which lead to my 2nd thing i regretted in my life. for sure. as far as i concern.
i've disappointed my parents, intern company (former), lecturer (Ms Fong), friends, and my lover.
it looks like i ruined my own resit. damn it. but already passed. rough calculation, lose 55marks. equally, wait for another resit. sigh... its pain in the arse to talk about it. i knew i hit my limit way far. that is why i decided not to push myself further cause it'll just cause more destruction. i shall not study last minute again. hypothesis testing got 2 questions, 20marks. i did only one. sien. i probably can do the other one but time is just not enough. last time exam, i need another extra 1 hour to complete the paper. of course im not give such time that is why i failed. this time i need another 30 minutes to finish the paper and again, of course i was not granted that. hopefully if i can pass, i can burn the notes away. if i didnt, i wish i can do better next time. sigh....
SECOND REASON
no. not japan nuclear problem. i know i have been following that nuclear news closely lately. i mean not as close as you would thought but 'close' in my own term. this is because i knew chernobyl disaster happened on 26 April 1986. click on this link if you want to read about it http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chernobyl_disaster
nah i know wikipedia sucks but you dont need extreme precise web talk about this. wikipedia is sufficient for you to understand how worse it can be. how hard things be. and how difficult to live, 10 - 20 years later. due to radiation. 1986. 25 years later and the place is still unoccupied. this disaster, perhaps, touch my heart. the condition in the area is.. worse than the situation you could imagined or watched in "I AM LEGEND" cause.... lifeless. really no life. all you see there, is all faded colors of life. there is NO DUST. NO INSECTS. NO BACTERIA. just pure radiation. some experts says the place accessible only 50 years later. but the facts shows maybe another 100-300 years. some say 500 years. well i wish that not gonna happen to japan because chernobyl, back then, has not much safety measurements like what japan has today. and impressingly, japan always increase their safety of the nuclear plants from time to time. meaning once they got new technologies to cover the nuclear plants, they will use it. not like Malaysia. wait 10 years only do. scare this scare that.
the photos taken in Chernobyl is.... a pain for the eyes to see. and worse, its so lifeless that not even insects can stay there. perhaps, the only place on earth without COCKROACHES.
whats even worse is, the paint there, wall, floor, furnitures, electrical equipments and all the other daily household.... all left to.... fade... i cant explain here. no choice but to attached few photos here. a picture spoke thousand words.
nothing left. worse than haunted city or dead city.
no life at all. not even planktons could survive the disaster. the amount of radioactive is... way too much for a single cell to live. whats left is only those green plants, very rare, and limited species, that NOT survived the blast, but have been mutated. of course, plants cant become zombies. dont get addicted to PLANT vs ZOMBIES pls ==
this is what i meant by 'left to fade' not even dust
could you imagine what was this place before the disaster?
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