my feelings ~

Friday, April 8, 2011

hah! i remember what to write jor!!!

alright. now i remember what to write. this is the 'forgotten' topic that i mentioned in my previous blog. in the end, i forgotten the topic but i was actually with me all the time. in fact, just beside me. without further ado, let us begin.


Remember April Fool's Day? well i would dare to say, 98% of us would says its a prank day where we can fool our friends or family or people we know around us, without worrying they will get upset cause its fool day!
most likely, another normal prank day like halloween etc etc.

here is the true fact about april fool's day.

http://irwan007.wordpress.com/2007/04/01/april-fool-rai-kejatuhan-islam/

i know you lazy to read it. conclusion i shall write. well i am interested in this story cause, i was included in that 98% people that did not know the true behind 'april fool's day' . it happens i bought a Mastika magazine. a malay magazine that published since 70 years ago without failed. to the malay community, this name is not strange to them. i used to buy this magazine every months last time when i was still small. then stop for long time. then i just buy it occasionally just for the sake of reading as i love reading especially i did not have anything to do now. just like now. no intern no exam no nothing. back to topic.

back in the age, i mean long way back in the 8th century AD. the date, April 1st is when something terrible happened to Islam. accordingly to the link above, and also according to Mastika, this date is where the time observed the fall of Islam in Granada, Spain attacked by the Christians. well, during this time, the Christians, or the Jews i suppose, are highly dangerous and violent. they wanted to vanish all the Islam people from the earth at one shot. they did all they could, include all the killing and cruelty. until one day they came across this place call Granada in Spain, the last state that contained Islam people that still alive. the Islam people stay indoor and avoid going out so that they wont get kill. what there Jews did is they lie to them by saying there is a big ship coming over to fetch them, save them. so these Islam people came out and proceed to the harbor.

next, the Jews burn down all the houses, as well the ship. the Muslim can do nothing but to see everything down by the fire. and in the end, everyone got killed by the Jews regardless man, women, child, young, old. this is how the Muslim vanished from Spain. so april 1st is know for the success of the Jews vanished the Muslim. here i would like to acknowledge that i am not sure whether it is the Jews who did so. i mean, the story is proven. it just that, in the blog and magazine, they call them 'orang kristian' so i suppose its the Jews.

and so, 1st April 1847 is the day the killing spree happen in granada Spain done by the Jews. it is suppose to be the day where muslim mourn about. but seems like the westerns culture has been in our blood until we forgot such cruel incident that happened. however, according to wikipedia, 1st April is a day to prank people. meaning, the westerners didnt change the fact. it just happen to be coincidence on the same day. although april's fool can date back to the year 1392, i do not know if the westerners has anything to do with the 'coincidence'

anyway, since you guys are now aware of this, besides fooling people on this date, remember the truth fact behind the date. if you have any muslim friends that enjoy april day, advice them. and tell them the truth. they deserve to know the fact. in no time, when the malaysia gov realized this, they will, again, yes again, HARAMkan this april fool day for muslim, just like what they did for Valentine's Day. it just matter of time before they haram everything. hahaha.

talk about valentine's day, i got something to share with lucky readers of my blog. i knew this long time ago, when i was still in form 4, during one of my history class. this story told by my favorite tutor, K.Siiva and i remember this today, and forever. here is the fact:

"Under the rule of Emperor Claudius II Rome was involved in many bloody and unpopular campaigns. Claudius the Cruel was having a difficult time getting soldiers to join his military leagues. He believed that the reason was that roman men did not want to leave their loves or families. As a result, Claudius cancelled all marriages and engagements in Rome. The good Saint Valentine was a priest at Rome in the days of Claudius II. He and Saint Marius aided the Christian martyrs and secretly married couples, and for this kind deed Saint Valentine was apprehended and dragged before the Prefect of Rome, who condemned him to be beaten to death with clubs and to have his head cut off. He suffered martyrdom on the 14th day of February, about the year 270. At that time it was the custom in Rome, a very ancient custom, indeed, to celebrate in the month of February the Lupercalia, feasts in honour of a heathen god. On these occasions, amidst a variety of pagan ceremonies, the names of young women were placed in a box, from which they were drawn by the men as chance directed. "

Quoted from http://www.pictureframes.co.uk/pages/saint_valentine.htm

meaning, someone good, by the name Saint Valentine, a priest in Rome, despite disallowed to aid marriages, he secretly help a couple. end up, the Rome found out and order him to be kill by the stated method above. so this date, 14 February should be the day we, the whole world, mourn about this great passionate priest. but how the heck we are celebrating it? BIG LOLZZZZZZ

well, young generation, wait! this valentine's day has been celebrate loooong time ago before even Y2K. here is another clearer fact about valentino :

"Alongside a woodcut portrait of him, text states that Valentinus was a Roman priest martyred during the reign of Claudius the Goth [Claudius II]. Since he was caught marrying Christian couples and aiding any Christians who were being persecuted under Emperor Claudius in Rome [when helping them was considered a crime], Valentinus was arrested and imprisoned. Claudius took a liking to this prisoner -- until Valentinus made a strategic error: he tried to convert the Emperor -- whereupon this priest was condemned to death. He was beaten with clubs and stoned; when that didn't do it, he was beheaded outside the Flaminian Gate [circa 269]. "

fully quote from http://www.catholic.org/saints/saint.php?saint_id=159

haha an online christian web :P

well i guess its clearly stated the reason here. and i hope, you people can at least pay some respect to this great man. a man who died for truth. for peace. for family. for love. i did not haram you guys from celebrating it. but, since you know the truth, what you gonna do? tak percaya, boleh pergi google :)

anyway, since the day i knew this fact, yea when i was 16 years old, i didnt really celebrate valentine's day. or i should say, i didnt had gf during valentine's day XD

well actually got la but just that, i 'had' to celebrate cause my ex, or current gf wanted it to be special. i guess if she knows the fact, she still want it to be special. well if i was single, i definitely wont celebrate it. NOT BECAUSE I WAS SINGLE! because i know the fact. if i got gf, i would tell her about the fact. and.... hopefully she can understand me. further more, during this day, everything double the price for couple. why spent more?? LOLZ


signing off.....

~Light Up The Darkness~

Mysterious symbols unveiled

as the title suggest, the mysterious symbols that you guys can see in my previous post, its actually from CELCOM NETWORK named KOLONY. lame. and had no idea why they used such thing to scare people. they might wanted to create curiosity but i guess they failed cause people are afraid of it. or at least, i meant, not interested and think its silly. the biohazard symbols has 3 circles while the kolony has 5 circles is because of its so-called 'infection' , Ding, Fren, Bomm, Kom, Koinz

i do not know and not interested of what it is and for further information, the deal is only launch friday 8 April 2011 so what i've got here is pretty limited. it has a tagline which is “Get Ready For A New Social Media Outbreak”

well that's all for today i guess. suppose there is another main point but seems like.... i forgotten hahaha.


anyway, i bought 2 books today from popular which is quite costly. first one, "WHY DO KAMIKAZE PILOTS WEAR HELMETS?"
by andrew thompson - rm64.90

second book, Beyond Twilight - Manueka Dunn-Mascetti (RM9.90 promotion NP - RM 15.90)


i have no idea how come i bought second book. i was holding it all the way and i thought my dear bought a book also end up..... i mistaken it was her book . in the end she didnt buy any books and was very upset. i felt so guilty and sorry for her as it was her money also cause i didnt bring enough money as i didnt expect to to be in book store anyway. hmm. gonna pay her back soon. sorry dear ><




~Light Up The Darkness~

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

The End of The Day Part 2

yes. the second reason im writing this is because, for the past 2 weeks or so..... this symbols have been creating curiousity among people in kuala lumpur. i saw it lots of time in newspaper. and outside pavilion. but didnt bother. if it involved media, i guess its something that approved by government. i HOPE. haha. hope its not the alien invasion thingy. if it is, i would be more than happy. run back to my mom's house. spend the last few moment with my family, and call my dear and tell her " I LOVE YOU FOREVER"

i didn't lie. if its really happen, when i said "I LOVE YOU FOREVER" i really meant it cause the next second i would vanish from the earth. so i kept my promise of living her FOREVER. cause after death, it is when our life journey begin. all our works, acts, will be judge. either good , or , bad...

back to the topic, this is the symbol








compared to this















different is the first one got 5 outer circle while the biohazard symbol only 3 outer circle.

this is not a joke. i got few feed from other famous blogger.


it is around us...









i dont know whether this is photoshopped cause this is looks crazier than seeing a 'batman' logo on the sky.






the one i saw in pavi





and this is the one commonly sighted in the star






is this some kinda secret organization wanna do something? like.... the NEST team in transformer 2... MEN IN BLACK organizations...

i were told that something "BIG" gonna happen on 6th April 2011. its alreayd way passed 12am so it is 6th april now. lets wait and see what will happen. remember to buy newspaper as its the only media we have and can trust in :)

signing off....


~Light Up The Darkness~

The End of The Day

im writing this because, the title above. exactly. got 2 reasons. first of first.

exam. damn stats man. i got whole month to study yet i take it for granted. sigh... wasted.... end up realizing i cant study all and the more i study the more i will forget. so gave up whole chapter 7 Probability Distribution. it happens to be.. lots of marks burned. 25marks AT LEAST. which lead to my 2nd thing i regretted in my life. for sure. as far as i concern.
i've disappointed my parents, intern company (former), lecturer (Ms Fong), friends, and my lover.

it looks like i ruined my own resit. damn it. but already passed. rough calculation, lose 55marks. equally, wait for another resit. sigh... its pain in the arse to talk about it. i knew i hit my limit way far. that is why i decided not to push myself further cause it'll just cause more destruction. i shall not study last minute again. hypothesis testing got 2 questions, 20marks. i did only one. sien. i probably can do the other one but time is just not enough. last time exam, i need another extra 1 hour to complete the paper. of course im not give such time that is why i failed. this time i need another 30 minutes to finish the paper and again, of course i was not granted that. hopefully if i can pass, i can burn the notes away. if i didnt, i wish i can do better next time. sigh....



SECOND REASON

no. not japan nuclear problem. i know i have been following that nuclear news closely lately. i mean not as close as you would thought but 'close' in my own term. this is because i knew chernobyl disaster happened on 26 April 1986. click on this link if you want to read about it http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chernobyl_disaster

nah i know wikipedia sucks but you dont need extreme precise web talk about this. wikipedia is sufficient for you to understand how worse it can be. how hard things be. and how difficult to live, 10 - 20 years later. due to radiation. 1986. 25 years later and the place is still unoccupied. this disaster, perhaps, touch my heart. the condition in the area is.. worse than the situation you could imagined or watched in "I AM LEGEND" cause.... lifeless. really no life. all you see there, is all faded colors of life. there is NO DUST. NO INSECTS. NO BACTERIA. just pure radiation. some experts says the place accessible only 50 years later. but the facts shows maybe another 100-300 years. some say 500 years. well i wish that not gonna happen to japan because chernobyl, back then, has not much safety measurements like what japan has today. and impressingly, japan always increase their safety of the nuclear plants from time to time. meaning once they got new technologies to cover the nuclear plants, they will use it. not like Malaysia. wait 10 years only do. scare this scare that.

the photos taken in Chernobyl is.... a pain for the eyes to see. and worse, its so lifeless that not even insects can stay there. perhaps, the only place on earth without COCKROACHES.
whats even worse is, the paint there, wall, floor, furnitures, electrical equipments and all the other daily household.... all left to.... fade... i cant explain here. no choice but to attached few photos here. a picture spoke thousand words.




nothing left. worse than haunted city or dead city.






no life at all. not even planktons could survive the disaster. the amount of radioactive is... way too much for a single cell to live. whats left is only those green plants, very rare, and limited species, that NOT survived the blast, but have been mutated. of course, plants cant become zombies. dont get addicted to PLANT vs ZOMBIES pls ==






this is what i meant by 'left to fade' not even dust
could you imagine what was this place before the disaster?






this fun fair was suppose to open to public few days after the incident. if not mistaken, 1st may. but looks like, unfortunately, no one ever had the chance to ride it.


leaves couldn't survive. these tree are already considered dead as the skins are all affected by radioactive. no longer can be use. no longer functioning.
the wall? its not dust. just faded...






haunted? i don't think so. its more like... left behind... abandoned... just by seeing it, thousands of history struck my mind. what had happened on this date.





the wiring...





last but not least, the reactor that explode due to some failure during testing i think. i don't wanna read that Wikipedia page anymore cause every time i read it, i felt terrible sad. lost. emo. the damaged is too much to imagine of.


hopefully you guys get a CLEAR picture of what im trying to explain here. YES. this is the result of explosion of nuclear plants. malaysia gov, you are considering to have one of these in malaysia? use your brain. such countries are not as lucky as us. we have solar energy. hydro energy etc etc. they have NOTHING we had. nuclear power is their last resort. they had no choice. malaysia gov, why you so stubborn and put our lives in danger?

can't you just be grateful and happy with what we have? malaysia don't need such thing to generate power. nor we running out of power supply. whats more? right after japan nuclear disaster, malaysia stand up and says want to have nuclear plant. kau bodoh ke otak dah hilang?
depan mata kau ada contoh bencana berlaku. kau lagi mau terjun ke dalam lembah maut?? BODOH BETUL . KAU INGAT KAU BANGGA DENGAN KUASA NUKLEAR. KAU FIKIR LAGI.

anyway, we should be grateful as well cause japan has a new and latest method to cover the plants in case it explode. and thanks to their commitment and intelligence, we are save from photos above, for now at least. if they did not cover the plants with concrete and coem out with other solution to cold down the plants, i think, the date for above photos, should be 2011.

back in 1986, they had not much today's technologies and knowledges yet. plus, there aren't any BIG disaster before chernobyl. but after chernobyl disaster, others countries, not only japan, are aware of the destruction power. therefore, come up with high safety precaution. kudos to japanese.

we shouldn't forget the fact that, the ukraine people just left the town like that. not doing anything to save the radiation from spreading like wind. first, they had nothing to cover the plants. its like, open air. second, there is nothing they can do. oppose to today, japan nuclear plants are in the middle of sea, so the damaged is still... acceptable although in few months time, radiation definitely will reach further than japan. and they use tons tons tons tons of seawater to cold down the rode. else if its melt down, radiation will be release and travel with winds.

before i sign off, here are few photos showing WHAT IS THE AFFECT OF RADIOACTIVE TO HUMAN!

some happen few months later. some, 10 YEARS OR 20 YEARS LATER.

some that exposed to radiation too much or direct contact, they died instantly or few hours later. i guess if you studied chemistry before, you will know.


first, exposed yourself to radiation may cause thyroid cancer, skin cancer etc. if this happen to children, their future..... are....










TO ANIMALS






HUMAN




~Light Up The Darkness~

Monday, April 4, 2011

12.40am 4 April 2011

time is running out. yet cant stop myself from writing blog after seeing one of the blogger was so semangat write blog. hmm. back to tbr. 12.40am. meaning i got exactly 24 hours to study 4 more chapters. and... i cant understand shit about standard deviation. out of so many topics, it must be this one. im sure i skipped the lecture for this one cause my notes empty and so clean. hmm. sien..... emo time....

suddenly felt my life is so empty when listening to yiruma - looking back.
does this song means i am looking back to my past? that is why i cant go forward and felt my life is empty? as far as i concern, my past, i guess is just different from now. only i can see the difference. only i know the difference. because it was me that live in this life.

or the "looking back" means something else? look back to your past to see your mistakes. and learn from it. in order for you to proceed and gain success in life.

well its all nonsense now because it is COMMON SENSE. duuh.. come on dude. we always heard this phrase everywhere we go. a common advice from our friends or someone from our surrounding. but how many of us really take the words into account? how many of us really do it?

you name it. i really want to write. but... got annoyed by some guy opposite my room keep coughing since 2 weeks ago?? im not sure. hope he get well soon cause its really annoying especially at night. im sorry but i am mean. ok. its time to go. else. sigh. i memang no mood study. what to do. damn hot. but still have to shoo my ass to notes. good luck to me and everyone that gonna sit for their exams or resit. all the best guys.

signing off. hopefully tomorrow i wont stay online all the time cause tomorrow ius last day preparation before exam cause my paper was on tuesday morning 9am paper. i really dont wish to fail again. love you God.

~Light Up The Darkness~