again.. you left me... 26th November 2008, you left me
just a day after i brought back those group of white mice. i thought for sake of fun and wanna help them... but you left me. haih. melanie. i really miss you. and i will be. forget you not i will. remembering you i will. appreciating you forever i will.
regret i will for treating not good at you. and as time passed by, hung hung, qq, fen fen, all of you left me one by one. even my most beloved QQ. i sorry dear. hurt you not i will any longer.
not i left no one but briskie with me. sometime get fed up with him. du lan only know how to eat. rush to eat like hell. my fault cause always starve you. sorry... you are my only hope. although all my hamster, syrian type hamster (i forgotten her name, damn long never write blog) lost twice. i bought new one thought will replace her but both lost.
thats it. what is gone is gone. dead and gone. life has to go on. no turning back. loking back just to learn our mistake. not to look back forever. life is hard. who don't know. thanks God for giving me the feel of the real world. perhaps i not ready to face it. but its good that face it this early. if not will be too late to apologies. haha. rubbish.
following is one of my favourite phrase throughout this few weeks. don't know what does it has to do with me but i just love it.
ladies and gentlemen, enjoy it.
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
what is going on now?
did i di wrong? why people just can't accept me. my attitude. i just being myself. wrong? my friendster, blog, non of you all come here. do you have to hate me this much. when you need my help, seek me you did. when doesn't need one, just ignore as if i wasn't exist. even though when need my help, if i can't help, outta my limit, you hate me. this is frineds. friends. thanks a lot DPR1 january 2008 intake. i learn a lot from you. your faces when talking to me. i believe if i stop doing what i shouldn't, you won't even turn your face to me anymore.
they scold me disallowing what i am doing. but i keep on doing it because of you. because i love you. but this is wht i gt. thanks a lot. i learn it. those who can't help you, ignore them. if they can help, its call friends. perhaps i shoule disappear from you. everyone happy. no more this freak guy with you. anoying you.
getting less of you. getting hate from you. i feel like want to shout out loud. you used to be close with me. but now i just like an eyesore to you. sorry if i disturb you with my apperance.
my friends? which one you talking about? true or with masks? yeah i got a lot of frineds, with masks. true? can be count with your fingers dude. i wish, could leave here, and go to somewhere, where people do not know me, will not care me. let me be myself. be what i want. happy ever after. but if i were to go this place, i would like to go with dear. i don't know why, different things happened to both of us, but i feel the same as you did. and both of our destiny is same now. we used to be quarrelling. misunderstanding. hatred is here. there. everywhere. but...
now i need you most. i wish you could be here. i know i can't accompany you anymore. that is why i sent you the ultraman. so that you can be with him, when i am not with you. but one thing, i always with you, close to you, deep nto our heart. i wish, the world is wonderful as we dream.
dear, now i realize, how much they hurt me. the efforts i put in, worth nothing.
dear, sorry for all the past. i still love you, as before, seek me if you need me. causei'll ne waiting for you. when this all happened to me, the only person i want to turn to is you dear. would you be with me? more than a friend, is what i really need. i know. i know that you can't accept me now. nor anyone. i do know. but i still will waits. i hardly love back the one i left, you are one of very few. very few. not even more than one. perhaps, second. i do not know. it is almost impossible (99%) for me to love back the one i left. and the 1% is you. i do not know how long would i have to wait. but i will. because i love you. love you. love you.
regrets?? no use.
you are the one that made me fall in love.
you are the one that make me love you this deep.
you are, also, the one hurt me most.
you are, also, the one that made me protect myself from the word 'love'.
this is what you wrote. i know. i know. what else can i do other than being sorry. crying. kneeling down, apologies.
baby, i need you more than anyone. i wish, i could turn to you when i need you most. when i most down. i wish, you were next to me, when all this happen to me.
i miss your smile.
i miss your hand when holding me.
i miss you hug when i need your warmness.
i miss your face when i first woke up from sleep.
loving you again is my choice. and now you are so far from me. i did not know where to find you. how to find you. nor when can see you do i know. but i really love you dear. i am tired. tired. tired... this is very tiring me.
they scold me disallowing what i am doing. but i keep on doing it because of you. because i love you. but this is wht i gt. thanks a lot. i learn it. those who can't help you, ignore them. if they can help, its call friends. perhaps i shoule disappear from you. everyone happy. no more this freak guy with you. anoying you.
getting less of you. getting hate from you. i feel like want to shout out loud. you used to be close with me. but now i just like an eyesore to you. sorry if i disturb you with my apperance.
my friends? which one you talking about? true or with masks? yeah i got a lot of frineds, with masks. true? can be count with your fingers dude. i wish, could leave here, and go to somewhere, where people do not know me, will not care me. let me be myself. be what i want. happy ever after. but if i were to go this place, i would like to go with dear. i don't know why, different things happened to both of us, but i feel the same as you did. and both of our destiny is same now. we used to be quarrelling. misunderstanding. hatred is here. there. everywhere. but...
now i need you most. i wish you could be here. i know i can't accompany you anymore. that is why i sent you the ultraman. so that you can be with him, when i am not with you. but one thing, i always with you, close to you, deep nto our heart. i wish, the world is wonderful as we dream.
dear, now i realize, how much they hurt me. the efforts i put in, worth nothing.
dear, sorry for all the past. i still love you, as before, seek me if you need me. causei'll ne waiting for you. when this all happened to me, the only person i want to turn to is you dear. would you be with me? more than a friend, is what i really need. i know. i know that you can't accept me now. nor anyone. i do know. but i still will waits. i hardly love back the one i left, you are one of very few. very few. not even more than one. perhaps, second. i do not know. it is almost impossible (99%) for me to love back the one i left. and the 1% is you. i do not know how long would i have to wait. but i will. because i love you. love you. love you.
regrets?? no use.
you are the one that made me fall in love.
you are the one that make me love you this deep.
you are, also, the one hurt me most.
you are, also, the one that made me protect myself from the word 'love'.
this is what you wrote. i know. i know. what else can i do other than being sorry. crying. kneeling down, apologies.
baby, i need you more than anyone. i wish, i could turn to you when i need you most. when i most down. i wish, you were next to me, when all this happen to me.
i miss your smile.
i miss your hand when holding me.
i miss you hug when i need your warmness.
i miss your face when i first woke up from sleep.
loving you again is my choice. and now you are so far from me. i did not know where to find you. how to find you. nor when can see you do i know. but i really love you dear. i am tired. tired. tired... this is very tiring me.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
crazy crazy me
from 6 Oct 08 till 25 Oct 08. barely two weeks. with 7meals of kfc and one meal of mcd.
I'm gonna die soon.i promise myself to eat clean food start from month of November. but i am starving now
don't know how long i can hold my promise as i used to broke promise easily :(
well at least i stick to Maggie :P
haih don't know why just addicted to it. but i am happy to create such wholesome record of my self :)
haih again... i lost my phone. put inside bag, went for training, bag right in front of many people.... but still lost. haih. till now i still can't accept the fact i lost it. very sad. need it so much. its a part of my life le :(
my 3rd sis gong Singapore next week. therefore everyone no money. can't buy phone liao :(
so sad but couldn't do anything. tomorrow got test for e-publishing. but i am still here. few days ago i am so keen to write blog. but i am here now. but don't know why just not in the mood.
haih. miss my sister a lot. she going to Singapore. but don't know when coming back. eldest sister married liao eventually. another sister went manila...
don't know when.... don't know when.. i fell in love with her again. this time, real. i really regret what happened last time.
because of me, you hurt a lot. and lost trust in me - and love.
i know its all my fault. i know this is all because of me. I'm sorry baby. i know my apologies is nothing to you. my promise is no more value to you.
only you can accept my wrong. i really regret for my stupidity last time. baby, i am wrong... please accept my apologies... there is no one else can forgive me but you.
this time i won't let you go anymore. although you may hurt me, but i have decided. because i hurt you too much, even this is karma or something, i deserve it. i deserve to be punish. i deserve to be fine for not treating you right and appreciate you. baby... what can i do to gain trust in you, again?
but i know nothing. nothing can cure your heart liao. i know. but still, i will wait you right here. just for you. i know, you are true to me. that is why i understood that you are the right girl for me.
you made me realize what true love is.
you made me understood what loyal means.
you made me know what sacrifice it is.
thanks a lot baby. if i could have a chance, i would treat you with all my heart. as before.
frequently, i don't know weather to contact you or not. i afraid will disturb your mind. at the same time i want to care for you. but..... i afraid its too late......
baby..... i really hope one day, things will as before. the moment we spend at canten2 foyer. i really happy. even it make my tears drop... but it still worth it. i believe. i believe in you. that you will finally accept me. but no one knows when.
i don't know how long can i wait. but i will wait as long as i can breath. i know, my words wasn't powerful as yours... i always claimed to be a good writer... but now, my hand is all freeze that i don't know what to write. my mind is all blank thinking about you. i really don't know what should i do...
even i may have to wait a long time, i shall wait. because you are worth me waiting for. i miss you baby. lots of lots love from dear. thanks baby for everything. you taught me a lot of things. your care is what i dream for every night. hopefully, i can see you again.
love you baby.
take care.
I'm gonna die soon.i promise myself to eat clean food start from month of November. but i am starving now
don't know how long i can hold my promise as i used to broke promise easily :(
well at least i stick to Maggie :P
haih don't know why just addicted to it. but i am happy to create such wholesome record of my self :)
haih again... i lost my phone. put inside bag, went for training, bag right in front of many people.... but still lost. haih. till now i still can't accept the fact i lost it. very sad. need it so much. its a part of my life le :(
my 3rd sis gong Singapore next week. therefore everyone no money. can't buy phone liao :(
so sad but couldn't do anything. tomorrow got test for e-publishing. but i am still here. few days ago i am so keen to write blog. but i am here now. but don't know why just not in the mood.
haih. miss my sister a lot. she going to Singapore. but don't know when coming back. eldest sister married liao eventually. another sister went manila...
don't know when.... don't know when.. i fell in love with her again. this time, real. i really regret what happened last time.
because of me, you hurt a lot. and lost trust in me - and love.
i know its all my fault. i know this is all because of me. I'm sorry baby. i know my apologies is nothing to you. my promise is no more value to you.
only you can accept my wrong. i really regret for my stupidity last time. baby, i am wrong... please accept my apologies... there is no one else can forgive me but you.
this time i won't let you go anymore. although you may hurt me, but i have decided. because i hurt you too much, even this is karma or something, i deserve it. i deserve to be punish. i deserve to be fine for not treating you right and appreciate you. baby... what can i do to gain trust in you, again?
but i know nothing. nothing can cure your heart liao. i know. but still, i will wait you right here. just for you. i know, you are true to me. that is why i understood that you are the right girl for me.
you made me realize what true love is.
you made me understood what loyal means.
you made me know what sacrifice it is.
thanks a lot baby. if i could have a chance, i would treat you with all my heart. as before.
frequently, i don't know weather to contact you or not. i afraid will disturb your mind. at the same time i want to care for you. but..... i afraid its too late......
baby..... i really hope one day, things will as before. the moment we spend at canten2 foyer. i really happy. even it make my tears drop... but it still worth it. i believe. i believe in you. that you will finally accept me. but no one knows when.
i don't know how long can i wait. but i will wait as long as i can breath. i know, my words wasn't powerful as yours... i always claimed to be a good writer... but now, my hand is all freeze that i don't know what to write. my mind is all blank thinking about you. i really don't know what should i do...
even i may have to wait a long time, i shall wait. because you are worth me waiting for. i miss you baby. lots of lots love from dear. thanks baby for everything. you taught me a lot of things. your care is what i dream for every night. hopefully, i can see you again.
love you baby.
take care.
crazy me...
from 6 Oct 08 till 25 Oct 08. barely two weeks. with 7meals of kfc and one meal of mcd.
I'm gonna die soon.i promise myself to eat clean food start from month of November. but i am starving now
don't know how long i can hold my promise as i used to broke promise easily :(
well at least i stick to Maggie :P
haih don't know why just addicted to it. but i am happy to create such wholesome record of my self :)
haih again... i lost my phone. put inside bag, went for training, bag right in front of many people.... but still lost. haih. till now i still can't accept the fact i lost it. very sad. need it so much. its a part of my life le :(
my 3rd sis gong Singapore next week. therefore everyone no money. can't buy phone liao :(
so sad but couldn't do anything. tomorrow got test for e-publishing. but i am still here. few days ago i am so keen to write blog. but i am here now. but don't know why just not in the mood.
haih. miss my sister a lot. she going to Singapore. but don't know when coming back. eldest sister married liao eventually. another sister went manila...
don't know when.... don't know when.. i fell in love with her again. this time, real. i really regret what happened last time.
because of me, you hurt a lot. and lost trust in me - and love.
i know its all my fault. i know this is all because of me. I'm sorry baby. i know my apologies is nothing to you. my promise is no more value to you.
only you can accept my wrong. i really regret for my stupidity last time. baby, i am wrong... please accept my apologies... there is no one else can forgive me but you.
this time i won't let you go anymore. although you may hurt me, but i have decided. because i hurt you too much, even this is karma or something, i deserve it. i deserve to be punish. i deserve to be fine for not treating you right and appreciate you. baby... what can i do to gain trust in you, again?
but i know nothing. nothing can cure your heart liao. i know. but still, i will wait you right here. just for you. i know, you are true to me. that is why i understood that you are the right girl for me.
you made me realize what true love is.
you made me understood what loyal means.
you made me know what sacrifice it is.
thanks a lot baby. if i could have a chance, i would treat you with all my heart. as before.
frequently, i don't know weather to contact you or not. i afraid will disturb your mind. at the same time i want to care for you. but..... i afraid its too late......
baby..... i really hope one day, things will as before. the moment we spend at canten2 foyer. i really happy. even it make my tears drop... but it still worth it. i believe. i believe in you. that you will finally accept me. but no one knows when.
i don't know how long can i wait. but i will wait as long as i can breath. i know, my words wasn't powerful as yours... i always claimed to be a good writer... but now, my hand is all freeze that i don't know what to write. my mind is all blank thinking about you. i really don't know what should i do...
even i may have to wait a long time, i shall wait. because you are worth me waiting for. i miss you baby. lots of lots love from dear. thanks baby for everything. you taught me a lot of things. your care is what i dream for every night. hopefully, i can see you again.
love you baby.
take care.
I'm gonna die soon.i promise myself to eat clean food start from month of November. but i am starving now
don't know how long i can hold my promise as i used to broke promise easily :(
well at least i stick to Maggie :P
haih don't know why just addicted to it. but i am happy to create such wholesome record of my self :)
haih again... i lost my phone. put inside bag, went for training, bag right in front of many people.... but still lost. haih. till now i still can't accept the fact i lost it. very sad. need it so much. its a part of my life le :(
my 3rd sis gong Singapore next week. therefore everyone no money. can't buy phone liao :(
so sad but couldn't do anything. tomorrow got test for e-publishing. but i am still here. few days ago i am so keen to write blog. but i am here now. but don't know why just not in the mood.
haih. miss my sister a lot. she going to Singapore. but don't know when coming back. eldest sister married liao eventually. another sister went manila...
don't know when.... don't know when.. i fell in love with her again. this time, real. i really regret what happened last time.
because of me, you hurt a lot. and lost trust in me - and love.
i know its all my fault. i know this is all because of me. I'm sorry baby. i know my apologies is nothing to you. my promise is no more value to you.
only you can accept my wrong. i really regret for my stupidity last time. baby, i am wrong... please accept my apologies... there is no one else can forgive me but you.
this time i won't let you go anymore. although you may hurt me, but i have decided. because i hurt you too much, even this is karma or something, i deserve it. i deserve to be punish. i deserve to be fine for not treating you right and appreciate you. baby... what can i do to gain trust in you, again?
but i know nothing. nothing can cure your heart liao. i know. but still, i will wait you right here. just for you. i know, you are true to me. that is why i understood that you are the right girl for me.
you made me realize what true love is.
you made me understood what loyal means.
you made me know what sacrifice it is.
thanks a lot baby. if i could have a chance, i would treat you with all my heart. as before.
frequently, i don't know weather to contact you or not. i afraid will disturb your mind. at the same time i want to care for you. but..... i afraid its too late......
baby..... i really hope one day, things will as before. the moment we spend at canten2 foyer. i really happy. even it make my tears drop... but it still worth it. i believe. i believe in you. that you will finally accept me. but no one knows when.
i don't know how long can i wait. but i will wait as long as i can breath. i know, my words wasn't powerful as yours... i always claimed to be a good writer... but now, my hand is all freeze that i don't know what to write. my mind is all blank thinking about you. i really don't know what should i do...
even i may have to wait a long time, i shall wait. because you are worth me waiting for. i miss you baby. lots of lots love from dear. thanks baby for everything. you taught me a lot of things. your care is what i dream for every night. hopefully, i can see you again.
love you baby.
take care.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
the departure of Jay and Jolin
5 oct08. she left me. left me right front of my very own eyes. why you did that to her. i always think for you good. that is why i don't want you to be alone. because i know the feeling of lonely is terrible. because i had gone through it alone. because i love you so much i can't stand seeing my beloved suffer the same path that i've walked. but why you didn't appreciate the price that i paid for you? do you know ho much i've gone to get you both together?
your lost in my heart seems to give me a very big impact. i thought i succeed but i didn't. your existed in my life bring joy and happiness in my world although i know you are hard to control. and tend to neglect me even how good i treat you. but that doesn't stop me. because i love you so much.
why. why must this happen to me. why me?? your lost make me feel i am such a useless. i can't even take good care of you.i feel so disappointed with myself. and i have no guts to have you again. maybe some time in the future but definitely not now. until the day i wake up from this nightmare that you gave me.
i'm really sorry for causing our separation but please believe me i never meant so. i really want to be with you as long i can and before you exhale your last breath. why. why would you do this to me. i had totally lost my confident in having you again. but baby, i really hope to be with you again. i really miss you a lot. losing you is a big shock to me which i can't accept until now. i really miss you baby. please, give me the guts to meet you again. i may seems happy but i'm not. deep into my heart, i am crying everytime i think about you. i couldn't believe same thing happened to me, again. this time, both. the first time, i promise him that i will not, never, cause any separation in the future. but... i failed...
6 oct you left me. just because she left you, i really mad at you. i thought you were the one who caused her to left you, and me. i really hate you that time so much. but i never want you to left me also. one day after she left us. yes i am very angry about you because you didn't appreciate my serve and you betray her by imitating with other feminine. why. why you left me eventually. i really can't accept it. i told everyone its your fault. but soon after you left, i realize it was actually my fault.
my fault not treating you the best i could.
my fault for treating you the same as other.
my fault for not being understanding to you.
my fault for misunderstood you.
my fault for being too careless to you.
baby, darling, please forgive me. i really sorry for the lost of you both. believe me, i still sad about your death.
jay died
jolin struggling to survive
may you both rest in peace. sorry i didn't take good care of you. until i caused you both's death. may God bless you both. have a wonderful next life. and do remember help me take care of others babies too. hope to see you both soon.
yes. one is jay the other is jolin. i thought they both could live happily together til old. but i never know the rain comes during a heaty day. i really love you guys a lot. its my dream to have you guys. but sorry i could hold on to my promise. sorry. first you bit her to death right in front of my very own eyes. i can't believe you. i really hate you to the root that time. you even bit me when i wanted to punish you.
soon after your death, i realized that maybe you just want to lighten the burden of jolin that is why you don't want to see her suffering and make a very hard decision of bitting her. sorry i misunderstood you about that. thanks to jolin because after her death, she come into my mind and communicate with my heart through her souls. she told me its not your fault. you just trying to lighten her suffering because you love her too much that you don't want her to struggle anymore.
perhaps its my mistake that caused this. to be honest, the day before, one of you came out and ate dust. i don't know you really ate it or not. because i really don't know which one is you. but most of them believe that both of your death is caused by food poisoning. they said you both not use to the food i gave you. qq, fen fen, fui fui,hung hung may consume it as usual. perhaps their body stronger.
sorry i didn't alert enough. i also forgotten that cabbage is not consumable anymore. cause it keep too long in a fridge. i'm sorry. but sorry can't cure. hopefully i can meet you both some time in the future. sorry jay. sorry jolin. i don't mean to hurt you both. enjoy your next time. please forgive me.
your lost in my heart seems to give me a very big impact. i thought i succeed but i didn't. your existed in my life bring joy and happiness in my world although i know you are hard to control. and tend to neglect me even how good i treat you. but that doesn't stop me. because i love you so much.
why. why must this happen to me. why me?? your lost make me feel i am such a useless. i can't even take good care of you.i feel so disappointed with myself. and i have no guts to have you again. maybe some time in the future but definitely not now. until the day i wake up from this nightmare that you gave me.
i'm really sorry for causing our separation but please believe me i never meant so. i really want to be with you as long i can and before you exhale your last breath. why. why would you do this to me. i had totally lost my confident in having you again. but baby, i really hope to be with you again. i really miss you a lot. losing you is a big shock to me which i can't accept until now. i really miss you baby. please, give me the guts to meet you again. i may seems happy but i'm not. deep into my heart, i am crying everytime i think about you. i couldn't believe same thing happened to me, again. this time, both. the first time, i promise him that i will not, never, cause any separation in the future. but... i failed...
6 oct you left me. just because she left you, i really mad at you. i thought you were the one who caused her to left you, and me. i really hate you that time so much. but i never want you to left me also. one day after she left us. yes i am very angry about you because you didn't appreciate my serve and you betray her by imitating with other feminine. why. why you left me eventually. i really can't accept it. i told everyone its your fault. but soon after you left, i realize it was actually my fault.
my fault not treating you the best i could.
my fault for treating you the same as other.
my fault for not being understanding to you.
my fault for misunderstood you.
my fault for being too careless to you.
baby, darling, please forgive me. i really sorry for the lost of you both. believe me, i still sad about your death.
jay died
jolin struggling to survive
may you both rest in peace. sorry i didn't take good care of you. until i caused you both's death. may God bless you both. have a wonderful next life. and do remember help me take care of others babies too. hope to see you both soon.
yes. one is jay the other is jolin. i thought they both could live happily together til old. but i never know the rain comes during a heaty day. i really love you guys a lot. its my dream to have you guys. but sorry i could hold on to my promise. sorry. first you bit her to death right in front of my very own eyes. i can't believe you. i really hate you to the root that time. you even bit me when i wanted to punish you.
soon after your death, i realized that maybe you just want to lighten the burden of jolin that is why you don't want to see her suffering and make a very hard decision of bitting her. sorry i misunderstood you about that. thanks to jolin because after her death, she come into my mind and communicate with my heart through her souls. she told me its not your fault. you just trying to lighten her suffering because you love her too much that you don't want her to struggle anymore.
perhaps its my mistake that caused this. to be honest, the day before, one of you came out and ate dust. i don't know you really ate it or not. because i really don't know which one is you. but most of them believe that both of your death is caused by food poisoning. they said you both not use to the food i gave you. qq, fen fen, fui fui,hung hung may consume it as usual. perhaps their body stronger.
sorry i didn't alert enough. i also forgotten that cabbage is not consumable anymore. cause it keep too long in a fridge. i'm sorry. but sorry can't cure. hopefully i can meet you both some time in the future. sorry jay. sorry jolin. i don't mean to hurt you both. enjoy your next time. please forgive me.
Monday, June 23, 2008
back to blogging for today only
yesterday, 21st june 2008. exactly one month ago is the day we've been separate and go on with our own path. that is also means you had decided to leave me after all the misunderstood and problems that occur between us. i knew that leaving me is not what you wish to do. but choice weren't much to make. yet decision has to be made for both of our good. and i respect your decision because i love you and i don't want to hurt you anymore. all this while i have been treat you with all my soul and heart. because i have already found the girl that i really want to be with forever. but things didn't turn the way we wanted to. and matters are jealous with our strong love bond we had create. therefore it tend to ruins our relationship. blame no one but i know its my fault that caused this all. i know i shouldn't even think about it. but i already thought about it. this is what i regretted but its too late to apologies. yes you are right. mummy was right too. not many people understand the meaning of emotional infidelity. its not the action, but the thought that counts. why i didn't think about all this? am i too simple minded guy?? if i were, sorry for not being the perfect man you wanted to. i wish i could but my past had created what am i today. perhaps I'm too dumb for all that. i wish one day i will be.
since the day you left me, people seeing you as in you had change dramatically. no you are not i knew it. you just being yourself. want you want to do all this while. perhaps all this while when i with you, you don't feel right to do it because don't want to hurt me. thanks baby. and i;m deeply apologies if my appearance in your life had create a barrier between you and yourself. people tend to misunderstood you and I've tried to explain but nothing much seems work. enough is enough. they couldn't understand you like i do in this way.
what had past is past. English saying... yesterday was history. tomorrow was mystery. today is gift. enjoy it and appreciate every single thing He gave you and do not regret with what you do. therefore think before you do. but why i don't even fulfill any requirement above??? i always didn't think before i do. i blame myself for not treating you right. for not appreciate you enough. why am i so foolish letting go the girl that i love the most. the girl that gave me everything i need. the girl that gave me all she have. why. why. there is nothing i should say anymore.
i wish i could turn back time to correct my mistake. just that error ruins our relationship. I'm truly sorry baby. as you are the best girl in my life. and I'm so proud to call you my girl. why i keep repeating the same mistake over and over??? why i couldn't learn from mistake??? why only when i had lost you only know how to appreciate you?? why am i so dumb. can you just give me your hand over my face? i think i must wake up. perhaps i have been winning all the time. its time for me to learn what is the losing taste. learn from losing. losing is the key to success. but why am i always failed in my relationship?? i am very frustrated and disappointed in myself. how can i didn't appreciate you well enough. why i can make such idiotic decision. why.
i still and always remember what you told me. and you should know how i feel when you say those memorable magical words to me. forever and always. i seems to be ignoring you. but the fact is, I'm too afraid to see you. i couldn't stand seeing our heart so near yet so far. that is the hardest thing i could ever face. and i have to stand with it. every time i see you, i recall the moments we spend together as couple. being with you i can ask for no more. and its the best thing He would've gave me. every moment i spend with you is the moment i treasure. its not that i don't want to open my heart for others. is i couldn't forget you. everything i do, it seems you were with me. but i know you are not. how i wish, you were there for me every time i need you.
at genting we started. at genting we ended. how beautiful our love had been. how much obstacles we have gone through as a couple. and how much love we had express to each other. why my tears still forming? i don't know. perhaps, i still love you. its already one month. you are still exist in my heart. perhaps, it'll stay there for a long term. maybe forever? who knows. i am no one to care you. no one to speak. as there is much more others to care and speak to you. why. why you giving me this feeling. perhaps I'm too understand you?? hope I'm not. i hope one day you will come and tell the truth. even the truth is hurt. so that i will know the truth. what you have been thinking. but please. i don't want to.
my friends wouldn't want me to do anything for you. but its even hurt my heart. i saw the one that i love suffering. but i can't do much. she is wondering but i couldn't do much to answer her doubt. its not that i listen to my friends. they just do it for my good. and they were right. who am i to do all this thing. your friends should had done that earlier. they should be the one who cares for you. i am no one. no one. if you still love me, my care is care. my word is real. but if you doesn't love me, my cares is annoying. and my words, are rubbish. therefore, how i know what to do. i;m in dilemma. to do or not to do. perhaps i really have lots of thing to learn about you. that is why i couldn't figure out what you were thinking. no one can help me. no one there to advice me. I'm death.
I've learn t. sometimes, things needn't to mention or repeat. if you know it, you'll feel it. repeating it just will make one felt annoying. and the less those words been spoken, the more meaningful it will be. the meaning of love is not as simple as one can see, feel or even think it is. it has thousand of hidden meaning. some will find it wonderful. because they had found their true love. some may hate it because they found it terrible. and me. its true love. you thought what love means. what care is. and how important we meant to each other. friends tell me to go on with lives. its not the end of my life. but its the end of a beautiful love with a wonderful girl. how i wish i could have you once again. and i wouldn't let you go. wouldn't do anything that may harm you. and gonna treat you really right.
i do not want to go for others because i still have you in my heart. and i don't want to hurt others because i know they are just replacement of come one that can't be replace.indeed. in fact, i still have strong feel on you. but i have learn one thing. to love you for who you are. and to cope with your life style. i guess I'm getting it on me. i would not like to say it for many. but just for once and for all. i still miss you baby. and i still waiting. loving you is great experience. having you is the best gift. being with you is what He have me. now and always i will be loving you.
first greatest thing in the world is for you to love someone. second is for that person to love you back. and how wonderful it is when the third greatest, is for the first and second happen at the same time. this is what we call faith.
there is a lot more for me to say. but no matter how long i write or how much i talk, nothing can be replace these words.i love you.
since the day you left me, people seeing you as in you had change dramatically. no you are not i knew it. you just being yourself. want you want to do all this while. perhaps all this while when i with you, you don't feel right to do it because don't want to hurt me. thanks baby. and i;m deeply apologies if my appearance in your life had create a barrier between you and yourself. people tend to misunderstood you and I've tried to explain but nothing much seems work. enough is enough. they couldn't understand you like i do in this way.
what had past is past. English saying... yesterday was history. tomorrow was mystery. today is gift. enjoy it and appreciate every single thing He gave you and do not regret with what you do. therefore think before you do. but why i don't even fulfill any requirement above??? i always didn't think before i do. i blame myself for not treating you right. for not appreciate you enough. why am i so foolish letting go the girl that i love the most. the girl that gave me everything i need. the girl that gave me all she have. why. why. there is nothing i should say anymore.
i wish i could turn back time to correct my mistake. just that error ruins our relationship. I'm truly sorry baby. as you are the best girl in my life. and I'm so proud to call you my girl. why i keep repeating the same mistake over and over??? why i couldn't learn from mistake??? why only when i had lost you only know how to appreciate you?? why am i so dumb. can you just give me your hand over my face? i think i must wake up. perhaps i have been winning all the time. its time for me to learn what is the losing taste. learn from losing. losing is the key to success. but why am i always failed in my relationship?? i am very frustrated and disappointed in myself. how can i didn't appreciate you well enough. why i can make such idiotic decision. why.
i still and always remember what you told me. and you should know how i feel when you say those memorable magical words to me. forever and always. i seems to be ignoring you. but the fact is, I'm too afraid to see you. i couldn't stand seeing our heart so near yet so far. that is the hardest thing i could ever face. and i have to stand with it. every time i see you, i recall the moments we spend together as couple. being with you i can ask for no more. and its the best thing He would've gave me. every moment i spend with you is the moment i treasure. its not that i don't want to open my heart for others. is i couldn't forget you. everything i do, it seems you were with me. but i know you are not. how i wish, you were there for me every time i need you.
at genting we started. at genting we ended. how beautiful our love had been. how much obstacles we have gone through as a couple. and how much love we had express to each other. why my tears still forming? i don't know. perhaps, i still love you. its already one month. you are still exist in my heart. perhaps, it'll stay there for a long term. maybe forever? who knows. i am no one to care you. no one to speak. as there is much more others to care and speak to you. why. why you giving me this feeling. perhaps I'm too understand you?? hope I'm not. i hope one day you will come and tell the truth. even the truth is hurt. so that i will know the truth. what you have been thinking. but please. i don't want to.
my friends wouldn't want me to do anything for you. but its even hurt my heart. i saw the one that i love suffering. but i can't do much. she is wondering but i couldn't do much to answer her doubt. its not that i listen to my friends. they just do it for my good. and they were right. who am i to do all this thing. your friends should had done that earlier. they should be the one who cares for you. i am no one. no one. if you still love me, my care is care. my word is real. but if you doesn't love me, my cares is annoying. and my words, are rubbish. therefore, how i know what to do. i;m in dilemma. to do or not to do. perhaps i really have lots of thing to learn about you. that is why i couldn't figure out what you were thinking. no one can help me. no one there to advice me. I'm death.
I've learn t. sometimes, things needn't to mention or repeat. if you know it, you'll feel it. repeating it just will make one felt annoying. and the less those words been spoken, the more meaningful it will be. the meaning of love is not as simple as one can see, feel or even think it is. it has thousand of hidden meaning. some will find it wonderful. because they had found their true love. some may hate it because they found it terrible. and me. its true love. you thought what love means. what care is. and how important we meant to each other. friends tell me to go on with lives. its not the end of my life. but its the end of a beautiful love with a wonderful girl. how i wish i could have you once again. and i wouldn't let you go. wouldn't do anything that may harm you. and gonna treat you really right.
i do not want to go for others because i still have you in my heart. and i don't want to hurt others because i know they are just replacement of come one that can't be replace.indeed. in fact, i still have strong feel on you. but i have learn one thing. to love you for who you are. and to cope with your life style. i guess I'm getting it on me. i would not like to say it for many. but just for once and for all. i still miss you baby. and i still waiting. loving you is great experience. having you is the best gift. being with you is what He have me. now and always i will be loving you.
first greatest thing in the world is for you to love someone. second is for that person to love you back. and how wonderful it is when the third greatest, is for the first and second happen at the same time. this is what we call faith.
there is a lot more for me to say. but no matter how long i write or how much i talk, nothing can be replace these words.i love you.
Monday, May 19, 2008
hi to all my blog viewer
hi to everyone whom read and visit my blog :) thanks for all of your support. but very sorry to tell you guys that i can't update my blog that recent anymore. due to shortage of time and unable to online that frequent, i face difficulties to update my blog. i would like to take this opportunity to apologies to all my viewer. but my blog still going on and whenever i have free time i'll try my best to write my blog :) thanks for all your supports :)
Sunday, March 16, 2008
MARCH 15 2008 i'm useless
today was Mabel's birthday. happy birthday to her!! well yesterday night we enjoy and play till very crazy lo. how crazy? private private >.<
well this is not the main reason i write blog. haih. very fan now.
why would you treat me like this? what did i do wrong? i may not that sensitive or smart. me very stupid. but i always trying my best to care for you. because i love you so much that i care you more than everyone. even myself. why would you listen to your best friend more than me? have you ever think of how i feel? i very disappointed with your act of believing her more than i do. what is the point I'm here? since she was with you therefore i don't need to be there for you.. you always listen to her instead of me. am i doing wrong saying like that? every time i want to talk this topic with you, you tend to argue me back and says she is right. she just want to care this and that. i understood that but i think she has gone too far into our relationship. this is our life. our love that we build together. i know friends are very important to you. i know that dear. i don't want she broke our love. ever since she step into this topic, my life being controlled by her. what is her right?
as a friend she can only advice. not control. i believe that she is controlling me. she won't feel it. why is she being more worried than i do? why you expect so much from me by seeing what she act? what the hell?? she act like that, then you say i don't care about you. i just try to think positively. and you don't even let me to hold you. have you think about my feeling? i know you treat me very good but in such situation i hope that you can see into my heart. what my mind thinking. she can only care bout why is she doing so much?
i feel so useless. whatever that i should do, she already doing it. what for i be there?? don't be so unfair to me please. you can do show your emotional. why when i show mine, you tend to shows yours too? can't you just be tolerate? i thought love is all about both of us? why can't i show my emo too?? i just want you to show your love and care to me. because i always saw you show that to your friends. although I'm a guy but sometimes i hope to feel loved to. i want we work hard together. i don't want become only me do all the work.
can you turn to me please? why must you turn to the other side instead of me? do you know its very hurt? i feel like there is no point i standing here while i have no use for you anymore. why? do you know i love you so much that i always hurt myself because i don't want you to hurt?
i am very stupid thats why i not always up to your expectation. but is that what you want from me? if you love someone you'll have to accept everything of the person is. i can do it. why can't you? why you want to feel sad and hurt when i did not do what you expect? as i said I'm very stupid therefore i may not do like what you expect. maybe sometime after i may ab;e to do what you want. but I'm very stupid that my brain turn slow. its not that i not worried. i just telling myself that nothing bad gonna happen. i just want to think positively.
but why when she act over about it, you disappointed with me for not doing what she did? do i have to follow her?? shouldn't i just be myself?
baby, i always wait for you no matter what. you tell me that you will change. you always argue with me but at last i always calm down because i don't want argue. because i know if i do not calm down, its going to be very bad. i don't want that to happen. please think about me before you turn to her. I'm useless.
if you think you scare to hurt me then you want to break with me then you are wrong. because i want to be with you. so do you, i believe. therefore, instead of thinking like that, why don't you come over and we have discussion? if you neglect to discuss with me, there is nothing i can do. I'm sorry for what had happened. i hope you can show me your love and care too. when i hurt or angry i tend to express my anger by punching door. you want me to promise you not to punch door. what can i do when i angry or hurt then? have you ever think if you want me to promise you i won't punch door anymore, you have to tell yourself that you won't hurt me? take note that i hurt not because you going out with other guys. that is your life of course i happy if you do what you want. i hurt because you tend to care other more and made me feel I'm neglected. I'm useless.
well this is not the main reason i write blog. haih. very fan now.
why would you treat me like this? what did i do wrong? i may not that sensitive or smart. me very stupid. but i always trying my best to care for you. because i love you so much that i care you more than everyone. even myself. why would you listen to your best friend more than me? have you ever think of how i feel? i very disappointed with your act of believing her more than i do. what is the point I'm here? since she was with you therefore i don't need to be there for you.. you always listen to her instead of me. am i doing wrong saying like that? every time i want to talk this topic with you, you tend to argue me back and says she is right. she just want to care this and that. i understood that but i think she has gone too far into our relationship. this is our life. our love that we build together. i know friends are very important to you. i know that dear. i don't want she broke our love. ever since she step into this topic, my life being controlled by her. what is her right?
as a friend she can only advice. not control. i believe that she is controlling me. she won't feel it. why is she being more worried than i do? why you expect so much from me by seeing what she act? what the hell?? she act like that, then you say i don't care about you. i just try to think positively. and you don't even let me to hold you. have you think about my feeling? i know you treat me very good but in such situation i hope that you can see into my heart. what my mind thinking. she can only care bout why is she doing so much?
i feel so useless. whatever that i should do, she already doing it. what for i be there?? don't be so unfair to me please. you can do show your emotional. why when i show mine, you tend to shows yours too? can't you just be tolerate? i thought love is all about both of us? why can't i show my emo too?? i just want you to show your love and care to me. because i always saw you show that to your friends. although I'm a guy but sometimes i hope to feel loved to. i want we work hard together. i don't want become only me do all the work.
can you turn to me please? why must you turn to the other side instead of me? do you know its very hurt? i feel like there is no point i standing here while i have no use for you anymore. why? do you know i love you so much that i always hurt myself because i don't want you to hurt?
i am very stupid thats why i not always up to your expectation. but is that what you want from me? if you love someone you'll have to accept everything of the person is. i can do it. why can't you? why you want to feel sad and hurt when i did not do what you expect? as i said I'm very stupid therefore i may not do like what you expect. maybe sometime after i may ab;e to do what you want. but I'm very stupid that my brain turn slow. its not that i not worried. i just telling myself that nothing bad gonna happen. i just want to think positively.
but why when she act over about it, you disappointed with me for not doing what she did? do i have to follow her?? shouldn't i just be myself?
baby, i always wait for you no matter what. you tell me that you will change. you always argue with me but at last i always calm down because i don't want argue. because i know if i do not calm down, its going to be very bad. i don't want that to happen. please think about me before you turn to her. I'm useless.
if you think you scare to hurt me then you want to break with me then you are wrong. because i want to be with you. so do you, i believe. therefore, instead of thinking like that, why don't you come over and we have discussion? if you neglect to discuss with me, there is nothing i can do. I'm sorry for what had happened. i hope you can show me your love and care too. when i hurt or angry i tend to express my anger by punching door. you want me to promise you not to punch door. what can i do when i angry or hurt then? have you ever think if you want me to promise you i won't punch door anymore, you have to tell yourself that you won't hurt me? take note that i hurt not because you going out with other guys. that is your life of course i happy if you do what you want. i hurt because you tend to care other more and made me feel I'm neglected. I'm useless.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
ACF at times square!! =)
yeah 23rd and 24th February 2008 i involve in Anime Comic Fair at Times Square 6th floor =)
me helping baby's sister, Krystle to set my eyes on her booth and to promote her comic as well =)
guess what i got a free the comic "Wolf Brothers" with signature!! ha ha... no joke this book is interesting and funny also =)
if anyone wanted to purchase this book you can tell me ooo =) the original price is RM6.20 but if you really interest i can get discount for you RM6 how about it?
ha ha... feel free to ask me anything about this story as i read this book liao lu =)
although it was tiring but i have fun and great experience =)
and on 24th it was a sweet and memorable day for us =)
why? check this out =)
as you can see from this photo. it tell a tales where it represent thousand years curse. a princess finally found her prince who transform from an ugly toad into this prince. he was cursed by his god mother whom jealous of the princess beautifulness. she refuse to allow him have any contact with her so she cursed him into ugly toad. but there is one day where both of the princess and prince's heart connect to each other.
the princess kissed the prince and he transform back into human shape. and there is when the prince propose to the princess as a symbol to his love towards the princess. forever love.
wanna know what is the princess answer? she nodded to his proposal =)
well thanks what i did =)
luckily i make friend with the DJ Yoro then he allow me to use the microphone ha ha!!
that all wakaka!!!
not to forget this is our sweet and memorable video =)
guys you are recommended to you ear phone or head phone because sound quality not very good can't hear properly :)
thanks a lot and please accept my apologies for the poor quality of sound =)
me helping baby's sister, Krystle to set my eyes on her booth and to promote her comic as well =)
guess what i got a free the comic "Wolf Brothers" with signature!! ha ha... no joke this book is interesting and funny also =)
if anyone wanted to purchase this book you can tell me ooo =) the original price is RM6.20 but if you really interest i can get discount for you RM6 how about it?
ha ha... feel free to ask me anything about this story as i read this book liao lu =)
although it was tiring but i have fun and great experience =)
and on 24th it was a sweet and memorable day for us =)
why? check this out =)
as you can see from this photo. it tell a tales where it represent thousand years curse. a princess finally found her prince who transform from an ugly toad into this prince. he was cursed by his god mother whom jealous of the princess beautifulness. she refuse to allow him have any contact with her so she cursed him into ugly toad. but there is one day where both of the princess and prince's heart connect to each other.
the princess kissed the prince and he transform back into human shape. and there is when the prince propose to the princess as a symbol to his love towards the princess. forever love.
wanna know what is the princess answer? she nodded to his proposal =)
well thanks what i did =)
luckily i make friend with the DJ Yoro then he allow me to use the microphone ha ha!!
that all wakaka!!!
not to forget this is our sweet and memorable video =)
guys you are recommended to you ear phone or head phone because sound quality not very good can't hear properly :)
thanks a lot and please accept my apologies for the poor quality of sound =)
Sunday, February 17, 2008
14th FEBRUARY 2008
although its valentine's day but still have to go school but luckily only one class. Deng.. such a nice day have to meet the Indian.. deng... i wore the check purple shirt as belle asked me to.. so baby also wear white formal shirt with purple jacket outside. she's very pretty =)
but she late to class so she went to second class >.< so i waited her while chatting with race, casey and jia kei at canteen2. actually wanted to go back bath and wash hair de.. but chat till time passed very fast. only when i realize its too late to go back bath, i just decided to go on with them. my hair don't look nice thats why i wanted to go home bath lo >.< but at last did not success because i talked too much =P
then just go to V block wait them lo... but always baby come out last de la.. hehe... cause she talk but didn't do much work =P
then we together go canteen2 hang for awhile =)
baby's mummy bought a love shape cheese cake for us. oh gosh so nice the cake =)
then baby bought me a red colorful with mouse boxer. gosh so paiseh. thanks to belle mei ki and NG >.< why you guys always like to zou me de -_-"
also bought me a white shirt some kind of jacket like that =)
wore it the next day so nice o.. thanks a lot baby love you =)
then after eat the cake. left some for NG... then don't know how but somehow belle challenge me saying that i don't dare to kiss her in front of many people. actually that time canteen not full with students but got few groups la.. then i just stand up and really wanted to kiss her. actually i dare one but just have to respect her so i didn't lo... then they want us to kiss for 2minutes none stop >.<
quite stress cause.. if just kiss can la but kiss for 2minutes really quite challenging lo.. but at last we did la =) so sweet =)
then after finish all we plan for movie at times square. meet the spartans. but after mei ki knows that I'll follow baby's parents dinner she don't want follow cause scare go back alone. so she don't want go and penny also don't go liao lo.. only me baby and belle. took bus go..
reach sungei wang i go wash hair and restyle it cause need to meet parents-in-law =P
must dress nice and smart hehe =)
rm15 for the hair washing
then after finish meet them at times square. actually only got 2free tickets for me and baby de. got the free tickets from snj lo.. i bought flower bear there ma... then they give me free tickets. it was Wednesday then. we watch kung fu dunk on Wednesday, a day before valentine. then since we bought tickets liao so i exchange the free tickets for valentine's day lo...
then when my hair being wash they want to times square to buy ticket for belle lo.. luckily got ticket but in front of us la.. then before movie baby asked me to bring belle into cinema cause she wanted to buy flower for belle. surprise la. enjoy the movie alot.. although watched liao but watch for the second time i still laugh out loud =P
finish the movie i pakat with belle pretend like go do something else but actually is go collect flowers from the shop. i bought those flowers and bears a day before valentine =)
although i act like don't know what is valentine but actually I've plan this long time ago for her =) muax baby!! =)
while i go collect flowers and bear from shop, belle bring baby to 3rd floor in front of cinema there got a empty space there. normally got grocery there de but thanks God that day it was so empty =)
so baby was already suspect something but once she turn behind i approaching her and gave her the bears =) a single tear dropped from her eye and i wiped it =)
then tell her that 3greatest thing in this world. first is for you to love someone. second is for the person to love you back. third is for the first and second happen at the same time =)
then gave her a bouquet of flowers =) and tell her, there are only 2time that i wanted to love you. NOW, and FOREVER.
then she hugged me so sweet ooo... love you so much baby =)
continue, i ask her to stand right in the middle of the circle (yeah the floor got one big circle de =P )
then i asked baby to close her eyes and then i took out the ring, kneel down in front my her and propose to her =)
i guess she drop her tears again then she nodded means agree and i wear the ring to her finger. lots of lots of people watching us =)
that is what i want because i want to show her how serious am i and how much i love you baby.
we very happy at that time and belle be our witness. only one thing left is baby and belle's hp both no battery so failed to take video of that memorable moment. but it'll remain in our mind forever.
then we took monorail to kl sentral then mumsie fetch us to restaurant where we have dinner. the dinner goes very smooth and i chatted with mumsie and daddie too =)
then mumsie sent me home. thanks a lot for the dinner and ride. most importantly is to let kk couple with me =)
thanks a lot mumsie daddie =)
what can i say other than happy? i love you baby =) muax.. love you forever =)
you know that once i said this, it mean that i really deep into you baby.. i accept you the way you are. to me, you are so sweet and adorable. every time i saw you, you made me fall in love with you again and again. i love you my dear sweet heart kk baby. miss you so much. having you i have nothing else to ask for. being with you is the best gift God gave to me. i hope the time will stop when i spending time with you. if God can grant me with a wish, I'll tell God i want to be with you happily forever.
but she late to class so she went to second class >.< so i waited her while chatting with race, casey and jia kei at canteen2. actually wanted to go back bath and wash hair de.. but chat till time passed very fast. only when i realize its too late to go back bath, i just decided to go on with them. my hair don't look nice thats why i wanted to go home bath lo >.< but at last did not success because i talked too much =P
then just go to V block wait them lo... but always baby come out last de la.. hehe... cause she talk but didn't do much work =P
then we together go canteen2 hang for awhile =)
baby's mummy bought a love shape cheese cake for us. oh gosh so nice the cake =)
then baby bought me a red colorful with mouse boxer. gosh so paiseh. thanks to belle mei ki and NG >.< why you guys always like to zou me de -_-"
also bought me a white shirt some kind of jacket like that =)
wore it the next day so nice o.. thanks a lot baby love you =)
then after eat the cake. left some for NG... then don't know how but somehow belle challenge me saying that i don't dare to kiss her in front of many people. actually that time canteen not full with students but got few groups la.. then i just stand up and really wanted to kiss her. actually i dare one but just have to respect her so i didn't lo... then they want us to kiss for 2minutes none stop >.<
quite stress cause.. if just kiss can la but kiss for 2minutes really quite challenging lo.. but at last we did la =) so sweet =)
then after finish all we plan for movie at times square. meet the spartans. but after mei ki knows that I'll follow baby's parents dinner she don't want follow cause scare go back alone. so she don't want go and penny also don't go liao lo.. only me baby and belle. took bus go..
reach sungei wang i go wash hair and restyle it cause need to meet parents-in-law =P
must dress nice and smart hehe =)
rm15 for the hair washing
then after finish meet them at times square. actually only got 2free tickets for me and baby de. got the free tickets from snj lo.. i bought flower bear there ma... then they give me free tickets. it was Wednesday then. we watch kung fu dunk on Wednesday, a day before valentine. then since we bought tickets liao so i exchange the free tickets for valentine's day lo...
then when my hair being wash they want to times square to buy ticket for belle lo.. luckily got ticket but in front of us la.. then before movie baby asked me to bring belle into cinema cause she wanted to buy flower for belle. surprise la. enjoy the movie alot.. although watched liao but watch for the second time i still laugh out loud =P
finish the movie i pakat with belle pretend like go do something else but actually is go collect flowers from the shop. i bought those flowers and bears a day before valentine =)
although i act like don't know what is valentine but actually I've plan this long time ago for her =) muax baby!! =)
while i go collect flowers and bear from shop, belle bring baby to 3rd floor in front of cinema there got a empty space there. normally got grocery there de but thanks God that day it was so empty =)
so baby was already suspect something but once she turn behind i approaching her and gave her the bears =) a single tear dropped from her eye and i wiped it =)
then tell her that 3greatest thing in this world. first is for you to love someone. second is for the person to love you back. third is for the first and second happen at the same time =)
then gave her a bouquet of flowers =) and tell her, there are only 2time that i wanted to love you. NOW, and FOREVER.
then she hugged me so sweet ooo... love you so much baby =)
continue, i ask her to stand right in the middle of the circle (yeah the floor got one big circle de =P )
then i asked baby to close her eyes and then i took out the ring, kneel down in front my her and propose to her =)
i guess she drop her tears again then she nodded means agree and i wear the ring to her finger. lots of lots of people watching us =)
that is what i want because i want to show her how serious am i and how much i love you baby.
we very happy at that time and belle be our witness. only one thing left is baby and belle's hp both no battery so failed to take video of that memorable moment. but it'll remain in our mind forever.
then we took monorail to kl sentral then mumsie fetch us to restaurant where we have dinner. the dinner goes very smooth and i chatted with mumsie and daddie too =)
then mumsie sent me home. thanks a lot for the dinner and ride. most importantly is to let kk couple with me =)
thanks a lot mumsie daddie =)
what can i say other than happy? i love you baby =) muax.. love you forever =)
you know that once i said this, it mean that i really deep into you baby.. i accept you the way you are. to me, you are so sweet and adorable. every time i saw you, you made me fall in love with you again and again. i love you my dear sweet heart kk baby. miss you so much. having you i have nothing else to ask for. being with you is the best gift God gave to me. i hope the time will stop when i spending time with you. if God can grant me with a wish, I'll tell God i want to be with you happily forever.
Friday, February 15, 2008
trip to port dickson
went to PD from monday 11february to tuesday 12february. earlier plan suppose got 5people go de. but in the middle this not free that not free so it end up only mabel, kk and me went there lo.. went puduraya search for tickets but no ticket >.< la =")
once reach there pack chat have fun then go to beach play for awhile then back home bath and go for dinner. sadly no car so we walk about 10km back and fourth searching for carlsberg >.<
finally can't find so went back room and play chor dai di til 3am like that. plan want go down beach lie there and see stars but because too late dy those stars maybe too shy and hide themselves from us >.<
after that mabel sleep in the room then we sleep at dining room >.<>.<
and the fan can only adjust off or on. and only level5 available >.<
then after mabel woke up she blanket us i was so shocked once woke up got blanket on me de >.<
after woke up bath and go sea swim lu =)
those sands so damn hot like grill our feets. then went back room bath and rest plus brunch. then pack thing, check out and call taxi man fetch us go bus stop. we ate kfc for lunch then take bus go seremban then only change bus go back kl.
reach kl shopping at guardian and watson then go back home lo... so very tiring. next time plan go penang!! haha!!
once reach there pack chat have fun then go to beach play for awhile then back home bath and go for dinner. sadly no car so we walk about 10km back and fourth searching for carlsberg >.<
finally can't find so went back room and play chor dai di til 3am like that. plan want go down beach lie there and see stars but because too late dy those stars maybe too shy and hide themselves from us >.<
after that mabel sleep in the room then we sleep at dining room >.<>.<
and the fan can only adjust off or on. and only level5 available >.<
then after mabel woke up she blanket us i was so shocked once woke up got blanket on me de >.<
after woke up bath and go sea swim lu =)
those sands so damn hot like grill our feets. then went back room bath and rest plus brunch. then pack thing, check out and call taxi man fetch us go bus stop. we ate kfc for lunch then take bus go seremban then only change bus go back kl.
reach kl shopping at guardian and watson then go back home lo... so very tiring. next time plan go penang!! haha!!
Sunday, January 27, 2008
last minutes decision trip to Genting
on Friday 25th January, we have classes as usual. morning class at 8am but dear late so she absent. so she went to blood test. now waiting the result. so during HE lecturer, somehow she told me that she is going to genting with her mom. then i just asking if i can follow. of course it can't be only both of us la. so surprisingly she asked belled to go too. and belle ask NG and NG ask Calvin to go. what a sudden and last minute decision to be made. but we did not decide on the spot la..
so after classes we went to genting. belle, NG, Calvin, dear and me. it is really surprising. but we did it to genting eventually =)
dear's mom fetching us... so reach there walk around play some games before dinner. we even tried rock climbing. then rest at room before going out to enjoy. that night was really sweet for both of us. we went motion master and bumper car. it is my most sweetest and memorable moment at genting. it was nearly 5years since i last visited genting. and it was my first time to spend the remarkable moment with the one that i loved the most. sadly my shoes broke down at genting before dinner so we went to buy my new shoes. not bad i like it.
after all we went back to room to chit chat and talks. By the time Calvin and NG went to sleep dy. so its only 3of us went to mamak for supper. there is when i felt over cold til i shaking. but yet i like extreme thing. so i drag dear to go out of the building. take note that it rained a bit before that. and the wind blow strongly. in other words, its just far too cold just like we fell into the sea of ice. we post a titanic style there and asked belle to take photo of us. honestly, i nearly have some sign of... over cold. i forgot what is that specific name. after freezing cold out there we went back to room and continue chatting. then belle went to sleep. its only me and dear. so i chat a lot to her. i told her 2stories and ask her to sleep. at 6am she have to leave to help her sister for a book fair at nilai. i can't sleep when she left. just can't sleep. so i tried to watch sunrise but i got fed up waited half an hour but can't see the sun. deng.
then only i know from our room can't see sun de. what on earth... then only left belle, NG, Calvin and me. they continue sleep til about 1022am and we check out. have stupid McD at genting. everything were twice the price at kl. gosh. it was my stupid idea to breakfast there.
after that we went down by cable car. then by bus til kl sentral. and i took putra with Calvin til wangsa maju and i took bus to my condo. it was a very nice and sweet trip although it was a last minute decision. perhaps there are more to come? who knows..
dear, i will not forget this date. 26 January 2008 aka Saturday. [yeah it passed 2am dy dear =) ]
this is the date we officially became couple. I'm very happy that you finally accepted me as a part of your life dear. you said if you kiss me on my lips is a sign you accepted me. and you did. i was quite surprise too. but at the same time, i glad to be with you =)
make you sad i will not. to make you happy that is what me for.
so after classes we went to genting. belle, NG, Calvin, dear and me. it is really surprising. but we did it to genting eventually =)
dear's mom fetching us... so reach there walk around play some games before dinner. we even tried rock climbing. then rest at room before going out to enjoy. that night was really sweet for both of us. we went motion master and bumper car. it is my most sweetest and memorable moment at genting. it was nearly 5years since i last visited genting. and it was my first time to spend the remarkable moment with the one that i loved the most. sadly my shoes broke down at genting before dinner so we went to buy my new shoes. not bad i like it.
after all we went back to room to chit chat and talks. By the time Calvin and NG went to sleep dy. so its only 3of us went to mamak for supper. there is when i felt over cold til i shaking. but yet i like extreme thing. so i drag dear to go out of the building. take note that it rained a bit before that. and the wind blow strongly. in other words, its just far too cold just like we fell into the sea of ice. we post a titanic style there and asked belle to take photo of us. honestly, i nearly have some sign of... over cold. i forgot what is that specific name. after freezing cold out there we went back to room and continue chatting. then belle went to sleep. its only me and dear. so i chat a lot to her. i told her 2stories and ask her to sleep. at 6am she have to leave to help her sister for a book fair at nilai. i can't sleep when she left. just can't sleep. so i tried to watch sunrise but i got fed up waited half an hour but can't see the sun. deng.
then only i know from our room can't see sun de. what on earth... then only left belle, NG, Calvin and me. they continue sleep til about 1022am and we check out. have stupid McD at genting. everything were twice the price at kl. gosh. it was my stupid idea to breakfast there.
after that we went down by cable car. then by bus til kl sentral. and i took putra with Calvin til wangsa maju and i took bus to my condo. it was a very nice and sweet trip although it was a last minute decision. perhaps there are more to come? who knows..
dear, i will not forget this date. 26 January 2008 aka Saturday. [yeah it passed 2am dy dear =) ]
this is the date we officially became couple. I'm very happy that you finally accepted me as a part of your life dear. you said if you kiss me on my lips is a sign you accepted me. and you did. i was quite surprise too. but at the same time, i glad to be with you =)
make you sad i will not. to make you happy that is what me for.
Friday, January 25, 2008
study group turn out to be chatting group
Deng... again wanna go library study but it ends up with chatting. we chatted a lot. about sex is the most funniest one. we talk about where to go during Chinese new year...
things plan too fast before it tend to happen. i afraid we might comes to some obstacles. hope it'll be OK la. we plan to "pai nin" at belle's house first then mine. then kk's house and then NG's house. then go seremban to Calvin's house then to Mei Ki's house. then to Malacca cha pei's house before going to belle's hometown at johor. maybe only la.
but its all plan right now. i was worrying more about our assignment. i wish to finish it asap. but....
i wanted to study. that is what i plan at first. but once i reached there, i can't concentrate study. i even didn't finished reading the newspaper. but i know arsenal lose to tottenham. yeah...
why i can't concentrate?? because... i like to observe my dear from close. yeah she late today for class then replace on second class. ha ha... every time when she come close to me, i will stare at her cheek and wanted to kiss her. but i didn't. i always ask her permission before doing anything on her. because i respect her. today don't know how, but somehow, she gave me the special 'gift' again. i was so shocked. i felt the warmness in her when she get close to me although we are in a very cold place. thanks dear for everything.
i know that you have develop your feelings to me day by day. in fact it increase daily. me too dear.. i also comes to realize your worries. you afraid i will not treat you the same way i treat you now, if we officially become couple right? yeah that is what every girls worry about. its normal dear.
i can't force you or say anything right now. but only time will proof my love to you dear. only time will show to you how much i love you.
it was my first time to take such video like that. it was sooooo sweet dear... thanks...
i can tell that, from the moment i decided to be with you, I've already developed my feelings toward you, to the level which equally to very high. and it maintain daily. without failed..
happy ma dear? or shall i put it in this way?
my feelings to you grow everyday just like the flowers at garden. they need water that you pour with your love. as plowers need fertilizers, you kept them look healthy by providing the optimum amount needed, from your kind heart. the warmness you had, prepare those flowers keep blossom even during winter. imagine. how sweet and memorable is it to watch flowers blossom during winter time with you in our own-made garden. we were sitting on a pair of chairs made from wonder woods from California, with your favourite white coffee originate from ipoh and my favourite cappuccino ice blended on a wooden table. we sat near the window facing our garden and it was a wonderful evening for us. holding hands, looking at the flowers blossom, at that moment, it recalled me of the same winter somewhere 30years ago. where it was when we confess to each other. it was when our love blossom just like how the flowers blossomed. even though we face many obstacles, just like how difficult those flowers struggling to survive during winter, we manage to overcome all these barriers between us and built up a warm family, as warm as we felt from the burning woods during winter. the snows fall... the sun set. and i look deep into your attractive brownish eyes saying "sweet heart, the eyes that I'm looking now is the same attractive brownish eyes that i stare at, 30years ago. lets go for dinner. our children is waiting for us."
and it is when you pull my hand and said "dear, thank you for all these years. i can never find this anywhere, whosoever. i know that the garden is actually represent your heart you built for me 30years ago. you told everyone how important am i and how heavy my duty is to keep these flowers blossom even during winter. but i came to realized that, it is impossible for me to do all these without you, keeping the garden from insects, thieves, wild animals, and natural disasters."
the tears flow from your eyes pool. which touch deep inside my heart. i hold your hand, and put it on my chest saying, "can you feel that my heart pour it's tears for you? my heart never stop beating, just like the love in us never end. because they beat for you."
"remember why our children always asked us the same question during this time? they are still far too young to understand this. in their eyes, its only an empty garden fills with wild grass. but in our eyes , it always glorious because the love we share all these years. i love you sweet heart. just like the way i do, 30years ago."
and you answered, "the moment i followed you back to this wooden house, it already represent i will follow you the rest of my life. mo matter where you go. the efforts i put to keep our garden alive shown how much i love you dear."
somehow later, we breath our last breath together, holding hand, sitting on our chairs looking at the beautiful skies. there was a shooting star named Lover that comes only once in three decades. i make a wish. that wish is to live with you forever. and it comes true, for once and all.
you told me you made a wish too.what is that wish sweet heart? you said,
"to be with you til my last breath. and it comes true too =)"
and there goes our souls. return to where we belongs.
things plan too fast before it tend to happen. i afraid we might comes to some obstacles. hope it'll be OK la. we plan to "pai nin" at belle's house first then mine. then kk's house and then NG's house. then go seremban to Calvin's house then to Mei Ki's house. then to Malacca cha pei's house before going to belle's hometown at johor. maybe only la.
but its all plan right now. i was worrying more about our assignment. i wish to finish it asap. but....
i wanted to study. that is what i plan at first. but once i reached there, i can't concentrate study. i even didn't finished reading the newspaper. but i know arsenal lose to tottenham. yeah...
why i can't concentrate?? because... i like to observe my dear from close. yeah she late today for class then replace on second class. ha ha... every time when she come close to me, i will stare at her cheek and wanted to kiss her. but i didn't. i always ask her permission before doing anything on her. because i respect her. today don't know how, but somehow, she gave me the special 'gift' again. i was so shocked. i felt the warmness in her when she get close to me although we are in a very cold place. thanks dear for everything.
i know that you have develop your feelings to me day by day. in fact it increase daily. me too dear.. i also comes to realize your worries. you afraid i will not treat you the same way i treat you now, if we officially become couple right? yeah that is what every girls worry about. its normal dear.
i can't force you or say anything right now. but only time will proof my love to you dear. only time will show to you how much i love you.
it was my first time to take such video like that. it was sooooo sweet dear... thanks...
i can tell that, from the moment i decided to be with you, I've already developed my feelings toward you, to the level which equally to very high. and it maintain daily. without failed..
happy ma dear? or shall i put it in this way?
my feelings to you grow everyday just like the flowers at garden. they need water that you pour with your love. as plowers need fertilizers, you kept them look healthy by providing the optimum amount needed, from your kind heart. the warmness you had, prepare those flowers keep blossom even during winter. imagine. how sweet and memorable is it to watch flowers blossom during winter time with you in our own-made garden. we were sitting on a pair of chairs made from wonder woods from California, with your favourite white coffee originate from ipoh and my favourite cappuccino ice blended on a wooden table. we sat near the window facing our garden and it was a wonderful evening for us. holding hands, looking at the flowers blossom, at that moment, it recalled me of the same winter somewhere 30years ago. where it was when we confess to each other. it was when our love blossom just like how the flowers blossomed. even though we face many obstacles, just like how difficult those flowers struggling to survive during winter, we manage to overcome all these barriers between us and built up a warm family, as warm as we felt from the burning woods during winter. the snows fall... the sun set. and i look deep into your attractive brownish eyes saying "sweet heart, the eyes that I'm looking now is the same attractive brownish eyes that i stare at, 30years ago. lets go for dinner. our children is waiting for us."
and it is when you pull my hand and said "dear, thank you for all these years. i can never find this anywhere, whosoever. i know that the garden is actually represent your heart you built for me 30years ago. you told everyone how important am i and how heavy my duty is to keep these flowers blossom even during winter. but i came to realized that, it is impossible for me to do all these without you, keeping the garden from insects, thieves, wild animals, and natural disasters."
the tears flow from your eyes pool. which touch deep inside my heart. i hold your hand, and put it on my chest saying, "can you feel that my heart pour it's tears for you? my heart never stop beating, just like the love in us never end. because they beat for you."
"remember why our children always asked us the same question during this time? they are still far too young to understand this. in their eyes, its only an empty garden fills with wild grass. but in our eyes , it always glorious because the love we share all these years. i love you sweet heart. just like the way i do, 30years ago."
and you answered, "the moment i followed you back to this wooden house, it already represent i will follow you the rest of my life. mo matter where you go. the efforts i put to keep our garden alive shown how much i love you dear."
somehow later, we breath our last breath together, holding hand, sitting on our chairs looking at the beautiful skies. there was a shooting star named Lover that comes only once in three decades. i make a wish. that wish is to live with you forever. and it comes true, for once and all.
you told me you made a wish too.what is that wish sweet heart? you said,
"to be with you til my last breath. and it comes true too =)"
and there goes our souls. return to where we belongs.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
DPR1 TARC JANUARY 2008 INTAKE at ONE UTAMA
before 12pm i've reach wangsa maju station. steven kind of late 5minutes like that. but calvin reach even earlier than we do. after that we took train to kelana jaya station (last station, about 20stations from wangsa maju station). luckily got seat. then met NG and belle at masjid jamek station.
reached at kelana jaya station we took 2taxi to one utama. then all of us like lost in the mall. we decided to lunch first only sing k at neway. we all starving actually. its only steven, belle, calvin, NG and me. KK still at genting and joined us later.
finished, we went to Neway straight. sing sing sing and sing til voice out. very nice lo but still remain formal. i mean didn't jump on the couch la like last time... wakaka...
then before we finish sang kk finally come to joined us. she didn't sing but shout a lot. wakaka...
its so kind of you dear for offering me the sore throat sweet. thanks for that i can talk now. don't think i'll lost my voice tomorrow gua... then we went watch movies. darn it. continue cloverfield.
before going into cinema, kk and me went out to pass the vegetable to kk's cousin who also worked at one utame saloon. since the movie we watched half way already so we decided enter half way later. darn ticket cost rm11 on public holiday. gosh... we walked around one utama before going into cinema.
in the cinema i found out that dear is sooooooo cute and adorable. i felt that way all the time la but different place different situation la.. wakaka... so also different feeling lo.. haha...
about the movie, honestly, its sucks. admit it JJ Abrams. we do not know how the monster came from and what with the tiny things that comes out from its body. it seems like combination of spider(8legs) and ants (from the movie starship trooper). we don't know the functions of these creatures and it just came out from no where and attacked the city of new york. one thing for sure it doen's seems to like the statue of liberty. wakaka.... then it attacked human and the movie goes on. belle even felt dizzy because the camera move here and there. just like watching pirated dvd the cameraman keep on movng around. and it just end with rob express his love to his gf and so do her.
eventually i went to google to search about this movie. it said after the credit (those words coming up from the screen stated actors and directors like that) it was actually they dropped something into the sea and woke that monster up from sleep since long time ago... lame lame lame.... waste money watch it..
after watch hang around at bowling park and have some tea before going back. dear fetch all of us go back. i'm the last. it was me to drive to my condo before she go back herself. i so worry about her because have to go all the way to pj alone. hope she'll move to genting klang asap..
then she won't be so tired and have to go long way to get home...
well before i went back i get a special "gift" from her. can't say what is that special "gift" but it really shocked me as it not obvious and i don't expect it to be done like that lo.. i was stunned til stand there don't know what to do.
dear sweet heart, the moments we spent together might be many hours but i always felt it was soo fast that i don't want it to end. you feel the same way too right... yeah you told me that =P
reached at kelana jaya station we took 2taxi to one utama. then all of us like lost in the mall. we decided to lunch first only sing k at neway. we all starving actually. its only steven, belle, calvin, NG and me. KK still at genting and joined us later.
finished, we went to Neway straight. sing sing sing and sing til voice out. very nice lo but still remain formal. i mean didn't jump on the couch la like last time... wakaka...
then before we finish sang kk finally come to joined us. she didn't sing but shout a lot. wakaka...
its so kind of you dear for offering me the sore throat sweet. thanks for that i can talk now. don't think i'll lost my voice tomorrow gua... then we went watch movies. darn it. continue cloverfield.
before going into cinema, kk and me went out to pass the vegetable to kk's cousin who also worked at one utame saloon. since the movie we watched half way already so we decided enter half way later. darn ticket cost rm11 on public holiday. gosh... we walked around one utama before going into cinema.
in the cinema i found out that dear is sooooooo cute and adorable. i felt that way all the time la but different place different situation la.. wakaka... so also different feeling lo.. haha...
about the movie, honestly, its sucks. admit it JJ Abrams. we do not know how the monster came from and what with the tiny things that comes out from its body. it seems like combination of spider(8legs) and ants (from the movie starship trooper). we don't know the functions of these creatures and it just came out from no where and attacked the city of new york. one thing for sure it doen's seems to like the statue of liberty. wakaka.... then it attacked human and the movie goes on. belle even felt dizzy because the camera move here and there. just like watching pirated dvd the cameraman keep on movng around. and it just end with rob express his love to his gf and so do her.
eventually i went to google to search about this movie. it said after the credit (those words coming up from the screen stated actors and directors like that) it was actually they dropped something into the sea and woke that monster up from sleep since long time ago... lame lame lame.... waste money watch it..
after watch hang around at bowling park and have some tea before going back. dear fetch all of us go back. i'm the last. it was me to drive to my condo before she go back herself. i so worry about her because have to go all the way to pj alone. hope she'll move to genting klang asap..
then she won't be so tired and have to go long way to get home...
well before i went back i get a special "gift" from her. can't say what is that special "gift" but it really shocked me as it not obvious and i don't expect it to be done like that lo.. i was stunned til stand there don't know what to do.
dear sweet heart, the moments we spent together might be many hours but i always felt it was soo fast that i don't want it to end. you feel the same way too right... yeah you told me that =P
study group at library by DPR1 january 2008 intake
well besides studying of course we also chat a lot la. then on sudden belle said my eyes attractive. said i ''shocked'' her and don't want to look at my eyes so that she won't fall in love with me wor.. my reaction was, "what the heck??"
i'm so blurr and shocked because never got people say my eyes attractive. then suddenly NG add on by saying my smile attractive too. again my reaction was "what on earth??" also never got people say my smile attractive. really meh?? i don't know o.. anyway thanks a lot you guys.
the study group so noisy.. kakaka... can't study le... so i can't finished tutorial work. but its ok i manage to finished it at home. luckily but its very hard too. thanks a lot guys...
i'm so blurr and shocked because never got people say my eyes attractive. then suddenly NG add on by saying my smile attractive too. again my reaction was "what on earth??" also never got people say my smile attractive. really meh?? i don't know o.. anyway thanks a lot you guys.
the study group so noisy.. kakaka... can't study le... so i can't finished tutorial work. but its ok i manage to finished it at home. luckily but its very hard too. thanks a lot guys...
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
22 JANUARY 2008
today is my 3rd sister birthday but forgotten to send her msg. darn she screw me. wakaka.. actually i remember but once end the call i forgot lo... haha..
then yesterday night chatted with dear sweet heart til 3am++ so happy le. its so sweet...
then the next day like zombie. gosh darn it. ceh... not first time la...
chat alot with dear lo.. until phone cut off few times because 40minutes dy, no credit and no battery... i don't know but they told me that normally phone will automatically cut off your call after 40minutes like that to avoid your phone from burst. haha...
we share alot of things and i asked lots of thing too... of course can't write here la. its private. i feel the feeling of first love again.. thanks God...
actually she was sleeping de, then i thought wanna miss call her for about 20times ma like the day before to shocked her. haha... then less than 8times she sent me message.. then she woke up and we chat and chat and chat lo... she was sooooooo cute le... her voice that just woke is.... waa... so cute lo.. then when she sneeze her 'wan tan mee' that time, yeah sounds like wat tat but... no comment...
its so sweet to observe her cute adorable look. it just melted my heart today (in english class lo)
she willing to didn't put any make up for me. she said one la.. so i see and, well i feel it is better that put make up lo. it lok more natural and still cute. in the class she touch my face few times le.. but don;t know what is that mean la. well if you judge her by her apperance then you totally wrong. she actually very sweet and caring. plus can be romantic too =)
but sadly she can't lunch with me cause have to go genting with her mom... tomorrow (23 january 2008 ) we are going to one utama for neway and movies afterward. dear will join us later. haihz.... so miss her now... luckily i can see genting from my condo. so can see her stars glowing on genting there lo... i nearly 5years didn't go genting dy lo.. maybe during sem break will go. or maybe to redang. wasai.... pokai lo like that... budget budget budget man.... wakaka....
sweet heart, it so sweet of you for the present.. thanks a lot dear... thank you..
then yesterday night chatted with dear sweet heart til 3am++ so happy le. its so sweet...
then the next day like zombie. gosh darn it. ceh... not first time la...
chat alot with dear lo.. until phone cut off few times because 40minutes dy, no credit and no battery... i don't know but they told me that normally phone will automatically cut off your call after 40minutes like that to avoid your phone from burst. haha...
we share alot of things and i asked lots of thing too... of course can't write here la. its private. i feel the feeling of first love again.. thanks God...
actually she was sleeping de, then i thought wanna miss call her for about 20times ma like the day before to shocked her. haha... then less than 8times she sent me message.. then she woke up and we chat and chat and chat lo... she was sooooooo cute le... her voice that just woke is.... waa... so cute lo.. then when she sneeze her 'wan tan mee' that time, yeah sounds like wat tat but... no comment...
its so sweet to observe her cute adorable look. it just melted my heart today (in english class lo)
she willing to didn't put any make up for me. she said one la.. so i see and, well i feel it is better that put make up lo. it lok more natural and still cute. in the class she touch my face few times le.. but don;t know what is that mean la. well if you judge her by her apperance then you totally wrong. she actually very sweet and caring. plus can be romantic too =)
but sadly she can't lunch with me cause have to go genting with her mom... tomorrow (23 january 2008 ) we are going to one utama for neway and movies afterward. dear will join us later. haihz.... so miss her now... luckily i can see genting from my condo. so can see her stars glowing on genting there lo... i nearly 5years didn't go genting dy lo.. maybe during sem break will go. or maybe to redang. wasai.... pokai lo like that... budget budget budget man.... wakaka....
sweet heart, it so sweet of you for the present.. thanks a lot dear... thank you..
Monday, January 21, 2008
IVY LEONG
i want to take this opportunity to thank the girl i mention her name above. yeah she helped me for this template and for the future too. she had taught me how to do it. yes i'm a noob!!!
thanks to her a lot thats why purposely thank her here as a token of appreciation. thanks ivy.
thanks to her a lot thats why purposely thank her here as a token of appreciation. thanks ivy.
Friday, January 18, 2008
new year celebration at golden river
well i know that 2008 has already nearly 3weeks into it. but since i created blog today so write today lo.. well, really happy celebrating with the taekwondo family. yeah the tarc taekwondo club 'family'. and of course with my wife also la..
its like.. so enjoyable and crazy.
why so crazy? because i feel close with them! and i not always so close with people k... yeah right. play spray with each other the spray was belongs to me because they didn't bought it so i did.covey tak ingat main spray macam spray air kat bunga. wakaka!!!
then watch fireworks with beloved. well great memory. and i so boring when everyone shouting ''yeah!!''
i like something different so i shouted "ite!!" and "yameteh"
don't ask me what does it mean. and it ended with me getting spray from a bunch of guys happen to pass by. maybe they think i'm crazy. wakaka!!
then they went back together and bey tey with me take lrt. thats it for new year lo..
its like.. so enjoyable and crazy.
why so crazy? because i feel close with them! and i not always so close with people k... yeah right. play spray with each other the spray was belongs to me because they didn't bought it so i did.covey tak ingat main spray macam spray air kat bunga. wakaka!!!
then watch fireworks with beloved. well great memory. and i so boring when everyone shouting ''yeah!!''
i like something different so i shouted "ite!!" and "yameteh"
don't ask me what does it mean. and it ended with me getting spray from a bunch of guys happen to pass by. maybe they think i'm crazy. wakaka!!
then they went back together and bey tey with me take lrt. thats it for new year lo..
Thursday, January 17, 2008
17 january 1989
yeah right it was 19years ago then.
but today is so different from all the previous year. let me tell you people out there my celebration of my 19years on earth start from when i still studying in form5(2006,17years)
when i still at smk bandar baru seri petaling studying for spm, i had my birthday. not in a pretty way you see. few days before my birthday (can't really remember which date) i had fever. i think la. then few days later only back to school. then my gf, back then, wanted ME to take MY present from HER dad's car. "what the heck? " is whawt some of you guys think right? well not to say bully girls but we guys expect girl to bring to present to you by themselves right? yeah right.
she gave me a big purple + pink love shape with the word "be mine"
you know what is my first impression? oh gosh so 'hao' !! macam la aku sudah hutang sama dia 10ribu tahun. mesti jadi dia punya ka?!! after we broke the love shape 'disappear' from my room immedietly.
one year later, 2007. 18years, chinese clled 'pok pok chui' .
finished spm liao then go work at hang tuah. wholesales. well the shop, AMX doesn't want guy worker but luckily he small boss said maybe they need guy's strength, when new stocks come.
i go to work just wear old school pants with sandals. wakaka!! well my appearance not important. is my commitment more than anything. plus my work mostly at store, aka store keeper. at first quite suffering. but after 3weeks i got used to 2store. yeah i handle 2store myself. my job is pretty easy, if used to it la. when customers want this products, just get it for them lo.. it required quick, smsart and mostly memory. i don't have much any of 3of them but i enjoy alot in my work and i develop those 3talents eventually.
so after work(6pm) my collegue went out to buy me a cake. i tell you what. its nice. i still keep the photo til today and the video as well. my supervisor called me 'toro'. you know him? main actor in the drama 'snow angel' aka 'xue tian zhi' i suppose if not misspelling.
then after work, friends who battle in the spm war with me, yee ying, hui ting, and chooi yee if not mistaken, and ying's bf too, back then la, fetch me and celebrate again. they bought me a new sport shoes and a cake. yeah! 2 cakes in one birthday!! very happy lo. i tell you what. although i don't like that shoes bu eventually when i joined tarc taekwondo i need it every training. haha... thanks guys!
2cakes per day. so happy. tell my sister and she said she received 5cakes on her birthday. darn it look down on my happiness pulak...
got angpau from mom as usual but eventually lost it. you know where i keep it? inside my pillow. at first my mom said no money but i forced her to give me. because traditional ma... must follow... hehe... then she gave to me at last. but around 20january like that lo. i don't mind. although it just rm10 but it means a lot to me. until the very second now i still wondering where did it lost. impossible i drop it because i keep it in my pillow!! damn roommate steal it. but believe me he won't do so. why? because he is richer than me and now he is doing his way to be the winner of project superstar 2008. he did it to the 24 finalist in kl. his name is tang kai wen. maybe will use english name as kevin. vote him guys if you like him. he is handsome and have good talents it singing as well as playing guitar except for one. he is damn porn minded. wakaka!! who said porn boy can't be superstar?! screw it k look at the westerners.
this year, 2008. year of rat. i know i'm 19 this year but believe me when i said i'm 18. why? check this out guys.
first i just wear simple to college. very simple. don't even wax my hairs. because i expect to go back home sleep after class. only one class ma til 11am. yeah calvin do ask me want to waste my birthday like that meh.. i said "aiya normal la"
out of sudden my birthday clash with michelle lee. yeah my new friend aka class and coursemate. and out of surprise the alien (yeah its you kk, called her like that because she acted strangely and her look doen't belong to earth. sorry i over exaggerate) ask we all go cheong k or at least watch movie. so i said "i watched all latest nice movies liao la. now only wait chinese new year see got what movies lo".
so in the bus, i don't know how, but somehow, God help me again. out of the sudden NG's friend have newspaper. i just borrow it because it want to see cartoon but alien saw the movie list. so she check it out lo. cloverfield. thats what we decided to watch. and i wanted to watch that too. so reach times square we bought tickets and went in lo. but one hour later, damn cinema got problem.
everything rewind. include the screen. it was upside down and everything were rewind. include the talking and subtitles. out of the sudden this is what happened, during CLIMAX!!
darn it. it last for about 20minutes and everyone like so annoyed. we enjoyed it by turning our hear upside down too... haha... at last the show ended like that and once the lights on i said "thanks be to God for this suprising gift"
so we got the refund lo. and went to low yat to buy calvin's cooling pad and steven's keyboard. after that when everyone wanted to go back, i recommended for a tea break since its still early. you know where is my favourite place. GASOLINE. celebrating memorable day at mourning place. the gasoline at golden river have haunted part ma. my favourite place. i find it, cute. hehe.. yeah i'm abnormal de. but i tell you what. i'm freaking phobia to horror movies now. can''t open my eyes for even 5minutes. then out of the sudden the alien and NG went out said wanna buy girls thing wor. well i don't suspect anything at first. tell you what. i feel it was just a normal hang out with friends more than my birthday, i don't feel it. maybe i was kinda in the exam mood. as many of my friends having exams. when they back, gasoline played happy birthday song and calvin walked in with a lychee spounce cake on his hand. darn he told me he went out to toilet de. well he said he wanted to go toilet but met the alien and NG outside struggling to fire the candle. guess what. one big candle with 8 small candle. you tell me what does it mean.
then alien put her mascara on me and make up me lo. deng... so ugly like snow man. i can't recognize myself. haha... took few photos. made a wish too! then finish already i go to central market to collect my present from my wife. yeah she already officially bought me a bag. tell you what. i like it a lot. and at central market i bring back football pillow. you know? small cute pillow with footballer name on it, just like a jersey one....
so i choose liverpool number 8 and 9. represent my year of born. also represent torres and gerrard. actually i wanted ac milan number 22 kaka, man utd number 7 ronaldo. but just for the sake of my year i born, i chose 8 and 9 lo...
another is bear bick lo. one big de. like a star war black character de. another is particularly smaller. look like a specky guy. suit me lo. haha.
then take all go back.
at home, as i expected earlier they will celebrate my birthday. because its so obvious when xiao fui asked me the day before what cake i like. i said tiramisu.
so after make a wish and blow the candle as usualy traditional, must use mouth to bite the candle out from the cake. and yeah you think easy? no if i said the candle is located to the deepest to the cake base. funny thing is the candle is longer than the cake deepest. and i did it myself. i mean i'm the one who put the candle to the deepest of the cake myself.
you know people will push your head right. so i do it in less than a second whereby people don't even prepare. so i win!!!! haha....
thats the end... and since then til now i keep on writing blog til now. because today is my first time create blog. thanks to my lil sister ivy leong. wakaka. until then, continue next time.
sesiapa di luar yang suday habis baca saya punya blog, terima kasih sepuluh kuasa lapan darab lima tambah tujuh kali kerana sudi baca falsampah saya. haha!! happy always guys..
but today is so different from all the previous year. let me tell you people out there my celebration of my 19years on earth start from when i still studying in form5(2006,17years)
when i still at smk bandar baru seri petaling studying for spm, i had my birthday. not in a pretty way you see. few days before my birthday (can't really remember which date) i had fever. i think la. then few days later only back to school. then my gf, back then, wanted ME to take MY present from HER dad's car. "what the heck? " is whawt some of you guys think right? well not to say bully girls but we guys expect girl to bring to present to you by themselves right? yeah right.
she gave me a big purple + pink love shape with the word "be mine"
you know what is my first impression? oh gosh so 'hao' !! macam la aku sudah hutang sama dia 10ribu tahun. mesti jadi dia punya ka?!! after we broke the love shape 'disappear' from my room immedietly.
one year later, 2007. 18years, chinese clled 'pok pok chui' .
finished spm liao then go work at hang tuah. wholesales. well the shop, AMX doesn't want guy worker but luckily he small boss said maybe they need guy's strength, when new stocks come.
i go to work just wear old school pants with sandals. wakaka!! well my appearance not important. is my commitment more than anything. plus my work mostly at store, aka store keeper. at first quite suffering. but after 3weeks i got used to 2store. yeah i handle 2store myself. my job is pretty easy, if used to it la. when customers want this products, just get it for them lo.. it required quick, smsart and mostly memory. i don't have much any of 3of them but i enjoy alot in my work and i develop those 3talents eventually.
so after work(6pm) my collegue went out to buy me a cake. i tell you what. its nice. i still keep the photo til today and the video as well. my supervisor called me 'toro'. you know him? main actor in the drama 'snow angel' aka 'xue tian zhi' i suppose if not misspelling.
then after work, friends who battle in the spm war with me, yee ying, hui ting, and chooi yee if not mistaken, and ying's bf too, back then la, fetch me and celebrate again. they bought me a new sport shoes and a cake. yeah! 2 cakes in one birthday!! very happy lo. i tell you what. although i don't like that shoes bu eventually when i joined tarc taekwondo i need it every training. haha... thanks guys!
2cakes per day. so happy. tell my sister and she said she received 5cakes on her birthday. darn it look down on my happiness pulak...
got angpau from mom as usual but eventually lost it. you know where i keep it? inside my pillow. at first my mom said no money but i forced her to give me. because traditional ma... must follow... hehe... then she gave to me at last. but around 20january like that lo. i don't mind. although it just rm10 but it means a lot to me. until the very second now i still wondering where did it lost. impossible i drop it because i keep it in my pillow!! damn roommate steal it. but believe me he won't do so. why? because he is richer than me and now he is doing his way to be the winner of project superstar 2008. he did it to the 24 finalist in kl. his name is tang kai wen. maybe will use english name as kevin. vote him guys if you like him. he is handsome and have good talents it singing as well as playing guitar except for one. he is damn porn minded. wakaka!! who said porn boy can't be superstar?! screw it k look at the westerners.
this year, 2008. year of rat. i know i'm 19 this year but believe me when i said i'm 18. why? check this out guys.
first i just wear simple to college. very simple. don't even wax my hairs. because i expect to go back home sleep after class. only one class ma til 11am. yeah calvin do ask me want to waste my birthday like that meh.. i said "aiya normal la"
out of sudden my birthday clash with michelle lee. yeah my new friend aka class and coursemate. and out of surprise the alien (yeah its you kk, called her like that because she acted strangely and her look doen't belong to earth. sorry i over exaggerate) ask we all go cheong k or at least watch movie. so i said "i watched all latest nice movies liao la. now only wait chinese new year see got what movies lo".
so in the bus, i don't know how, but somehow, God help me again. out of the sudden NG's friend have newspaper. i just borrow it because it want to see cartoon but alien saw the movie list. so she check it out lo. cloverfield. thats what we decided to watch. and i wanted to watch that too. so reach times square we bought tickets and went in lo. but one hour later, damn cinema got problem.
everything rewind. include the screen. it was upside down and everything were rewind. include the talking and subtitles. out of the sudden this is what happened, during CLIMAX!!
darn it. it last for about 20minutes and everyone like so annoyed. we enjoyed it by turning our hear upside down too... haha... at last the show ended like that and once the lights on i said "thanks be to God for this suprising gift"
so we got the refund lo. and went to low yat to buy calvin's cooling pad and steven's keyboard. after that when everyone wanted to go back, i recommended for a tea break since its still early. you know where is my favourite place. GASOLINE. celebrating memorable day at mourning place. the gasoline at golden river have haunted part ma. my favourite place. i find it, cute. hehe.. yeah i'm abnormal de. but i tell you what. i'm freaking phobia to horror movies now. can''t open my eyes for even 5minutes. then out of the sudden the alien and NG went out said wanna buy girls thing wor. well i don't suspect anything at first. tell you what. i feel it was just a normal hang out with friends more than my birthday, i don't feel it. maybe i was kinda in the exam mood. as many of my friends having exams. when they back, gasoline played happy birthday song and calvin walked in with a lychee spounce cake on his hand. darn he told me he went out to toilet de. well he said he wanted to go toilet but met the alien and NG outside struggling to fire the candle. guess what. one big candle with 8 small candle. you tell me what does it mean.
then alien put her mascara on me and make up me lo. deng... so ugly like snow man. i can't recognize myself. haha... took few photos. made a wish too! then finish already i go to central market to collect my present from my wife. yeah she already officially bought me a bag. tell you what. i like it a lot. and at central market i bring back football pillow. you know? small cute pillow with footballer name on it, just like a jersey one....
so i choose liverpool number 8 and 9. represent my year of born. also represent torres and gerrard. actually i wanted ac milan number 22 kaka, man utd number 7 ronaldo. but just for the sake of my year i born, i chose 8 and 9 lo...
another is bear bick lo. one big de. like a star war black character de. another is particularly smaller. look like a specky guy. suit me lo. haha.
then take all go back.
at home, as i expected earlier they will celebrate my birthday. because its so obvious when xiao fui asked me the day before what cake i like. i said tiramisu.
so after make a wish and blow the candle as usualy traditional, must use mouth to bite the candle out from the cake. and yeah you think easy? no if i said the candle is located to the deepest to the cake base. funny thing is the candle is longer than the cake deepest. and i did it myself. i mean i'm the one who put the candle to the deepest of the cake myself.
you know people will push your head right. so i do it in less than a second whereby people don't even prepare. so i win!!!! haha....
thats the end... and since then til now i keep on writing blog til now. because today is my first time create blog. thanks to my lil sister ivy leong. wakaka. until then, continue next time.
sesiapa di luar yang suday habis baca saya punya blog, terima kasih sepuluh kuasa lapan darab lima tambah tujuh kali kerana sudi baca falsampah saya. haha!! happy always guys..
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