my feelings ~

Sunday, January 27, 2008

last minutes decision trip to Genting

on Friday 25th January, we have classes as usual. morning class at 8am but dear late so she absent. so she went to blood test. now waiting the result. so during HE lecturer, somehow she told me that she is going to genting with her mom. then i just asking if i can follow. of course it can't be only both of us la. so surprisingly she asked belled to go too. and belle ask NG and NG ask Calvin to go. what a sudden and last minute decision to be made. but we did not decide on the spot la..



so after classes we went to genting. belle, NG, Calvin, dear and me. it is really surprising. but we did it to genting eventually =)

dear's mom fetching us... so reach there walk around play some games before dinner. we even tried rock climbing. then rest at room before going out to enjoy. that night was really sweet for both of us. we went motion master and bumper car. it is my most sweetest and memorable moment at genting. it was nearly 5years since i last visited genting. and it was my first time to spend the remarkable moment with the one that i loved the most. sadly my shoes broke down at genting before dinner so we went to buy my new shoes. not bad i like it.



after all we went back to room to chit chat and talks. By the time Calvin and NG went to sleep dy. so its only 3of us went to mamak for supper. there is when i felt over cold til i shaking. but yet i like extreme thing. so i drag dear to go out of the building. take note that it rained a bit before that. and the wind blow strongly. in other words, its just far too cold just like we fell into the sea of ice. we post a titanic style there and asked belle to take photo of us. honestly, i nearly have some sign of... over cold. i forgot what is that specific name. after freezing cold out there we went back to room and continue chatting. then belle went to sleep. its only me and dear. so i chat a lot to her. i told her 2stories and ask her to sleep. at 6am she have to leave to help her sister for a book fair at nilai. i can't sleep when she left. just can't sleep. so i tried to watch sunrise but i got fed up waited half an hour but can't see the sun. deng.

then only i know from our room can't see sun de. what on earth... then only left belle, NG, Calvin and me. they continue sleep til about 1022am and we check out. have stupid McD at genting. everything were twice the price at kl. gosh. it was my stupid idea to breakfast there.
after that we went down by cable car. then by bus til kl sentral. and i took putra with Calvin til wangsa maju and i took bus to my condo. it was a very nice and sweet trip although it was a last minute decision. perhaps there are more to come? who knows..

dear, i will not forget this date. 26 January 2008 aka Saturday. [yeah it passed 2am dy dear =) ]
this is the date we officially became couple. I'm very happy that you finally accepted me as a part of your life dear. you said if you kiss me on my lips is a sign you accepted me. and you did. i was quite surprise too. but at the same time, i glad to be with you =)

make you sad i will not. to make you happy that is what me for.

Friday, January 25, 2008

study group turn out to be chatting group

Deng... again wanna go library study but it ends up with chatting. we chatted a lot. about sex is the most funniest one. we talk about where to go during Chinese new year...



things plan too fast before it tend to happen. i afraid we might comes to some obstacles. hope it'll be OK la. we plan to "pai nin" at belle's house first then mine. then kk's house and then NG's house. then go seremban to Calvin's house then to Mei Ki's house. then to Malacca cha pei's house before going to belle's hometown at johor. maybe only la.



but its all plan right now. i was worrying more about our assignment. i wish to finish it asap. but....

i wanted to study. that is what i plan at first. but once i reached there, i can't concentrate study. i even didn't finished reading the newspaper. but i know arsenal lose to tottenham. yeah...



why i can't concentrate?? because... i like to observe my dear from close. yeah she late today for class then replace on second class. ha ha... every time when she come close to me, i will stare at her cheek and wanted to kiss her. but i didn't. i always ask her permission before doing anything on her. because i respect her. today don't know how, but somehow, she gave me the special 'gift' again. i was so shocked. i felt the warmness in her when she get close to me although we are in a very cold place. thanks dear for everything.



i know that you have develop your feelings to me day by day. in fact it increase daily. me too dear.. i also comes to realize your worries. you afraid i will not treat you the same way i treat you now, if we officially become couple right? yeah that is what every girls worry about. its normal dear.

i can't force you or say anything right now. but only time will proof my love to you dear. only time will show to you how much i love you.
it was my first time to take such video like that. it was sooooo sweet dear... thanks...
i can tell that, from the moment i decided to be with you, I've already developed my feelings toward you, to the level which equally to very high. and it maintain daily. without failed..

happy ma dear? or shall i put it in this way?

my feelings to you grow everyday just like the flowers at garden. they need water that you pour with your love. as plowers need fertilizers, you kept them look healthy by providing the optimum amount needed, from your kind heart. the warmness you had, prepare those flowers keep blossom even during winter. imagine. how sweet and memorable is it to watch flowers blossom during winter time with you in our own-made garden. we were sitting on a pair of chairs made from wonder woods from California, with your favourite white coffee originate from ipoh and my favourite cappuccino ice blended on a wooden table. we sat near the window facing our garden and it was a wonderful evening for us. holding hands, looking at the flowers blossom, at that moment, it recalled me of the same winter somewhere 30years ago. where it was when we confess to each other. it was when our love blossom just like how the flowers blossomed. even though we face many obstacles, just like how difficult those flowers struggling to survive during winter, we manage to overcome all these barriers between us and built up a warm family, as warm as we felt from the burning woods during winter. the snows fall... the sun set. and i look deep into your attractive brownish eyes saying "sweet heart, the eyes that I'm looking now is the same attractive brownish eyes that i stare at, 30years ago. lets go for dinner. our children is waiting for us."
and it is when you pull my hand and said "dear, thank you for all these years. i can never find this anywhere, whosoever. i know that the garden is actually represent your heart you built for me 30years ago. you told everyone how important am i and how heavy my duty is to keep these flowers blossom even during winter. but i came to realized that, it is impossible for me to do all these without you, keeping the garden from insects, thieves, wild animals, and natural disasters."
the tears flow from your eyes pool. which touch deep inside my heart. i hold your hand, and put it on my chest saying, "can you feel that my heart pour it's tears for you? my heart never stop beating, just like the love in us never end. because they beat for you."
"remember why our children always asked us the same question during this time? they are still far too young to understand this. in their eyes, its only an empty garden fills with wild grass. but in our eyes , it always glorious because the love we share all these years. i love you sweet heart. just like the way i do, 30years ago."
and you answered, "the moment i followed you back to this wooden house, it already represent i will follow you the rest of my life. mo matter where you go. the efforts i put to keep our garden alive shown how much i love you dear."

somehow later, we breath our last breath together, holding hand, sitting on our chairs looking at the beautiful skies. there was a shooting star named Lover that comes only once in three decades. i make a wish. that wish is to live with you forever. and it comes true, for once and all.
you told me you made a wish too.what is that wish sweet heart? you said,
"to be with you til my last breath. and it comes true too =)"

and there goes our souls. return to where we belongs.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

DPR1 TARC JANUARY 2008 INTAKE at ONE UTAMA

before 12pm i've reach wangsa maju station. steven kind of late 5minutes like that. but calvin reach even earlier than we do. after that we took train to kelana jaya station (last station, about 20stations from wangsa maju station). luckily got seat. then met NG and belle at masjid jamek station.
reached at kelana jaya station we took 2taxi to one utama. then all of us like lost in the mall. we decided to lunch first only sing k at neway. we all starving actually. its only steven, belle, calvin, NG and me. KK still at genting and joined us later.

finished, we went to Neway straight. sing sing sing and sing til voice out. very nice lo but still remain formal. i mean didn't jump on the couch la like last time... wakaka...
then before we finish sang kk finally come to joined us. she didn't sing but shout a lot. wakaka...

its so kind of you dear for offering me the sore throat sweet. thanks for that i can talk now. don't think i'll lost my voice tomorrow gua... then we went watch movies. darn it. continue cloverfield.

before going into cinema, kk and me went out to pass the vegetable to kk's cousin who also worked at one utame saloon. since the movie we watched half way already so we decided enter half way later. darn ticket cost rm11 on public holiday. gosh... we walked around one utama before going into cinema.
in the cinema i found out that dear is sooooooo cute and adorable. i felt that way all the time la but different place different situation la.. wakaka... so also different feeling lo.. haha...

about the movie, honestly, its sucks. admit it JJ Abrams. we do not know how the monster came from and what with the tiny things that comes out from its body. it seems like combination of spider(8legs) and ants (from the movie starship trooper). we don't know the functions of these creatures and it just came out from no where and attacked the city of new york. one thing for sure it doen's seems to like the statue of liberty. wakaka.... then it attacked human and the movie goes on. belle even felt dizzy because the camera move here and there. just like watching pirated dvd the cameraman keep on movng around. and it just end with rob express his love to his gf and so do her.
eventually i went to google to search about this movie. it said after the credit (those words coming up from the screen stated actors and directors like that) it was actually they dropped something into the sea and woke that monster up from sleep since long time ago... lame lame lame.... waste money watch it..

after watch hang around at bowling park and have some tea before going back. dear fetch all of us go back. i'm the last. it was me to drive to my condo before she go back herself. i so worry about her because have to go all the way to pj alone. hope she'll move to genting klang asap..
then she won't be so tired and have to go long way to get home...
well before i went back i get a special "gift" from her. can't say what is that special "gift" but it really shocked me as it not obvious and i don't expect it to be done like that lo.. i was stunned til stand there don't know what to do.

dear sweet heart, the moments we spent together might be many hours but i always felt it was soo fast that i don't want it to end. you feel the same way too right... yeah you told me that =P

study group at library by DPR1 january 2008 intake

well besides studying of course we also chat a lot la. then on sudden belle said my eyes attractive. said i ''shocked'' her and don't want to look at my eyes so that she won't fall in love with me wor.. my reaction was, "what the heck??"
i'm so blurr and shocked because never got people say my eyes attractive. then suddenly NG add on by saying my smile attractive too. again my reaction was "what on earth??" also never got people say my smile attractive. really meh?? i don't know o.. anyway thanks a lot you guys.

the study group so noisy.. kakaka... can't study le... so i can't finished tutorial work. but its ok i manage to finished it at home. luckily but its very hard too. thanks a lot guys...

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

22 JANUARY 2008

today is my 3rd sister birthday but forgotten to send her msg. darn she screw me. wakaka.. actually i remember but once end the call i forgot lo... haha..

then yesterday night chatted with dear sweet heart til 3am++ so happy le. its so sweet...
then the next day like zombie. gosh darn it. ceh... not first time la...

chat alot with dear lo.. until phone cut off few times because 40minutes dy, no credit and no battery... i don't know but they told me that normally phone will automatically cut off your call after 40minutes like that to avoid your phone from burst. haha...
we share alot of things and i asked lots of thing too... of course can't write here la. its private. i feel the feeling of first love again.. thanks God...

actually she was sleeping de, then i thought wanna miss call her for about 20times ma like the day before to shocked her. haha... then less than 8times she sent me message.. then she woke up and we chat and chat and chat lo... she was sooooooo cute le... her voice that just woke is.... waa... so cute lo.. then when she sneeze her 'wan tan mee' that time, yeah sounds like wat tat but... no comment...

its so sweet to observe her cute adorable look. it just melted my heart today (in english class lo)
she willing to didn't put any make up for me. she said one la.. so i see and, well i feel it is better that put make up lo. it lok more natural and still cute. in the class she touch my face few times le.. but don;t know what is that mean la. well if you judge her by her apperance then you totally wrong. she actually very sweet and caring. plus can be romantic too =)

but sadly she can't lunch with me cause have to go genting with her mom... tomorrow (23 january 2008 ) we are going to one utama for neway and movies afterward. dear will join us later. haihz.... so miss her now... luckily i can see genting from my condo. so can see her stars glowing on genting there lo... i nearly 5years didn't go genting dy lo.. maybe during sem break will go. or maybe to redang. wasai.... pokai lo like that... budget budget budget man.... wakaka....

sweet heart, it so sweet of you for the present.. thanks a lot dear... thank you..

Monday, January 21, 2008

IVY LEONG

i want to take this opportunity to thank the girl i mention her name above. yeah she helped me for this template and for the future too. she had taught me how to do it. yes i'm a noob!!!
thanks to her a lot thats why purposely thank her here as a token of appreciation. thanks ivy.

Friday, January 18, 2008

new year celebration at golden river

well i know that 2008 has already nearly 3weeks into it. but since i created blog today so write today lo.. well, really happy celebrating with the taekwondo family. yeah the tarc taekwondo club 'family'. and of course with my wife also la..
its like.. so enjoyable and crazy.

why so crazy? because i feel close with them! and i not always so close with people k... yeah right. play spray with each other the spray was belongs to me because they didn't bought it so i did.covey tak ingat main spray macam spray air kat bunga. wakaka!!!

then watch fireworks with beloved. well great memory. and i so boring when everyone shouting ''yeah!!''
i like something different so i shouted "ite!!" and "yameteh"
don't ask me what does it mean. and it ended with me getting spray from a bunch of guys happen to pass by. maybe they think i'm crazy. wakaka!!

then they went back together and bey tey with me take lrt. thats it for new year lo..

forgotten some point

yeah forgotten some point. although i'm very happy but my outfit sucks man..

Thursday, January 17, 2008

17 january 1989

yeah right it was 19years ago then.
but today is so different from all the previous year. let me tell you people out there my celebration of my 19years on earth start from when i still studying in form5(2006,17years)

when i still at smk bandar baru seri petaling studying for spm, i had my birthday. not in a pretty way you see. few days before my birthday (can't really remember which date) i had fever. i think la. then few days later only back to school. then my gf, back then, wanted ME to take MY present from HER dad's car. "what the heck? " is whawt some of you guys think right? well not to say bully girls but we guys expect girl to bring to present to you by themselves right? yeah right.
she gave me a big purple + pink love shape with the word "be mine"
you know what is my first impression? oh gosh so 'hao' !! macam la aku sudah hutang sama dia 10ribu tahun. mesti jadi dia punya ka?!! after we broke the love shape 'disappear' from my room immedietly.

one year later, 2007. 18years, chinese clled 'pok pok chui' .
finished spm liao then go work at hang tuah. wholesales. well the shop, AMX doesn't want guy worker but luckily he small boss said maybe they need guy's strength, when new stocks come.
i go to work just wear old school pants with sandals. wakaka!! well my appearance not important. is my commitment more than anything. plus my work mostly at store, aka store keeper. at first quite suffering. but after 3weeks i got used to 2store. yeah i handle 2store myself. my job is pretty easy, if used to it la. when customers want this products, just get it for them lo.. it required quick, smsart and mostly memory. i don't have much any of 3of them but i enjoy alot in my work and i develop those 3talents eventually.

so after work(6pm) my collegue went out to buy me a cake. i tell you what. its nice. i still keep the photo til today and the video as well. my supervisor called me 'toro'. you know him? main actor in the drama 'snow angel' aka 'xue tian zhi' i suppose if not misspelling.
then after work, friends who battle in the spm war with me, yee ying, hui ting, and chooi yee if not mistaken, and ying's bf too, back then la, fetch me and celebrate again. they bought me a new sport shoes and a cake. yeah! 2 cakes in one birthday!! very happy lo. i tell you what. although i don't like that shoes bu eventually when i joined tarc taekwondo i need it every training. haha... thanks guys!

2cakes per day. so happy. tell my sister and she said she received 5cakes on her birthday. darn it look down on my happiness pulak...

got angpau from mom as usual but eventually lost it. you know where i keep it? inside my pillow. at first my mom said no money but i forced her to give me. because traditional ma... must follow... hehe... then she gave to me at last. but around 20january like that lo. i don't mind. although it just rm10 but it means a lot to me. until the very second now i still wondering where did it lost. impossible i drop it because i keep it in my pillow!! damn roommate steal it. but believe me he won't do so. why? because he is richer than me and now he is doing his way to be the winner of project superstar 2008. he did it to the 24 finalist in kl. his name is tang kai wen. maybe will use english name as kevin. vote him guys if you like him. he is handsome and have good talents it singing as well as playing guitar except for one. he is damn porn minded. wakaka!! who said porn boy can't be superstar?! screw it k look at the westerners.

this year, 2008. year of rat. i know i'm 19 this year but believe me when i said i'm 18. why? check this out guys.

first i just wear simple to college. very simple. don't even wax my hairs. because i expect to go back home sleep after class. only one class ma til 11am. yeah calvin do ask me want to waste my birthday like that meh.. i said "aiya normal la"
out of sudden my birthday clash with michelle lee. yeah my new friend aka class and coursemate. and out of surprise the alien (yeah its you kk, called her like that because she acted strangely and her look doen't belong to earth. sorry i over exaggerate) ask we all go cheong k or at least watch movie. so i said "i watched all latest nice movies liao la. now only wait chinese new year see got what movies lo".
so in the bus, i don't know how, but somehow, God help me again. out of the sudden NG's friend have newspaper. i just borrow it because it want to see cartoon but alien saw the movie list. so she check it out lo. cloverfield. thats what we decided to watch. and i wanted to watch that too. so reach times square we bought tickets and went in lo. but one hour later, damn cinema got problem.
everything rewind. include the screen. it was upside down and everything were rewind. include the talking and subtitles. out of the sudden this is what happened, during CLIMAX!!
darn it. it last for about 20minutes and everyone like so annoyed. we enjoyed it by turning our hear upside down too... haha... at last the show ended like that and once the lights on i said "thanks be to God for this suprising gift"

so we got the refund lo. and went to low yat to buy calvin's cooling pad and steven's keyboard. after that when everyone wanted to go back, i recommended for a tea break since its still early. you know where is my favourite place. GASOLINE. celebrating memorable day at mourning place. the gasoline at golden river have haunted part ma. my favourite place. i find it, cute. hehe.. yeah i'm abnormal de. but i tell you what. i'm freaking phobia to horror movies now. can''t open my eyes for even 5minutes. then out of the sudden the alien and NG went out said wanna buy girls thing wor. well i don't suspect anything at first. tell you what. i feel it was just a normal hang out with friends more than my birthday, i don't feel it. maybe i was kinda in the exam mood. as many of my friends having exams. when they back, gasoline played happy birthday song and calvin walked in with a lychee spounce cake on his hand. darn he told me he went out to toilet de. well he said he wanted to go toilet but met the alien and NG outside struggling to fire the candle. guess what. one big candle with 8 small candle. you tell me what does it mean.
then alien put her mascara on me and make up me lo. deng... so ugly like snow man. i can't recognize myself. haha... took few photos. made a wish too! then finish already i go to central market to collect my present from my wife. yeah she already officially bought me a bag. tell you what. i like it a lot. and at central market i bring back football pillow. you know? small cute pillow with footballer name on it, just like a jersey one....

so i choose liverpool number 8 and 9. represent my year of born. also represent torres and gerrard. actually i wanted ac milan number 22 kaka, man utd number 7 ronaldo. but just for the sake of my year i born, i chose 8 and 9 lo...
another is bear bick lo. one big de. like a star war black character de. another is particularly smaller. look like a specky guy. suit me lo. haha.
then take all go back.
at home, as i expected earlier they will celebrate my birthday. because its so obvious when xiao fui asked me the day before what cake i like. i said tiramisu.
so after make a wish and blow the candle as usualy traditional, must use mouth to bite the candle out from the cake. and yeah you think easy? no if i said the candle is located to the deepest to the cake base. funny thing is the candle is longer than the cake deepest. and i did it myself. i mean i'm the one who put the candle to the deepest of the cake myself.
you know people will push your head right. so i do it in less than a second whereby people don't even prepare. so i win!!!! haha....
thats the end... and since then til now i keep on writing blog til now. because today is my first time create blog. thanks to my lil sister ivy leong. wakaka. until then, continue next time.

sesiapa di luar yang suday habis baca saya punya blog, terima kasih sepuluh kuasa lapan darab lima tambah tujuh kali kerana sudi baca falsampah saya. haha!! happy always guys..