Last Paper of Second Year First Semester

tomorrow, last paper. AHMC 5434 CRISIS MANAGEMENT FOR PUBLIC RELATIONS.

i admit, i already feel like flying now. my juniors majority already finished exam today. and all flying now. and me, hanging in the middle. no mood study. but i still at the stage of controlling myself from flying. LOL.

today finish AHMC 5404 ADVANCED PUBLIC RELATIONS WRITING
what could i ask for? i was damn lucky to be able to answer the questions. God, thank You for Your guidance, helps, and wisdom you gave me.

i ask no more, but one more blessing from You my dear God. tomorrow is my last paper of this semester and despite i have not much mood to study, i knew i shouldn't give up and i will not give up. i already screwed up my statistic resit paper. not this time man. not this time.


the reason of me writing blog today despite tomorrow morning 9am paper, what else? there is only one reason.

i is so stupid. wtf am i thinking now. not official couple? not yet?? wtf????
seriously. we kissed, we hugged. he held hand. not couple? is what then??? why the hell i am so stupid??

why want to make things complicated?? just because i want to decide a good date to be so-called "officially" ???? how idiot am i!!! whats the point having a good date? go choose Christmas or New Year la!! or February 14!!!

seriously. why am i so childish. why am i such a dickhead. sigh.

if both people in love with each other? whats the matter of asking one another to be couple? whats the point to propose? is it necessary??

why am i so stupid to realize this. fml. FML

ok. i had enough. i so regret now. another few things i regretted in my life. definitely she is hurt. so do i. i promised her not to hurt her. and gonna held her hand through rain and sun. and what the hell i just did. i just.... couldn't forgive myself. i hate myself. i can't afford to hurt her anymore.

and, for her to hurt me, simple. stare at TB. post videos about les couple getting married. seriously. why. why i feel like that. she told me many times that she will not choose back the old road. and she will not make the same mistakes again. she assure me that she love me and serious with me.
and yet, why you always tell me how much you admire TB? or guys with muscular bodies. long hair.

i have no idea. im hurt everytime you tell me that. but i still love you and try to accept you for who you are.

i think my mood getting better. not as emo as earlier. gonna start study real soon.

and, i am so sorry May. sorry for my stupidness. idiotness. im such a fool. im sorry May.

and May, i promise you i will give you a surprise.

ILY.



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