you know who im addressing this to. i knew you want it and asking for it. so now you got it. less do i need to say. there is no need for words now. this blog has it all and what is in my mind and what i want to say. im enough. ENOUGH. tired and sick of all this bullshits. fcuk off from my life. fcuk off.
why i said so? hugging other guy, in the mind thinking other guy. should i label you as playgirl? or just a piece of society shits? what you want. DONT TOUCH ME. you gave me enough shits so now get the hell outta my mind. when i just wanted to let you go, you pull me back. but its all confusing. sleeping together but denied we are couple. bullshits that is what i call it. so dont fcuking mess with me. i got more important things to deal with.
people who are uneducated, means stupid. idiot and have no meaning in life. confucius said, man need education, brahmin said only education can change your level in the society. dont believe me please and other people. but do believe in history because we came from there. and we will end there if we didnt believe in facts, history, lesson. why do ancient civilization extinct, its because they refuse to educate themselves. in other words, they destroy their own generation.
only educated people know what is their need. what is their goal in life. and what they have to do. for those dont want educate themselve, your life is nothing but a plain shits. you are just pushing yourself to dead. you know no limit and you are so damn childish.
you are childish. but i dont care. when you in the situation, you must live in that situation... what would your mom think and feel if she knew what you doing right now. bring guys go back room? play game all night? never concentrate in studies? ladies and gentlemen out there. please help me describe a person who didnt concern about its own studies, waste money studying and other thing. live a meaningless life, and CARE NOTHING ABOUT ITS OWN FINAL EXAM. please answer. thanks
you knew it gonna hurt people but you still do it. learn from your mistake. he told you if you do it he gonna left you. yet you do it. this is call dont appreciate people. and stupid enough to purposely spoil it. its all your own decision that cause this to happened. you knew it yet you still do it. people, tell me what is this. when you know the road gonna lead you to death, but you still want to go for it. suicide???
im enough. just get out from my life. i cant accept someone who cant think for itself. although i do have lil feeling, but its fading away. dont blame me. its you that make it fade away by time. look upon yourself.
light up the darkness.
Friday, November 20, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Emo yet meaningful day
I was waken up by my sai sAi lap from several calls she made me. Today i broke de first plate in my career. It also broke my clean record. Which also broke my future in this long term career. Eventually, de day has come where i shall fall. As i stood there staring de broken plate, my heart goes broken too. Frustrated by my mistakes n overhaul by my past, who am i today? Y i cant get rid of de past?
Today, both of my frens came into my barrack. Thats wat i call my battle field. Both of them used to be my closest frens back then. But de moment they step into de shop, i become so numb. Feelingless. Neither i shall neo wat reaction i should giv. Its like de flashback of history back then. I should be happy as its like a reunion some sorta thing. But i aint feel so.
Eventually i found out I've been superior. I lost my own identity n i lost my self esteem de moment my base been intruded. I lost my very own battle without even walk a step further. I used to tell my frens not to giv up without a good fight. But today i brought lost to my army. I've lost de battle without even sending any soldier for it. Do i been overhaul by my past? Or it jus de hatred deep inside my heart that unforgiven? I really dono. Felt such a loser. Frustrated by myself.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
TarCians, rmb today because today is de day v die in battlefield
Took this moment before last battle in second year second sem. MNG
Moment before final paper MNG
Took this in library... Too boring... Study too much. Brain cant enter information liao. Hope later can answer question >.<
Saturday, August 1, 2009
H1N1 in TARC
It’s a total crap H1N1 in TARC. and everyone hope college to be close for a week at least due to moutain of mid term, assignments and presentation (not to mention 8am class, if late 15minutes no attendance will be taken, you know who am i talking about dude).
Everyone wants the college to be close due to H1N1 but anyone wants to be the victim of this vaccine-less disease??
NO.
So, stop dreaming and dont screw up your days in college life. However, from what i observe, there are disease which more contagious and harmful to us. This can be spread easily by airborn.
Bronchitis... fungus. Both diseases happened to my classmate which cost them dearly. One just entered hospital this afternoon.
What is H1N1? Both Bronchitis and fungus can be spread easily. If you think only H1N1 is contagious, think again. Still going for crowded place like pikom pc fair? Tarcians rushing to visit it or work for it. Think about it. You are just putting yourself into dead zone, perhaps.
H1N1 had the widest coverage in the nation. That doesnt mean other disease is less contagious or will not spread. Nor shall YOU take less safety precaution to your own health. Malaysians, kl especially, had so far not yet been infected seriously with H1N1.
While rural area already hit by this H1N1. Come to think about it. Thousands of people in a 10feet square land? Yet no one infected? Please. This is not left4dead or resident evil. We are HOPING the outcome of 28days/weeks later to happen to us where human nation had been push to the edge of extinction.
YOU waiting some kind of LEGEND like WILL SMITH to stand up front line to survive our human nation? Go watch I AM LEGEND 2007 movie then.
Last but not least, kl people especially, see fashion as their part of life. Perhaps, most important element in their life. They rather get infected and sleep whole month in hospital then wear masks. It looks weird and noob with the masks isn't?
Haha... good comment. Weather you want to take care you health or you find your life meaningless and want to create some ENTERTAINMENT outta your boredom of life, its all in your hand brothers and sisters.
If you think your handsome and pretty face (or cutie innocent look) will secure you from being infected, congratulation for being nominated as WORST CREATURE ON EARTH.
You can spend rm4.50 on a plate of nasi lemak at Steven corner. Or rm5 for 3hours cc at MU GOLD TBR. Or rm109 for a formal wear (for guys) from padini. And studying in TARC the most AFFORDABLE (not to mention CHEAP to jaga mr tan's face), yet can’t afford to buy a masks cost rm1????
What happened to us? What happened to the nation? Just because H1N1 get most coverage in the country, is that mean guys can screw the girls' hole without HELMET on?? And spread another disease that has NO vaccine since its appearance in the eye of the world in the eyar 1981?? Acquired immune deficiency syndrome.
People are like that. Rather choose to become a zombie than give up their good looking appearance. God has tried to help. But we refuse to believe in Him and think he does not exist. People, the difference between us and animals is that we have INTELLIGENT that determine our future, behaviour, attitude, black and white, good or bad, up or down.
Why we use it at a wrong place? What we have done? Look what we have done? People are dying and killing out there. You hear children crying. Trees being chop down innocently. Has our INTELLIGENT brought us to where we are today? Or this is what God asked Mr Einstein to teach us? Or actually our ATTITUDE brings us to what we are today.
If God had a chance to say to us, He may say this
"I gave you the Earth and you gave me shits. I'm so sick of this and enough seeing you mutha fcka wasting your INTELLIGENCE. Go fcuk yourself"
The next day you wake up, the only thing you see is the land is flat. Sun covered by dust. Sky no longer blue but reddish as blood filled the air. Plants died. Its not home alone. It’s the day God show us His MAJESTY
the reason i write this not to gain anything from you. but lets think of this. do we really want that to happen and cry regretful after that?
if we can prevent it from happening, why we rather asking for it?
Everyone wants the college to be close due to H1N1 but anyone wants to be the victim of this vaccine-less disease??
NO.
So, stop dreaming and dont screw up your days in college life. However, from what i observe, there are disease which more contagious and harmful to us. This can be spread easily by airborn.
Bronchitis... fungus. Both diseases happened to my classmate which cost them dearly. One just entered hospital this afternoon.
What is H1N1? Both Bronchitis and fungus can be spread easily. If you think only H1N1 is contagious, think again. Still going for crowded place like pikom pc fair? Tarcians rushing to visit it or work for it. Think about it. You are just putting yourself into dead zone, perhaps.
H1N1 had the widest coverage in the nation. That doesnt mean other disease is less contagious or will not spread. Nor shall YOU take less safety precaution to your own health. Malaysians, kl especially, had so far not yet been infected seriously with H1N1.
While rural area already hit by this H1N1. Come to think about it. Thousands of people in a 10feet square land? Yet no one infected? Please. This is not left4dead or resident evil. We are HOPING the outcome of 28days/weeks later to happen to us where human nation had been push to the edge of extinction.
YOU waiting some kind of LEGEND like WILL SMITH to stand up front line to survive our human nation? Go watch I AM LEGEND 2007 movie then.
Last but not least, kl people especially, see fashion as their part of life. Perhaps, most important element in their life. They rather get infected and sleep whole month in hospital then wear masks. It looks weird and noob with the masks isn't?
Haha... good comment. Weather you want to take care you health or you find your life meaningless and want to create some ENTERTAINMENT outta your boredom of life, its all in your hand brothers and sisters.
If you think your handsome and pretty face (or cutie innocent look) will secure you from being infected, congratulation for being nominated as WORST CREATURE ON EARTH.
You can spend rm4.50 on a plate of nasi lemak at Steven corner. Or rm5 for 3hours cc at MU GOLD TBR. Or rm109 for a formal wear (for guys) from padini. And studying in TARC the most AFFORDABLE (not to mention CHEAP to jaga mr tan's face), yet can’t afford to buy a masks cost rm1????
What happened to us? What happened to the nation? Just because H1N1 get most coverage in the country, is that mean guys can screw the girls' hole without HELMET on?? And spread another disease that has NO vaccine since its appearance in the eye of the world in the eyar 1981?? Acquired immune deficiency syndrome.
People are like that. Rather choose to become a zombie than give up their good looking appearance. God has tried to help. But we refuse to believe in Him and think he does not exist. People, the difference between us and animals is that we have INTELLIGENT that determine our future, behaviour, attitude, black and white, good or bad, up or down.
Why we use it at a wrong place? What we have done? Look what we have done? People are dying and killing out there. You hear children crying. Trees being chop down innocently. Has our INTELLIGENT brought us to where we are today? Or this is what God asked Mr Einstein to teach us? Or actually our ATTITUDE brings us to what we are today.
If God had a chance to say to us, He may say this
"I gave you the Earth and you gave me shits. I'm so sick of this and enough seeing you mutha fcka wasting your INTELLIGENCE. Go fcuk yourself"
The next day you wake up, the only thing you see is the land is flat. Sun covered by dust. Sky no longer blue but reddish as blood filled the air. Plants died. Its not home alone. It’s the day God show us His MAJESTY
the reason i write this not to gain anything from you. but lets think of this. do we really want that to happen and cry regretful after that?
if we can prevent it from happening, why we rather asking for it?
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Its different. So different.
Its so different. De one that i neo n de one that appear. All seems to be totally different. Y? I hardly kept my confidence. But this is wat i get? I neo one need to be protected. This is y i'm here. But i nvr expect this to happen. One had changed. Changed into some1 i really afraid. Very scare of. As if totally both different person. I'm very scare to lose one. I even scare de one become two. I very scare. Wat should i do? I don wan listen anything. I request nth than one. Only one. Not de two that i saw, that i afraid of. I still love one. But can i face two? I dono. I afraid to face two. It jus too scary. I felt that two is a person i've met last year that i so afraid of. Now again it appear in front. Y? I really love one. Pls, God. Giv me number one. I'm jus an ordinary guy who seek love from someone. I neo. I neo that one hardly trust guy due to past relations. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for wat they've done to me. Treat u right is wat i'll try my best. No promise i will make cos i don wan to break de promise n lose ur trust. Because that is de most important thing in relations. But pls, don put me as de same as other, or one past. I hate to be label de same as one past because i am who i am. I hope. Jus hope. U r de one i neo. I love one. ONE.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
love assignent missing you duty LOST
girls. never start a relationship if you dont trust a guy. dont start a relationship if you dont think the guy dont suit. dont ever think to start a relationship if you think be friend if better
because if you think girls are the only one that will hurt from a relationship you are wrong. if you think girls are the only creature that will drop tears for their loves one you are so wrong. if you think breaking a relationship is nothing to a guy then you are most wrong.
dont just because we are guys, girls will do whatever you want and never think of our feeling. we have mother, father, sisters and brothers. but why you treat us like we are some kind of feelingless human? did we owe you? i'm sorry for those guys that play and cheated their girlfriends. i'm sorry for girls that cheated by their boyfriend. i'm would like to apologies for what your former boyfriend had done to you.
but please dont put their blame on me. please dont put me the same as them.
but i didnt blame you for what had happened. because i knew that its hardly to trust guy again after your past relationship. i do believe in this world there is no such stupid person that will trust their new partner after cheated and hurt a lot by their past, except me. i dont care how hurt i was last time yet i till put my trust in you. because i really love you. thats it. no question.
but today is the day i gonna lost you, like FOREVER. i had heard enough. i had hurt enough. i had enough tears. i'm enough. i'm so tired of all this. i miss my family.... i dont know why when i'm happy, never thionk of them. only when i sad and down, i will think of them at first place. pai ga zai?
enough is enough. thanks for all the time and love you gave me. our time is short, but its gave me lots of memories. i dont know why you had such impact in my life. i dont know why i had so much feeling to you.
how long would i wait? i do not know. i wasn't a patient person. and i know i will NEVER suitable so i choose to give up now. as i wont be able to give you any happiness. sorry. kind of boring. my life is just come and go. just like a hotel. boring. tired. i really tired. perhaps i should take a rest.
i'm a playboy that dont know how to take care myself from being hurt. i'm a playboy that always drop tears for loved one. and i'm a playboy that being tried.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Puppy love? True love? Wat is love?
Finally i drop my first tear for u in my lecture. I couldn't wait anymore to write this. Because i don wan de feeling jus fade away. Today, as days before, i couldn't stand losing u. Its only one day. But it seems to be long, very long since i last heard u said u love me. I'm jus an ordinary guy who need someone to love me for who i am. I jus wan to be loved. Do i really finis? Is this de end?
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
earth hour
Life is a test and the world is a place of trial... The most precious thing in life is not what you can't have and what you have lost,,but lie in the happiness that you have now...
this phrase. i dont even realized it until one day i come to my own blog and view some of the comments. and, it just another simple yet meaningful phrase from a close friend of mine. i wish, just hoping, one day i will be able to speak those words myself. when? when is the day that i will come to it? long journey. long long journey. but some day i shall come to it.
on one night, when i was indirectly listening to this song, i fall asleep. and dream of you. perhaps you are another friend of mine that geeking for japanese stuff like its anime, and its culture as well. otaku japanese. haha. i dont know. in the dream, i am who i am. the character in the act was just like me. the real me. and so do the other actors around you. all represent you and your lifestyle that regard to japan style. every single of them... what i can say. the moment i meet you, you was in someone's arms. and it was warm arm that gave you sense of security and protection from no where. perhaps, he gave you what you need, and what you want. and you seems to be happy in his arm. i saw you. i saw you. but again, as the reality, i am no one to you. i shall say, i just another odinary guy that equally some rock on your pathway. i wish, hope that one day you will come to me and tell me that you dont mind that all. that will be the best and only answer i wanted to hear. the last thing i ever wanted to hear, its ok.
what can i say? what can i do? what shall i do? what will i do? how will i do that? yea she gave me the feeling of happiness. but such happiness can be found on anyone. even friends. what makes you different from others was, the special feeling taht you gave me. with her, i might seek others that can give me the same happiness feeling. but you, no one should be able to give me the same feel like you did. although, i may just another prince toad watching you from the riverside, seeing you happily ever after with your prince charming in his castle. i cant even take care of myself. how can i be able to take care you? i cant even have my own dream. how am i going to stay with you to achieve your dream? i cant even stand on my own legs. how im gonna be there for you when you need me?
being with her is just simple. which i will enjoy til the last day. but, meaningless is what i will found out. with you, every moment is magical. fantasy comes to life. dreams come true. even though there are many obstacles in our path, how much i wish you will be there with me to walk the path, and i shall give you my life to protect it. the love that contained you and me. the love that brought us together. the love that bind our heart from two different universe. i love you just the way you are. i am trying hard to understand this simple yet meaningful phrase. because this is the only phrase that describe you. if i cant hold on to this words, i shall not even have your eyes. not to mention your boundless love. its 5am in the morning since i started to write this. yea im sleepy and hope to drop my head on my pillow. but i know if i didnt write this now, the next morning i woke up, things will not be the same. i may even forget what happened now. i do understand that we have to apppreciate thing in front our eyes. and not complaining things that had passed or things that we cant get. hope you can understand it.
i not good with words. but only to say that i love you. yes temptation is there. in fact, alot. but nothing shall compare to you. sometimes, i just hope that, things will be simple as that is what i am. but it will never happened cause this world is complicated. wasai.... ok. its time to go class. see ya there...
Day After Day
leave
yeah, finally i realize that i am nothing without you
i was so wrong, forgive me
ah ah ah ah~
[verse 1; gd + top]
my broken heart like a wave
my shaken heart like a wind
my heart vanished like smoke
it can't be removed like a tattoo
i sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
only dusts are piled up in my mind
(say goodbye)
[gd rap]
yeah, i thought i wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
but somehow i managed to live on (longer) than i thought
you don't answer anything as i cry out "i miss you"
i hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless
[top rap]
what is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
i am worried, i feel anxiety because i can't get close nor try to talk to you
i spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
[chorus]
don't look back and leave
don't find me again and live (on)
because i have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
i can bear it in some way
i can stand in some way
you should be happy if you are like this
i become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
oh girl i cry, cry
you're my all, say goodbye...
[verse 2; sr + ds]
if we pass by each other on the street
[ Big Bang Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to
if you keep thinking about our past memories
i might go look for you secretly
[gd] always be happy with him, (so) i won't ever get a different mind
even smallest regret won't be left out ever
please live well as if i should feel jealous
[top] you should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
[chorus]
don't look back and leave
don't find me again and live (on)
because i have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
i can bear it in some way
i can stand in some way
you should be happy if you are like this
i become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
[bridge; ds + sr]
i hope your heart fees relieved
please forget about me and live (on)
those tears will dry completely
as time passes by
[yb] it would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all (mm)
hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
i pray for you
[chorus]
don't look back and leave
don't find me again and live (on)
because i have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
i can bear it in some way
i can stand in some way
you should be happy if you are like this
i become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
oh girl i cry, cry
you're my all, say goodbye, bye
oh my love don't lie, lie
you're my heart, say goodbye
this phrase. i dont even realized it until one day i come to my own blog and view some of the comments. and, it just another simple yet meaningful phrase from a close friend of mine. i wish, just hoping, one day i will be able to speak those words myself. when? when is the day that i will come to it? long journey. long long journey. but some day i shall come to it.
on one night, when i was indirectly listening to this song, i fall asleep. and dream of you. perhaps you are another friend of mine that geeking for japanese stuff like its anime, and its culture as well. otaku japanese. haha. i dont know. in the dream, i am who i am. the character in the act was just like me. the real me. and so do the other actors around you. all represent you and your lifestyle that regard to japan style. every single of them... what i can say. the moment i meet you, you was in someone's arms. and it was warm arm that gave you sense of security and protection from no where. perhaps, he gave you what you need, and what you want. and you seems to be happy in his arm. i saw you. i saw you. but again, as the reality, i am no one to you. i shall say, i just another odinary guy that equally some rock on your pathway. i wish, hope that one day you will come to me and tell me that you dont mind that all. that will be the best and only answer i wanted to hear. the last thing i ever wanted to hear, its ok.
what can i say? what can i do? what shall i do? what will i do? how will i do that? yea she gave me the feeling of happiness. but such happiness can be found on anyone. even friends. what makes you different from others was, the special feeling taht you gave me. with her, i might seek others that can give me the same happiness feeling. but you, no one should be able to give me the same feel like you did. although, i may just another prince toad watching you from the riverside, seeing you happily ever after with your prince charming in his castle. i cant even take care of myself. how can i be able to take care you? i cant even have my own dream. how am i going to stay with you to achieve your dream? i cant even stand on my own legs. how im gonna be there for you when you need me?
being with her is just simple. which i will enjoy til the last day. but, meaningless is what i will found out. with you, every moment is magical. fantasy comes to life. dreams come true. even though there are many obstacles in our path, how much i wish you will be there with me to walk the path, and i shall give you my life to protect it. the love that contained you and me. the love that brought us together. the love that bind our heart from two different universe. i love you just the way you are. i am trying hard to understand this simple yet meaningful phrase. because this is the only phrase that describe you. if i cant hold on to this words, i shall not even have your eyes. not to mention your boundless love. its 5am in the morning since i started to write this. yea im sleepy and hope to drop my head on my pillow. but i know if i didnt write this now, the next morning i woke up, things will not be the same. i may even forget what happened now. i do understand that we have to apppreciate thing in front our eyes. and not complaining things that had passed or things that we cant get. hope you can understand it.
i not good with words. but only to say that i love you. yes temptation is there. in fact, alot. but nothing shall compare to you. sometimes, i just hope that, things will be simple as that is what i am. but it will never happened cause this world is complicated. wasai.... ok. its time to go class. see ya there...
Day After Day
leave
yeah, finally i realize that i am nothing without you
i was so wrong, forgive me
ah ah ah ah~
[verse 1; gd + top]
my broken heart like a wave
my shaken heart like a wind
my heart vanished like smoke
it can't be removed like a tattoo
i sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
only dusts are piled up in my mind
(say goodbye)
[gd rap]
yeah, i thought i wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
but somehow i managed to live on (longer) than i thought
you don't answer anything as i cry out "i miss you"
i hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless
[top rap]
what is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
i am worried, i feel anxiety because i can't get close nor try to talk to you
i spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
[chorus]
don't look back and leave
don't find me again and live (on)
because i have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
i can bear it in some way
i can stand in some way
you should be happy if you are like this
i become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
oh girl i cry, cry
you're my all, say goodbye...
[verse 2; sr + ds]
if we pass by each other on the street
[ Big Bang Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to
if you keep thinking about our past memories
i might go look for you secretly
[gd] always be happy with him, (so) i won't ever get a different mind
even smallest regret won't be left out ever
please live well as if i should feel jealous
[top] you should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
[chorus]
don't look back and leave
don't find me again and live (on)
because i have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
i can bear it in some way
i can stand in some way
you should be happy if you are like this
i become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
[bridge; ds + sr]
i hope your heart fees relieved
please forget about me and live (on)
those tears will dry completely
as time passes by
[yb] it would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all (mm)
hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
i pray for you
[chorus]
don't look back and leave
don't find me again and live (on)
because i have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
i can bear it in some way
i can stand in some way
you should be happy if you are like this
i become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
oh girl i cry, cry
you're my all, say goodbye, bye
oh my love don't lie, lie
you're my heart, say goodbye
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
first time experience this
well. 20 years. first time experienced this. damn tension about something that i shouldn't. why can't i just be a normal student? and do my responsibility as a student and a son? why must i meet with all this obstacle? i just another odinary person like many do. but why?
why must me? is it the meaning that is it the time i start to grow up? i don't know.
until very now i still can't accept the truth. the fact actually. i wish i could but i was to afraid to accept. yet i rather enjoying my fantasy life. why can't i just become an ordinary person?
i knew that when it comes, just face it. eric leong. its time for you to grow up. but why i find it hard to cope with? rubbish. this is all shits.
sick of this. i... do not know waht should i do next.
i fall for you the moment i saw you. i wish i didn't but eventually i did. having your number is because i just want to tell you how beautiful you are. even though you may not even care about it. even though you don't even bother to reply me. but i know the chance is there for me. and i can't just see it fly away again. and all i did is just to tell you that you are beautiful. i don't mind losing you as a friend as i do so because thi is what i feel about you. although we just another hi bye friend.
yet there is many temptation. when you fall for me, i still not assure of it because its all the rumor and stories that had playing around from the first day i know you. therefore i know its not true. i keep asking myself a very basic question. yet i can't answer to myself a satisfied answer.
today, finally i got the answer. thank to a friend of mine. i finally find this answer out of myself. i'm just an ordinary person. that is why i can't figure out the answer at first. idiotic of me. i with i could live my life as simple as i wanted to. but i knew i can't. please.
the answer is, do not leave the one that you love for the one that you like because the one that you like will leave you for the one that they love. simple yet complicated. not confusing after all huh. don't be greedy because one have to be appreciate what one have. otherwise, one will lose both and have nothing in return. this is what life is. i know it but i don't get it. what on earth is this. rubbish one will say but this is my life.
haih... but luckily i found my answer eventually. i may not know if we are better as friend or lover, but maybe i still too young for this. i definitely wanted us to be more than friend as my feeling towards you is growing as time pass by.
tonight will be the night that i will fall for you. over again don't make me cahnge my mind. i won't live to see another day, i swear its true. because a girl like you is impossible to find. your're imposible to find.
you are a part of a guy as many people will see. i afraid of you the first glance at you. but fall for you the next time our eyes meet. there is more than meets the eyes. you are a good girl. good student definitely. good daughter. and no doubt a good lover. i do not know why you had such past. although i really mad with him but angry you i shall not because love is blind. but i do believe it is a hard one and you gone through many difficult time to stand on your own. i can't believe you he treat you like rubbish. no doubt you are more careful and have doubt in believing guy. hopefully i can proof to you and one day you will realize that i am different from who he is. i am myself. i am who i am.
all i can say is i'm gonna treat you right because i really love you. i can't promise you anything because i don't want to break that promise and cause you to lose your trust on me. you are a really good girl. appreciate you i must. protecting you i shall. love you i will. time will proof everything as i do believe. i do not know how long i can wait as i am impatient people. but you definitely some one that worth my heart to fall to. apologies from me if i did or said anything wrong to you. i use my time to understanding you more and more. i try to control myself from going crazy over you. but one thing i can't control is i falling deeper for you. i love you.
why must me? is it the meaning that is it the time i start to grow up? i don't know.
until very now i still can't accept the truth. the fact actually. i wish i could but i was to afraid to accept. yet i rather enjoying my fantasy life. why can't i just become an ordinary person?
i knew that when it comes, just face it. eric leong. its time for you to grow up. but why i find it hard to cope with? rubbish. this is all shits.
sick of this. i... do not know waht should i do next.
i fall for you the moment i saw you. i wish i didn't but eventually i did. having your number is because i just want to tell you how beautiful you are. even though you may not even care about it. even though you don't even bother to reply me. but i know the chance is there for me. and i can't just see it fly away again. and all i did is just to tell you that you are beautiful. i don't mind losing you as a friend as i do so because thi is what i feel about you. although we just another hi bye friend.
yet there is many temptation. when you fall for me, i still not assure of it because its all the rumor and stories that had playing around from the first day i know you. therefore i know its not true. i keep asking myself a very basic question. yet i can't answer to myself a satisfied answer.
today, finally i got the answer. thank to a friend of mine. i finally find this answer out of myself. i'm just an ordinary person. that is why i can't figure out the answer at first. idiotic of me. i with i could live my life as simple as i wanted to. but i knew i can't. please.
the answer is, do not leave the one that you love for the one that you like because the one that you like will leave you for the one that they love. simple yet complicated. not confusing after all huh. don't be greedy because one have to be appreciate what one have. otherwise, one will lose both and have nothing in return. this is what life is. i know it but i don't get it. what on earth is this. rubbish one will say but this is my life.
haih... but luckily i found my answer eventually. i may not know if we are better as friend or lover, but maybe i still too young for this. i definitely wanted us to be more than friend as my feeling towards you is growing as time pass by.
tonight will be the night that i will fall for you. over again don't make me cahnge my mind. i won't live to see another day, i swear its true. because a girl like you is impossible to find. your're imposible to find.
you are a part of a guy as many people will see. i afraid of you the first glance at you. but fall for you the next time our eyes meet. there is more than meets the eyes. you are a good girl. good student definitely. good daughter. and no doubt a good lover. i do not know why you had such past. although i really mad with him but angry you i shall not because love is blind. but i do believe it is a hard one and you gone through many difficult time to stand on your own. i can't believe you he treat you like rubbish. no doubt you are more careful and have doubt in believing guy. hopefully i can proof to you and one day you will realize that i am different from who he is. i am myself. i am who i am.
all i can say is i'm gonna treat you right because i really love you. i can't promise you anything because i don't want to break that promise and cause you to lose your trust on me. you are a really good girl. appreciate you i must. protecting you i shall. love you i will. time will proof everything as i do believe. i do not know how long i can wait as i am impatient people. but you definitely some one that worth my heart to fall to. apologies from me if i did or said anything wrong to you. i use my time to understanding you more and more. i try to control myself from going crazy over you. but one thing i can't control is i falling deeper for you. i love you.
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